Finally decide on the location, it will be at Royal Plaza - Carousel. It's a international buffet and heard from colleagues that food there are not bad so hope all of you enjoy! Oh yah, please confirm with me by 1st August before 8pm if you are attending as I need to make a reservation.

Yesterday called lawyer, wanted to know how to change the kids' surnames. The only way is through adoption and it require his consent. Oh great, I fully aware that that idiot will not agree so I guess I got to try asking in Malaysia. Good luck to myself.

Bought biscuits to work today. Not that i had given up on dieting but I realise that I need to eat abit during lunch so I won't get gastric pain. Ya, had it yesterday around 5pm. Don't wish it to get worse so no choice. =P

YaYa

Been looking at canon cameras, buying 1 at the end of the month. Yeah, I will get to play with one very soon. Really looking forward to it. ^^

Decided to go on diet so that one of my wishes can come true. Since yesterday I have stopped taking lunch and intend to go on for at least a month. Of course I won't eat too much during dinner,it will be of the same portion before I go on diet. Wish me good luck! Kopi, you must also jia you! =D

I think my sore throat is coming, got to drink more h2o and hope it won't come. This couple of days I could feel pain in my throat and it gets better when I drank water. Just leave me alone, sore throat.

As usual, he pretend nothing happened last night when he got home. I also don't know why I don't feel like marrying, haha... Hopefully I won't be a runaway bride. :0

YaYa

Very tired, keeps yawning and unable to concentrate. Didn't sleep well last night, been waking up a few times and didn't sleep much as well.

Suddenly I don't wish to get married or even to be with him. I told him last night that I wanted to call off everything. Don't ask me the reason, I have no idea either.

YaYa

I am a happy girl. Just won $50 and a small hamper from ufm1003. Although amount is no alot, at least is better than nothing. Shared the good news with dear at the first moment. =D Now what should I do with it? I am considering to use it either to subsidy my new tops or my haircut. Wanted to save more $ so intending to spend on either 1 of them only. I know is sad, I wanted both but saving is more important. =(

Okie, confirm visiting his parents on the 2nd Aug. Yah, I know is like kinda of late especially when we are getting married on the 8th. Well, we need time to buy bus tickets. Dear had already got his friend to get 4 tickets there so once we confirm having return tickets, we shall get ours here.

I need help! I have not decide on what type of food or place on my wedding day. This is frustrating! Give me advice please. I am thinking of eating chinese cuisine  as well in case I can't find a suitable place for buffet.  The price would be roughly the same if we are going to eat not-so-cheap or not-so-expensive food. Ideas, ideas, ideas! I seriously in need of recommendations!

YaYa

Today is my last day of renovation, however, I wasn't delighted. I been waiting for this day to come and yet I don't feel excited at all. Perhaps it's because I don't feel my flat is truly done.

Yesterday painters came, didn't really consider as painting at all as they only painted portions of the walls. Like here got different colours so they paint over. But in the end, you can see a numbers of colours on my walls. There are yellow, green, different tones of white, pink... I am not asking for perfect but please don't treat me as colour blind can? At least have most of them paint and I am more than happy to accept it but now? If they don't bother, don't expect me to sign the handover documents either. They haven't even mend the holes on my walls and ceilings, I am still waiting...

YaYa

Okie, I finally ytook a picture hof mya dress and shoe. Yes, shoe without s coz I am lazy to get the other pair out so took it with 1 of them only. I don't think it make any diff since the shoe is lying on the floor to be taken only. =p

So how do they fare? Hope they suit the occasion. :/

Now left with my hair. Might be going to have it cut at Tiong Bahru Plaza and get it dye and highlight as well. =)
Should be keeping my hair length but the hair styler could do anything else with the rest, haha...

Intending to do my own makeup though I am not an expert. A couple of friends did intro me some of the makeup artistic but its doesn't really attract me when viewing their past job photos as giving it a pass.

YaYa

I cannot believe that I actually survive 6 days in my flat without toilet and water access! Another 4 more days and my flat will be back to its own self, I can't wait for that day to come. I miss my privacy, I miss my toilet and I miss my warm bath..

Right now I sitting at my living room as the guy is doing tiles in my room. Surprising that the cement only require a couple of hours and it will be dry. I guess it won't take long and my room shall be done. But I am wondering how are they going to move my 3-door wardrobe? It was super heavy and with part of the clothing in it. Don't care and don't bother, it's their problem. =P

Dear had talked to the electrical guy and he will be letting us use their power on the day they re-wire our flat. Not using to surf internet la, its my fridge that need power. If the fridge going to off for the whole day, i think the food inside will turn bad liao. Who is going to pay for that then?

Hope everything goes smoothly for the rest of the week, the flat is in a mess and dusty. Don't give me more problems liao.. *sob sob*

YaYa

Finally returned the wallet to the owner, she came to my office with 3 of her friends. To my surprise, she even bought me a box of chocolate (Ferrero Rocher) with a little card she made herself to thanks me. Haha.. It was one of my favourite chocolate! =D

Dear looks very tired for the past few days, think is because of the noise at home. Can' rest, can't rest.. Hope today will be better so he can rest abit.

Confused.. Don't know if his parents coming down or not coming over afterall. They wanted us to go visit them before Aug but judging by current situation, it's not possible as all our annual leaves have been used up for the renovation and the earliest holiday on fri/mon will be at Oct. They suggest us to go over on fri and come back almost straight after reaching there. -.- I mean it's tiring and kids will not like it as well. It's not 1/2 hours journey and 12 hours journey per trip and that make up to 24hrs just to visit and back home. zzz... I am not going lo, at least not now without leave or holiday.

Somehow I wish they won't be attending on that day, just don't want to see unhappiness on my BIG day.

YaYa

Yesterday went swimming and could see how happy the kids are, laughing and jumping around. Intending to bring them more often to swimming pool even when the flat is done, perhaps once a week or once per bi-monthly.

Didn't bring my hp along as I don't see any point of doing so. However, I forgot that I had mailed the owner of the lost wallet and she should receive the letter by yesterday. And yes, she sms me twice and missed-call me too. I only managed to get her call around 10.40pm. She sound like a kid and very happy about it too. Meeting her later and hopefully she won't be so blur in future, not everyone will take the effort to return.

Going swimming again today, better don't rain hor! I only be able to get water supply in my flat at the 8th day, means on next Tuesday. Nightmare ar.... I couldn't bring myself to use the toilet at the common corridor at every floor, it was sooo dirty and perhaps the main reason is there isn't a flush there. -.- If I need toilet, I got to take a lift down and use the one at the ground floor since that is a cleaner and better maintenance. :/

YaYa

I am soo tired.. I am still packing my house and at the same time, I am rushing my char in Eridanus world. Haiz... my maple earring can only get it at lv60 so I got to get myself to that lvl before I can rest.

Tonight going swimming, haha.. Swimming is an excuse only, going there to bath is my motive. Hope rain won't come in the evening for the rest of the week or else I got no place to bath. Will think of that when time comes bah, brain is sleeping at the moment.

Thursday
Found a wallet on bus when I was on my way home after work. There isn't any contact number inside, only a few cards like atm card, faceshop, game tap card and NRIC plus a $2 note. Tada! Mean I have no way to contact the owner.. Found a student movie ticket that was screen on 15/6/08 so assume she is a student and also saw that she is born on 1990. Searched the net and didn't manage to find any particulars of her or contact number.

Friday
Colleague gave me a suggestion, that is to send her a mail regarding about the wallet I picked up. Haha... Guess I stayed too long in IT world, had long forgotten the old but useful method in delivering a msg.

Was disappointed, supposed to have half day leave de but supervisor suddenly tell me not to take leave coz he and another colleague are going for meeting. I told him like on Monday and I was told approved leh. Already made appointment with dear and enen ler, think they must be disappointed as well. Anyway I met them for lunch, ate at MOS. =D Miss the food there, has been a long time since I last visited the restaurant.

Went to Shaw House's toys and kids' dept after that as enen's school shoes have give way. So fast and spoilt liao, she only start wearing that since feb/mar. =.= Got a pair of Oshkosh shoes, very pretty and she loves it alot. (No time to take photo as I need to rush back to work liao) As expected, she was unhappy that I have to leave her and show me the "face". Haiz... I told her to follow daddy and I'll meet her later. Actually I had intend to go off early without notice. Coz we are supposed to buy wedding band. His finger so thin and needs to custom the ring, we are not sure if we are able to get the rings in time or not since most of them require 2mths to custom ring.

Both of us very blur at the jewellery store, haha.. We just keep choosing the ring and didn't ask for the price at all even when we chose our rings liao. And before we went to Wistma, we had went to other outlet to view the rings ler and we thought the price on the ring is for 1 ring instead of a pair. Haha.. End up the rings are much cheaper than we thought and due to having excess $, dear bought me a necklace. I am so happy lo. I try to take photo tonight and upload them. =)

I went Charles and keith to buy shoes, intend to wear the dress I bought sometime ago but never worn before. It's a white tube dress so I wanted to find a pair of shoes to match them. Bought 3 pairs of shoes in the end, hahaha... It was packed in the shop and other than asking the salesperson to get my shoe size for the store, I DIY the rest myself. -.-ll

Went home after that, was almost 6.30pm liao. Oh yah, I left company at 4.20pm de and hopefully no1 realise. Actually at the most I get sack and find another job lo. It's no big deal, at least to me.

Saturday
Dear didn't work today, finally. There is a reason for not working today coz we need to pack the house, haha... One will never realise how much stuffs he/she has till he/she starts packing or clearing. We took the morning just to pack the book shelf and we are almost dead. I was already sweating and felt so warm. Conclusion: No packing under the hot sun. I forgot to buy swimsuit (suppose to buy ytd but was too happy with rings, necklace and shoes) so decided to go Tiong Bahru Plaza to look around, want to get some biscuits and pack them in my fridge too. Bought 2 floating boards for the kids, can't be playing with them at the kids' pool de bah. -.- I also got myself a 2-piece swimsuit, not bikini la. I don't dare to wear that also, haha.. Not much choice there, most of them look so auntie design. Some that look not bad do not have my size, sigh. All sizes are there, either you see it or you don't. Dear comment I look cute wearing the swimsuit, zzz. Continue packing in the night...

Sunday
Other than doing nothing at home, it's another packing day. SAD ar...

Lianhe Zaobao, 15 Jun 2008. Pages 10 - 11

Didn't blog for long time le, got missed me ma? Been busy ma.. (Mapling, backache, sleep, spending time with kids etc)

House will be getting renovation next Tues and last for 2 weeks. -.- Really hate that coz wont be able to use toilet for awhile and need to use public toilet outside, whether to use or bath. T.T Trying to tell myself it's just for 2 weeks and the flat will be like brand new. Haiz...

Got an interview by Zaobao reporter. Didn't manage to buy that day paper coz I thought is on Monday de. Sad and depressed liao.. Can't find anyone subscribe to it or even read it at all! F5!!! I only managed to buy the online edition and it soo unclear.. Sob sob.. If anyone know someone has 15th June 2008 Zaobao newspaper, please sell it to me or give it to me.

YaYa

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Lianhe Zaobao
15 Jun 2008

Unable to visit dear's parents this weekend, didn't manage to buy bus tickets there. Haha.. No choice de lo..

Backache getting better but still got to be careful the position I sit every time, really scare of getting the pain now. But still ok la, dear will massage my back for me. Hee...

Nowadays wedding bands so expensive.. Went JB on Sunday to pay downpayment and lawyer's fee, of coz ate there as usual and went to look at jewellery shop. A pair of wedding bands cost more than 2k ringgits. -.-ll Is this the normal price now? Is more than 1k in sg and hardly see anything on the ring lo, zzz... I want to a ring which allow me to wear daily and it won't scatch my kids' skin also. Ya, I do not need a big diamond ring. =)

Still has yet to upload the photos, haha.. Not I lazy la, is I keep forgetting about it. I always only remember it when I am at work lo. :/ Maybe too free at workplace so I have lots of time to recall. =D This weekend should be free to do so bah, not going any places. Oh yah, I am thinking if I want to go to the movie on Sunday or not since I am not going msia le. But I am not sure if I am allowed to bring my kids there or not since I only have 2 tickets. Hmm.. Let me consider bah, hopefully I remember to sms the DJs tomorrow morning (FRIDAY le, must sms!!!)

YaYa

Yesterday dear tried to book a time slot in ROM but by the time he managed to get into the website, all the time available is already fully booked. That was so fast lo, it's only 7am in the morning. -.-ll

So suddenly we are lost, had no idea what to do next. He wanted that particular date so we got to find alternatives. We search around and decide to try signing outside ROM and found celestial bliss. Well, they have a special package on that day which cost us $308 nett including the service of a marriage solemniser so at least we do not need to find one ourselves. Make an appt with the in-charge on the 22th May to pay and confirm the booking.

Next task; finding a wedding band. Yeah, I had totally forgotten about that till my friend and dear remind me. Haha... I kinda of blur liao lo, maybe I feel still quite long so not anxious yet. =P

Today I didn't want to go to work, back has been giving me problems. But keep telling myself to save up my annual leaves for emergency usages. Anyway, I went to see company doctor and was told that I might have stain my muscle. But hor, IT NEVER GIVE ME MC!!! Aiyo, that doctor is either very new or relief there coz her name tag at the reception is written on paper and put it up, unlike the rest of the doctors have their own name tag made of metal lo.

Fine, so I got to think of a way to make myself take time off. I planned to go to ufm1003 event which start at 1pm but normally people will reach there early to get a place. In case you are wondering, that's a event sponsored by Mr Bean regarding about the story I had been listening for the past 6 weeks. They will be giving out 300 soyabeans, 300 booklets and 50 pairs of movie tickets to the show also. Wenhong had booked a small cinema and intend to broadcast the movie version of it and it's not for sales de. T.T

Oh yah, I went to kinokuniya and managed to get that book I been trying to find. FINALLY!!! I am so happy about it. At least it didn't wasted my effort of skipping my lunch. =D Actually I didn't skip it on purpose, it was already 2pm when I get back to office lo. Didn't expect it to take me 3hrs. Haha.. At least I didn't come back late, is hard to explain to them lo.

I got some photos taken at the event but now I am too tired to upload them, will do so tomorrow. Hmm.. there are quite a numbers of photos queuing up, I am so lazy. Tomorrow bah, if I remember..

YaYa

Been lazy to update my blog for the past few days, haha..

My back has been giving me problems since sat. *Sigh* Sit and walk also pain, feel like lying there without moving.

3rd May 2008
Sad day.. Went zakum and I got dc at b3 with 70% hp left. I blur lo, I didn't know zakum is flickering and therefore I didn't press ctr-alt-del throughout the killing. I felt so depressed and disappointed. What to do? It my fault for not pressing what I suppose to do. Actually I didn't know when to press and keep worrying that I will die lo. Haiz.. Consider it as a lesson and experience learnt bah.

4th May 2008
Dear is officially a slave of bank le. Haha.. I can image my beautiful house, so happy now. Never knew that he got to sign so many documents. Total of 15 sets with about 4x pages each set. -.-ll By the time he finished, it was already afternoon and Ah B was complaining of hunger le. So we got no choice but to eat at JB since coming out need some time also, don't think the kids can tolerate it. We ate at a Hongkong restaurant, yummy. Too hungry then, didn't remember to take photos of it. =P When we reach home, it around 5pm liao. Haha... Took a long time to clear custom, many people there.

5th May 2008
Dad  called me this morning, was kinda of surprise. Well, didn't expect him to call me. He is in sg and asked me out for dinner. What past is past, I want to put them behind. Dad old le, I just do my job as a daughter. Mei, don't be angry with him le. Just let go bah.. Dad look very old, his hair almost all white. I brought dear along too and intro him to dad. We had dinner at Tiong Bahru hawker centre. Told dad that we footing the bill but he insist to pay. Haiz.. He asked if we wanted to go Sentosa this coming sat or not and mei, he asked u along too. I havent give him an answer yet, last night my hp on silent mode and missed his call. I forgot to change it back to normal mode ma. Haha..

6th May 2008
Busy busy busy.. I been busy browsing through mags and books, trying to look at kitchen designs and furnitures for our new houses. Ladies and gentlemen, feel free to give me comments and advices.   I appreciate it. =D

Something cropped up yesterday so didn't manage to go to the workshop. Decide to go on the 19th, right after I come back from Malaysia. Think will be dead tired then, might ask dear to get an earlier bus home bah.

After years of last ate BK's breakfast, we went over yesterday. Well, I didn't manage to finish my share. I gave it to enen and ah b. End up enen ate the most, haha.. We went to City Hall, trying to buy a present for kubao. Yeah, we bought 1 and enen is jealous coz we didn't buy for her. She kept saying she got no toy. Haiz.. She wanted a doll very much but we don't want to spoilt her by buying her present whenever she wants. We promised her to get it for her during her birthday but dear, should be xmas la. Haha... Xmas come first leh..

Popular no longer sells chinese books ar? Suntec outlet didn't sell lo, so disappointed. After walking for hours, we headed home. Maybe not used to go out le, feel tired easily and on our way home, we saw many people coming to town. =O

Cleared rubbish in my laptop, hopefully it can survive in zakum on Saturday. Dear almost fainted when he looked at my recycle bin, 1.4gb of rubbish. Hahahahaha... I am lazy to empty ma and scare later I delete wrongly so put it there just in case. :/

Very warm last night, no mood to go online at all. I just sat there watch tv with family and ate at Ajisen. Hehe...

Mummy thought I avoiding her and kept calling me. Aiya, I forgot my hp in silent mode and didn't realise till this morning. -.-ll Later got to give her a call, if I remember.

YaYa

Been listening to the story for quite some time and very touching so decided to share with friends. The story has been broadcast until episode 23 leh but I kinda of lazy so just link 5 of them here. Is short episode, only around 5 - 10 mins. If anyone wants the rest of the episodes, then I link them lo.

珍惜生命，感受爱！
"东京铁塔之老妈和我"
唤起你对母亲无私付出的感动。。。

Enjoy it!
Episode 1
Episode 2
Episode 3
Episode 4
Episode 5

YaYa

Was considering to registry marriage in sg or msia, not sure if I need to return my rented flat. Called HDB yesterday and got a confirmation that I can go ahead with the marriage in sg. Hohoho... I do not need to return the flat even I get married because he is a msian, he didn't has a long period pass in sg unlike PR and S'porean so they are unable to include his income.

MOM will be sending another approval letter next week so I guess everything settled. But hor, I still haven't make up my mind yet. Hahahaha...

Visiting his parents 2 weeks from now. Task that I don't like, haiz... Somehow I still feel his parents don't like us (my kids & me la) and some more they have yet to know that we intend to get married. He wanted to inform them when we visit them but I tell him not to. Is hard to react and perhaps might get into argument. I guess I am the one who can't take their disagreement and unhappiness. Imagine if your son bring his gf home for the first time and tell you they are getting marry. I guess most of you will be stunned and speechless, it's a unexpected situation bah?

Lalala... Don't want think so much, take a step at each time. =P

YaYa

Don't know why I been feeling unhappy, I just don't feel like smiling. Even I do smile, they are fake too. Maybe I haven't adjust my feeling that Janet is no longer here. It seems that someone planned to have her leave. Almost everyone in the company didn't know her leaving, everyone was just as surprised as us. Really don't understand why there is such people who used underlying hand to get things done. What's goes round come round, I firmly believe that.

Suddenly feel this company so cold and unfeeling. I will definitely not going to spend my life here. If they are leaving me here, I going to leave next year after bonus.

YaYa

Last night mummy called me. She talked to ah b ytd morning and ah b told her that we are moving but he didn't know where he is moving to.

Well, she told me don't move to JB. JB is unsafe, land expensive, unable to re-sell in future etc. Though she keep saying that she is not forcing me, only giving me advice and want me to consider carefully but I know she meant well. Mummy, I know you won't do us harm.

Both dear and me felt that JB and KL is of the same. Definitely sg is more safer than msia, i admit that too. If we were to move to KL, then we will not be seeing mummy much le and perhaps only once a year (Chinese New Year lo). KL not safe, penang not safe, JB not safe... Everywhere is not safe..

Actually we had been thinking to sign the papers or not. Did I mention that we only pay a deposit and have yet to sign the document? I wanted to have a home of my own, my dream house like the one we seen last week, to avoid that idiot but on the other hand, I am worried also. I don't know if I will ruin the kids' future or not. But I know education here proved to be too much for ah b to handle. And looking at the current situation, I can't just quit my job and stay at home to coach him. Standard of living here is very high, not much people can do that.

Let dear find out if there is any international school around the neighbourhood before we decide bah. Didn't sleep well last night, sigh..

YaYa

Sometimes thing just don't go your way.
I thought I found a close friend at work but no. I thought finally I found someone I can chat with when I am bored at work but no.
Janet was dismissed today, with immediate effect. It's really depressing and surprise. Both of us had no idea what happened and suddenly she was informed to leave. The reason they gave her was she is unable to click well with the rest of admins "aunties". What has it got to with her performance? I don't understand what are they thinking and guess neither do they understand us. Is this what we called generation gap? Frankly speaking, I don't really get along well with them as well. Only Janet and me are of the near age group, the rest are old enough to be my mummy le and not to mention most of them are 老姑婆.

She gave me many of her stuffs, said they are of no use now. Maybe she doesn't want to be remind of the sad incident so she gave them to me. She cried earlier when she told me today was her last day, I do not how to comfort her. She bought many things, there are a mini radio, choco bars, potato chips, a small pillow, a bear, a pencil case and a lunch box (to put biscuit i think). From her, I saw my old self. I used to bring many personal stuffs to work too but slowly I stopped. I feel is easier to pack my things one day I leave the company and perhaps not so much feelings being invested in it too. I kept everything in my drawer, locked it before I go home. Most probably I won't be using them in the office too, bringing them home when I am not lazy.

I got a feeling that my turn will be coming very soon. First, my probation period ends this mth and I have yet to receive confirmation letter. Second,  I had took a lot of leaves and mc during my work period. (Janet only took a day of mc and around 2 days annual leave?) I guess the reason that I have not asked to leave is because recently the contract dept has been very busy and couldn't cope without someone helps. Well, my job scope is to give a hand to them so I don't think they would want to retrain a new girl at this busy time. Time to look at newspaper recruitment ads and internet jobs agency. Haiz... I don't pin much hope in working long in this company but I would really hope that it can last me till next year after bonus. =(

Anyone want to cheer me up? :'(

YaYa

Ate spaghetti just now at lunch, yummy. Thanks dear, they are delicious. Janet been eating with me for almost 3 weeks or more (can't remember) and as usual, we went for a walk after lunch. Went to borders, wanted to find my book but found out they don't sell chinese novels. Zzz... After a round, we walked over to Shaw House and were thinking where to go and suddenly remember I need to buy a bdae present for kubao. Haiz... Only left 15mins to shop so we rushed up to kids' dept.

Clothes - Kubao in childcare now so hardly has the chance to wear nowadays.
Toy - Her mummy will end up keeping it in the store room without letting her play. Lazy mummy.
Rest - No idea what to buy.

Walk to hello kitty section and found a few pretty stuffs. Bought a hairband and a comb.

Nice mah? Photo for comb is not clear coz the wrapping got no opening for me to take out unless I tear up. Thinking of giving one of them to kubao but haven't decide yet. Might not be suitable for her.

Aiyo, is really hard to decide what to get for her ar. Give some hint leh.. Or else I might come empty-handed, haha..

YaYa

Yesterday I told one of my colleagues (of coz friendly and able to talk wif de) that I bought a landed house in JB. Wanted some advices regarding my buying as many of friends said we bought so fast. He said it was a good investment, he mentioned land price will only go up and it will never go down. Haha.. I clever right? =D

Last night went supermarket to buy groceries, was too tired on Sunday. Aiyo, NTUC didn't stock up the vegetables at all. Hardly any vegetables left and most of them is already rotting. Sian, bought very limited vegetables. STOCK UP DAILY! What am I going to eat la?! Zzzz...

I realise nowadays I am not as interested in games as in the past. Last time I would maple/cabal daily but now after surfing 5 mins, I would off my laptop and watch tv. I guess I am getting bored and tired of it le, haha.. I don't mind, at least I get to spend more time with my family.

I was wondering if dear really love the house design like me or did he buy it because I love it. I know he will buy it as long as I like regardless he like it or not. We started to discuss how to put stuffs in the house last night and I feel so happy about it. (I know is like too early but who cares. =P) I felt like a small kid on Sunday during house viewing. I kept looking around and said "Waaa... the house so big!!" Dear must be laughing at me in his heart lo. -.-ll

Came to work early today, reached work place at 7.45am. Dear got OT this morning, need to reach client's place by 7.30am so I got to bring enen to childcare. Was worried that I will spend some time in childcare so I left the flat early, haiz..

YaYa

After 2 days, I am more settle down and no longer so upset.

18th April
Was so angry with him. No presents, no sms or calls for xmas, valentine day or my birthday. He even forget my birthday last year and I was the one who reminded him on that day itself. I scolded him, venting all my anger out. Keep saying how much he love me etc but I don't see that in his action. Fine, no time to buy present ( I can accept that) but not even a single sms?! Crap la. I got him out of my sight, I don't want to see him on my birthday.

19th April
Woke up early that day, around 7am. Still feel upset and angry. Felt being taken for granted. Searching the net but was listening to my music folder most of the time. Shut my door since I switching the music at a high volume. Due to the fact that the music had cover up all the surrounding noise, I didn't know he came back later in the noon time. He went to buy me a cake which I mentioned to him that I like it. The cake looks very pretty, I saw it in a brochure that Singtel sent me 2 weeks ago. He keep asking for forgiveness and stayed outside of my room. He promised me that he will put in more effort in future but I didn't take it seriously.
Your promises are meant to be broken.
Sorry if you feel hurt but I can't bring myself to believe you now. Let time show me that you really keep all your promises. If you can' keep it, I rather you don't promise in the first place. It really hurt me every time u break it, do you realise that?

Cake nice ma? Is a ice-cream cake.

See they enjoy the cake so much.

20th April
Woke up early in the morning, intending to go JB to view houses. We were there too early and had no choice but walking around at the shopping centre there. By 11am, I was tired and frustrated. He kept bringing us walking and most of the time, he brought us to the wrong place. I threw temper and he left us in the shopping centre. In the end I lost my way there and don't know walk to where. I DIDN'T HAVE A SINGLE CENT ON MY WALLET AND COULDN" EVEN BUY A DRINK!!! End up he also walked a long way to find me, haha.. Serve you right for dumping us at shopping centre.
After sitting down for sometime, we went over to house viewing. I didn't want to come back again, I have phobia liao.
Looked at 6 models at the office and both of us were interested in one of them. The rest are either too expensive, sold out or design look weird (1 of the rooms is big enough to put 2 single beds while the other room is like maid room lo). We requested to look at showflat, drawings and models are always prettier. I work in architecture firm so I know that very well. The showflat is at the site ( the one we are interested) and it was raining so the ground is very muddy. Lucky the representatives there drive us there, right to the doorstep.
IT WAS A BIG BIG HOUSE! You got to see it yourself. I could never imagine the size of the house by looking at the floorplan. I loved that alot. There is nothing to complain.
Looking at the site plan, we realise majority of the house are sold and only left a few lots. So we decided to get a lot instead of coming back next week. I don't want to get disappointed only to find out the house I like is sold out.
Dear chose a middle lot with extra land. So my house will have a nice garden beside my house. Haha... Come visit next year when the house is completed next year April. (sound like my birthday present hor? =D)
No photos to look at, forgot to take. We are too excited at house viewing. Look at the drawing first, will take photos next year. =)
90 degree 1

YaYa

Didnt eat anything since ytd evening.. No appetite, no desire on eating anything. Don't think I am eating today as well. =)
I take it as a chance to slim myself down. Who care? I dun care if I am going to eat or not, just let it be. Anyway, I can save $ by not eating. On second thought, wad's the point of saving so much? Don't know and don't bother.

My special birthday present

I broke up wif dear last night. =)

Don't wish to talk about it.

Happy birthday to myself...

Pretty ma? This is my first birthday present I received this year and last year. -.-ll

I am so happy and surprised as I didn't expect to receive it. It was done (yes, is done not bought) by a very close colleague of mine, Janet Koh. =D

She is very bad.. Threw it in a super big envelope with choco sweets and biscuit. I didn't open it earlier as we were talking during lunch time that she complain of having too much food at her desk and unable to finish it. I said give part of it to me jokingly and she really did that. I think it must part of her excuse bah. Haha... But nevertheless, I really appreciate it. Thank you Janet!

Dear, where is my present ar? Though I am happy now but I still need presents on special occasions you know? I am depressed now, dear never buy presents for me on my birthday and valentines' day. Sad la.. I am considering to change bf soon. =P

YaYa

Nothing much to do today ,as usual. Supervisor is super busy, think might las another week. Hee..

Yesterday me and dear went to a website to view the house in JB. Actually there are 2 locations near sg but the location nearer to sg is not ready yet, the estimate completion date is nov 09. Aiyo, so long and we have to put in delay as well so we gave up. The other area is 20mins away from sg and most of them are in completed units. Click the link below and check out the houses there. Do leave me any recommendation on which type is nicer. I cannot make up my mind, hee.. Might be going over this sunday to view the neighbourhood. His colleague staying at that area so he will be driving us around. I am looking forward on house viewing. =D

Available Properties

YaYa

Spent hours reading someone's blog and end up getting myself into sorrow mood. Many memories came back to me, something that I had tried so hard to forget. Yes, till now I still unable to forgive that idiot. I guess I wont b able to do so in my lifetime.

Suddenly a thought came to me.. Will dear change into another person in future? Will the dreams he give me become a nightmare?

Perhaps I think too much, perhaps I still feel very insecure. I know he is trying his best to show me. He stays at home after work, he don't go out during off days and he accompany me whenever I am at home. I dont know why I still feel insecure, issit b coz the bad past I had or issit b coz people around me have been getting divorced and breakup? It seems to be a trend that partners are having affairs and some of them were like such close couple in the beginning. Something that you would never expect when they are so loving.

SNAP IT OUT!

There are many couples out there being happy together till now. Not everyone will end up into breakup.
"Life was like a box of chocolates. You never know what you're gonna get." Quote from Forest Gump
YaYa

Yesterday I was at home watching tv, didn't go maple. Maybe i am tired of mapling after more than 14 hours of mapling on saturday. -.-ll

Later in the evening, I download Cabal. Been wanting to try the game but was kinda of lazy to install it. Being tired of maple, i decided to try cabal. Hmm... Though is the same killing monster like maple, but is still confusing. The way the chars walk, the way u look at the screen and the main keys it was set are totally different from maple. I was so confused and don't know what I am doing there (I still don't know).

Lawrence, I keep dying in cabal lor. T.T Do they deduct my exp de ma? I didn't take note actually, haha..

The other thing is hor, cabal and maple don't use the same prepaid card. LAME! Both are of the same company, why must separate it? So ma fan.. Never mind lo, just that I don't buy cabal prepaid card. Hee.. I save $ le lor.

Today my supervisor went site again and won't be back till tomorrow. Haha... I am free again!

Kopi and mei ar, must teach me how to look pretty ar. =D
I want to look pretty at the end of the year. Can go shopping with me ma? =P Not so soon lar, few more months lar.

Really looking forward to this saturday. MY BIRTHDAY!!! Though there isn't any celebration but I got to spend the day with dear. He promised to treat me to KFC, hee. I know is not a big deal but is the thought that counts. I wanted to eat KFC for quite some time le but was waiting till saturday. Yummy...

YaYa

Been discussing with my dear for the past few days and decided to move to JB instead of KL. Mei, next time you still can put kubao at my house while you go for holiday liao.

Well, we did some detail thinking and discussion. First, he is applying PR for us so there might be a chance that I will not allowed to work (like sg) during that period so he is the only one working. And also, we can't really find anyone to take care of the kids if I were to work. Malaysia is different from Singapore, it is just not as safe there. So leaving them alone at home is totally out of the question. If we were to stay at JB, he could find a job in sg and travel out daily like his colleague to work. So the salary he is taking home will be double of what he is earning. This way, even I am not allowed to work before getting PR, we can still coping comfortably. And also, the houses in JB is so much cheaper than those in KL. Condo in KL cost more than 200k while in JB it only cost less than 100k. Cheap hor?! Even terrace house only cost around 170k.. Where to find such good price in sg wor? But our main priority is to have a safe environment. Frankly speaking, JB is not as safe as KL so must choose carefully. We are intending to look around soon and hopefully to move there next year.

Dear don't seems very happy in his work area now so he can find another job after we move there. His company kiasu, need to give 3 months' notice to resign, siao de. Any recommendation on which area in JB is good? =D

Big happening in maple since the patch occurred yesterday. Zakum get extra channel and is getting very messy now. *No eye to see* My zakum was brought forward to 3rd May but seems to be crush with others, don't know what's going on now. Kinda of confuse, haiz.. Pet looting bug has been solved, at least seems to be. My bandit has no problem in getting the leftover even when she pot right before the pet picks up. Some maps have changed, really sad about that. The place I used to hunt honey had changed and now I really hate it. Last time though nependeath is not much there but at least they don't spit at you. Now the map changed into purely nependeath and dark nependeath. And the worse thing is EVERY SINGLE NEPENDEATH SPIT AT YOU. Is really pot consuming and I can't even get near to it without getting damage by it. Sad lar, I'm leaving that place. Goodbye my honey. I can no longer hunt you, is just too pain to kill them. :/ Lucky my beginner left with 4% and she can leech in jr yeti ler, haha... Mei, you can come jr yeti to train liao. =D

Got to go to work, can't write more. P.S.: my supervisor not at office today, so I can surf the net for the whole day. So happy..

YaYa

HAPPY HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Actually was feeling down for the past few days. Not because of quarrelling with anyone or what, is because of my cough. The cough seems to get worse and I went to see company doctor yesterday afternoon and realise I got URTI. Sad lor, got so many problems in such short period. At the same time, I am feeling skin allergy also. Itch everyday till I cannot take it. The upgrading at my area make me allergy (the dust lo), I have to change my bedsheet and clean my floor frequently to prevent itch. This is so sad... In case you do not know what is URTI, go google it. Internet is there for a purpose. Hahaha..

I took annual leave today, really need time to study for my exams tomorrow. I couldn't concentrate because of tiredness and coughing. Just now went play maple awhile since I just woke up, mind still sleeping. Guess what happened? I FOUND NEPENDEATH HONEY IN LESS THAN 30 MINUTES!!!!!!!!!!!! Wahahaha... I can't stop laughing, is like win first prize in 4D. Everyone know that honey is super rare in maple, the price for one is as high as 12mil and it let me find it. I think I will be laughing in my dreams tonight. Let you see my honey, pretty ma? =D


10.30am ler, time to study. Wish me good luck ar.
*Borrow kopi's fairy godmother and ask her to give me luck to pass with flying colours tomorrow.*

YaYa

14 MAY 2008 <<< Looking forward to this day.

Finally I am going zakum for the first time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! After day-dream for duno how many times.
It was a private zakum ok? Mean I do not need to fight, stand aside to wait zakum die and walk over to pick my helmet. Wahahaha... I can't wait for that day to arrive.
I got this special zakum slot is because of my kindness. I created a help cass players to collect quest items and one of the high level helper decided to help us to get helmet as a appreciation. I was really very touched and surprise, I had never expected that my little small gesture would bring me reward.

Wanted to bring my beginner to zakum at first but was told that I was supposed to add hp right from the start so she is out for now. Wanted to bring my bandit to zakum but on second thought, she seems useless in there. I am torn between my priest and bandit, who should I bring over? Advise please..

Today I didn bring lunch to work, throat still uncomfortable and don't have appetite to eat anything. Been coughing badly nowadays, so sad.. Anyone has any ways to help reduce my cough? T.T

Wednesday le and I have not started on my QS when my exams is on Sat. Think I really need to take a day leave on friday to study. But I couldn't get my motivation to study.. Haiz.. God bless me..

YaYa

As i promised, our new logo for guild is here! Nice mah? Hehe..

Throat still don't feel well.. T.T
Nope, is not sore throat but just don't feel good whenever I swallow. Always wanted to put strepsil by my side but as usual, forgotten about it. :/

Thinking of not taking leave this friday to study, seems that I have taken too many leaves this year. Wanted to leave some maybe at the end of the year and have a good rest. I wonder if I can study during work or not. Haiz...

Joel sick again, dear went to fetch him home from school. See lar, last night already told you not to let Joel go school and his fever is coming. Don't believe me, now u got to fetch him yourself. Is your decision, your responsibility. =P

Hmm... Last night we make another new guild again. This time it has a cute name, ShortCakeS (with a strawberry logo!). Kaya and loti helped to sponsor for the guild, a million each from them. Still have yet to think of the ranking names yet, all of us were tired after making guild. It was near to 12 midnight le u know? Will try to upload a pic of the guild name with logo after I get home from work. =D Kopi, MUST sponsor $$$ for guild de hor. Is expensive to expand ar, must help abit.

YaYa

Been on mc for 2 days and finally got back to work today. Was so bored doing nothing at home other than maple. Not that it's not fun to maple, just that is boring to have no one to talk to.

Went to Tiong Bahru Plaza yesterday to buy BK home, was crazing for mushroom swiss for weeks. I took a bus there, was lazy to walk there as it was a hot afternoon. The bus was packed with people so was waiting to alight but there was a boy who alighting the same bus stop with me seemed to be of no patient to wait and kept asking me to move aside to let him alight. Annoying that he couldn't even wait for the bus to open the door and there is no place to move anyway, I replied him back that I am alighting at this bus stop too.  Geez...  I wonder what they learn in school nowadays, can't they even wait awhile. I was even on phone telling my friend that I had reached my stop and alighting now. Guess that boy was deaf as well/ =p

My beginner char had leeched my bandit till she is level 41 now. Haha... She will soon overtake liu lian's warrior char who is only level 42.

Zec asked me few days ago how would I react if he were to present me with a ring (in maple of course). Well, I didn't think much saying that might have to depend if my char is married by then since he will only be back to maple on aug. I guess liu lian won't or to be exact can't mind if I were to marry some other guy in maple. He can't expect me to wait him indefinitely right?

Got to go back to work, looking forward to go home in less than hour time. Kelian de dear at home, sick and frustrated with his manager. =(

Don't be angry dear, I will come home to accompany you as much as possible. Do cheer up, I want to see your big smile when I get home. =D

YaYa

Don't be surprise when you log into maple, because I had disband the guild. Really don't see the point of holding onto it when I am usually the only person who is online. Kinda of sad and disappointed but whatever... Only meso lost and nothing else... Take note that I had delete all my buddy list since I no longer know who is still playing and who is not.

A Truth

Nowadays my life is getting so much easier. My son now started to insist on him fetching the sister home after school. Haha... Enen has tuition every Monday and Thursday so I got to fetch her after 6.30pm but I reach home daily around 6pm leh. So since Ah B wanted to fetch her, I let him be. I agree that Ah B is very independent, he doesn't need much supporting. Once you teaches him once or twice, he would do it himself.

I maple last night, for passing time since dear was working OT (he came back quite late, ard 11pm). Was almost going to log out and jie came online. Was kinda of surprise as she hardly or perhaps never came to Cass. She told me to add her dar into guild and suddenly she threw a bomb to me; she is getting separation and divorce while the dar I added is her real life bf. OMG... I really had never expected that they will be divorcing since they had known each other for so long. If I didn rmb wrongly, they had been together for almost 10 years. I had no idea what happen between them, jie don't talk much about it and I know she doesn't like people to probe into her relationship. Mei, don't tell anyone in our family hor. Jie wants to tell them herself ar, later she kill me. -.-ll

Asked a bit of her bf though. His name is Jeff, a malaysian too. He is 22 years old this year (so young lor). I am kinda of concern about their relationship not that they are having a big age gap. It was later in the chatting, I realise jie hides many things about her life and family. Firstly, the bf doesn't know jie's real age (he tout she is 28 lo), he doesn't know she is married wif a child and getting divorce in few years time. I am not sure how much facts jie hides from him and how Jeff going to react when he know the truth. I guess he will definitely be angry and upset...

I always think that one has to be truthful or else you have to giving a lie to cover up the original lie you had said. Malaysians are more conservative, they will need some time to accept one who is divorced or with kid(s). Dear's parents took almost a year to start to accept me and the kids. At least dear knew my background right from the start so he has accept me even before we are together. However, for jie's case, is like lying lo. I mean if he doesn't accept you as who you are, this kind of person doesn't deserve your love at all. I truly hope that jie will find her own happiness.. Jie, I really advice you to let him know the truth. The longer you keep it from him, the angrier he will be.

YaYa

Blur Me :/

Finally I got back all my projects results. =D Guess how did I fare? I am happy with the result, my effort had paid off. *Dancing around*

My QS trainer sent an email to us on Sunday night, informing us to do the past year qns before coming to class but it was a last minute decision and I was kinda of lazy too. I dragged it till around 9pm before I was forced by dear to finish them. *Don't like you le, bad dear* Took me about 2 hours to finish them and meanwhile, I keep complaining I was tired and wanted to sleep. Haha.. Who like to do homework?

Anyway, lucky I went to search my paper or else I wouldn't know that I actually remember the wrong date for exam. Not actually wrong date, is wrong subject. I thought QS exam is on the 12th but actually it was on the 5th. I know I blur lar! At least I realise it before it was too late right? Haiz... Got to study next week then. Must understand and memorise formulas, meaning etc.

I started to hate my English in class, need to do summary and essay. Urghhh... I hate summary, don't know how to do that. *Sob sob* Never mind, shall go and get some help around. Hehe...

Today not very busy at work, supervisor went for meeting so I am able to use the pc with internet. Haha.. I always forget to update my blog when I get home, too many things to do. =D

Must remember to bring my medical result to work tomorrow, have to pass it to my HR. Dear, remind me to keep in my bag tonight ar.. (as if he read my blog)

YaYa

Went supermarket just now as usual. When we were done, enen wanted to push the trolley so we let her be. Actually the trolley is much heavier than her, we have 2 2 litres milk, 5kg rice, vegetables, etc. inside. She was making alot of noise when she was pushing it so dear decided to make a video of her. Guess what happen? Go watch it and you will find out. ^^

YaYa

Aiyo... Don't know why keep raining de, aren't we supposed to be having hot month now? I think mother earth is angry with us le, changing our climate. Today I heard from news that by 2020, HongKong will no longer have winter liao. Haiz... Maybe in future all countries change their climates. -.-ll

Very busy at work today, supervisor on urgent leave. Actually hor, I got nothing to do even he is around, just that I had to print Portfolio and took a long time printing. The stupid printer keep jammed my papers, make me sat there and wait till every piece is done.

Dear Dear been busy for this past 2 weeks, no time for me. T.T
He is rushing project(s), so has to stay back quite late. No choice lor, work comes first. At least he can save more money in our account. ^^

Why my maple cards haven't mail to me yet? Should be arriving le, don't know what take the sellers so long. I am actually thinking if they are going to scam me or not. F5
Never mind, I wait till next week bah.

Just now I was happily walking home with enen, thinking I can finally come home and rest after working for the whole day. To my horror, I realise I forgot to bring my keys out lor! I blur lar, didn't remember I put in my school bag. Then I got no choice, call dear dear and he rush home and pass me his set. Dear dear, u r the best le. Muacks..

Got to watch bleach liao... Oh yah, yesterday I got the result for my ES project, got an A. Muhahahaha... I am clever de. =D

YaYa

Didn't come here very long time ler, busy with my studies mah. Next month exams liao, don't know if I can remember all the formulas or not. Haiz...

My area doing major upgrading and it will end only next year 3rd quarter. I kinda of hate upgrading coz it will bring in so many dust and must take leave to let them come into my flat to do. Sian lo, now all my leave struck with the upgrades. Wondering if I can choose not to participate or not. Haha...

Time really passes really fast, I worked at my current company for 5 months le. Excuse me, it might be short for you but that is the longest period I ever work for. Seriously, I hope that I could work till I have graduate and find new job. Intending to get a job in government sector and go home on time. Haha...

Yesterday I quarrelled with my ex. He is such a liar and idiot, as usual. Last week he told me that he just changed job and his old company had not pay him yet. He claimed that he will only receive it on the 7th. Then I also anything lo, let him transfer on the 7th since I save up all my maintenance $ in my savings. Then yesterday I check my account and as expected, $ not in yet so I sms him. Now he claimed that his company say mail him cheque and ask me to wait again. This time I angry and told him straight that I won't wait lo, I go family court on sat and let them chase for me. Last time he also say changed job and make me chase for it for few months. That time easier since he need me to sign papers to sell flat but I also tired of chasing. Then he complain I don't allow him to visit the kids, of course I shoot him back. Told him last year I am only free on sat afternoon so visiting will only be then and must let me know in advance that he want visit so I don't plan anything ma. He expect me to stay@home every sat to wait if he want visit or not. Dream on lo, that won't happen. I even said if you really want to see the kids, take the initiative to call me, not expecting me to call u. Next thing he complain is I don't allow him to bring the kids out. Who dare to do that, and hor, I got PPO against him de. I told him, go ask the lawyer if he can do so or not. Meeting kids is my limit, don't expect me to allow them to go out with you lo. Guess what? When I said I going family court on sat, he immediately has $ to xfer me. It show that he is trying not to pay me.

Now I am trying to save as much as I can, I want to move to malaysia asap. Haha... By then, he won't be able to disturb me le. Freedom, here I come~

YaYa

So tired... Yesterday went to my company D&D after being persuaded by a few of colleagues... It's a good experience but I don;t think I will be going again the next time. It was very tiring and food don't taste nice. T_T It was held at St Regis hotel, one of the 5 star hotel in Singapore but just opened around 2 months or so. The main reason my company chosen that place is because it was built by us. >.< Took a few photos of the food and surrounding but group photo is in my colleague's digital camera, might get from her next week bah. But forgotten to take picture of the dessert, was laughing at one of the games there. Food and surrounding look pretty, even the toilet too. Haha... The games were so dragging, occupy most of the time. Haiz... Only 1 of the games was entertaining, the rest I dun even bother to look at it. The finding Mr RSP/SM was just a coverup, they actually got those guys to toilet to change into singlet while the real motive was being told to us. They wanted us to find the guy who has the hairest armpit. Couldn't stop laughing when they were being asked to make pose in order to let us see and they had no idea wad is going on. The dinner took very long to end, I left before it was officially end coz I am too tired. I guess it ended around 12.30am or even later since I left around 11.40pm, was afraid that I couldnt get the last bus home. I dun want to waste $ on cab since the taxi fare was up. Don;t have the mood to do my project, still feeling sleepy now. Might be doing later or perhaps next week, brain dead...
Upload some photos for you to see, dun see i lazy ar.

YaYa

Just started my course recently. Class is very quiet, hardly you hear anyone talk there and the lecturer wanted us to do project as a group of 4 or 5. =.=
Don't have much confidence since I do not know anyone there and not sure if I can mix around well with them or not.

Ah b had transfer to a new school few days ago. I didn  bother to find a school for him, it was his previous school did on my behalf. He was abt an hr late for school on Mon, I even thought he got lost or something happened to him. He told dear he was going out at 11.40am but the teacher sms me to inform me that ah b didn come to school at 1.10pm. I got worried, took a half day urgent leave, intending to search for him. Guess wad happen to him? In the end, he told me he was at home eating his lunch and only finishing the food, he went to school. OMG, he took 2 hrs to ate everything! Anyway on the same day, school inform me that they had found him a nearby school and willing to accept him so we got a immediate school transfer for him.

Though his previous school claimed that they did it for his safety but somehow I felt that they are trying to get rid of him due to his condition. Ah b has autism and couldn't get very well with classmates in school. He can't concentrate in class too, always day dream and do wadever he like (eg. drawings). I don't really blame them, it is difficult to take care of such student and he nid 1 to 1 attention when the teachers had to take care like 30-40 students each time?

Perhaps getting him into a new environment might do him good. Currently he is taking school bus, he doesnt nid to take public transport or walk to school so in a sense, it is much safer for him too. The only disadvantage is he nid to go down to wait for school bus in time since the bus dun wait for anyone who is late.

I have been mapling much lesser compared to the past, spending more time with my family instead. Bringing them to swimming every week, they are looking forward to it and are very eager to go as well. Kids will be kids, all of them just love playing water. I used to love to go to the swimming pool too when I was young. I still remember we need to walk quite a distance to the swimming pool as we dont live near to it.

I have learn to cherish what I have now and try to spend more time on stuffs I know they are important to me, I do not want to regret in future when I do not have a chance to do so. My friends, I hope everything go well for you as well. Take care!

YaYa

LaLaLaLa

Been busy ever since I started working, coz I nid to maple and work at the same time. Haha...

First job that I had stayed for 2 months, hopefully I can stay at this job till I am done. Going to study next week or so, starting on 7th Jan. Finally I can fulfill my job of studying, was hoping to go for a long time. I chose to study my accounting again, mostly is because of the good pay and easy to find job, secondly is I hope to be able to get employed till I retired. Now being a single parent, I have to think for myself and my kids. After going through my previous marriage, I realise that I cannot depend on anyone, especially men. I want to support myself financially, I do not want to depend on any men again. MEN CANNOT BE TRUST!

During my first day of work, there was another new girl came into the company with me. Felt kinda of happy with someone new like me and even came in the same day as me. However, she quitted the job less than 2 months after we started there. She couldn't tolerate the seniors there and the way of getting work done there. She face more obstacles than me since she was sitting right where all the ladies are while I am sitting alone in the library. Obviously I do not need to face any "black" faces or "I am more senior than you so you have to respect me" faces. Though I didn't talk much with her but still feel kinda of sad that she left so soon. I thought we could be good friends as time passes. Haiz..

Did anyone of you celebrate xmas this year? I didn't, was sick... So sad... Anyway I didn't manage to order my log cake in time too. Urghhh... But never mind, since I ate it a week before xmas. ^^ Anyway, Merry Xmas to my friends! Hope all of you had fun this year!!

YaYa

Hate the weather!!!

Had not been feeling well since last week. Weather kip changing every now and then. Sunny one moment and raining the next moment.

My ger got fever on friday, she was complaining more and showing discomfort early in the morning. Somehow I felt she is not feeling very well and decided to stay @ home with her. And I was right, she started to feel feverish an hour later. So I brought her to the polyclinic. Haiz... Waited for 2 hrs outside the consultation room before my turn. By the time she got to see the doc, her fever shot up to 39.8 degree. Lucky she got better the next day. =)

However, my turn to fall sick on sunday afternoon. Walk around the neighbourhood like a clown to find a clinic that is opened. And guess what?! The one and only clinic that open daily is just near my house and yet I walked to MRT to find it. Zzz...

Dear fall sick ytd, fever too. I wonder if fever do spread among family or not since every one of us get fever one after another. I know by common sense it don't and won't but after seeing the 3 of us falling sick, I started to doubt my own knowledge. =p

Today kinda of boring at work. There wasn't anything for me to do for the whole morning. I took my own sweet time to finish reading the newspaper and sat there staring at my pc. I actually started to day dream and falling asleep and almost had my head drop onto the desk. Haha~

Decided to go walk around during lunch time to ease my boredom. Met dear and went Isetan to get presents for enen and caiyong. Not sure if they like it or not (hope they do). Dear refuse to let me make the payment, he insist of paying for it. Zzz... He think he is very rich ar, everything also wan to snatch and pay.

I want to go maple le. Oh yah, I have deleted my Babywawa and create it at cass. Missed the ign and decided to bring her over.

Take care all my dear friends, hope you won't fall sick like me.

YaYa

Itchy Itchy Itchy!!!

This past week I had been biten by unknown insect. At first i thought there is mosquito in my house so I put those mosquito coil and adaptor at my room but duno why the situation didn get better but worse. Today I bought my Mopiko to work, I cannot stand the itch anymore. I only realise then it was from my office. Zzzzzzzz....

 

Something is biting me in office but not sure what was that, my supervisor will ask for insect spray tomorrow and spray in the office. Now I look so kelian, wif 7 bites on hands and legs. T.T

 

Hope things will get better tomorrow bah. *Sad*

 

YaYa

Tired Week

It has been a very long time since I last visit my blog. Was busy with house moving, settling down & finding a job.

 

Finally my flat was sold and lucky I got a rented flat just 5 days before my official date to hand my keys to the new owner. Didn manage to wait for the selection of flat letter to arrive, I got my flat in the walk-in selection. Though not really a place that I wanted, but I guess is still ok as long as I do not need to move so many times.

 

Found a childcare for enen and sad to say that I couldnt get a schoolbus for ah b so in the end I taught him to travel to and forth himself. I wanted to find a job, was getting very bored to stay at home doing nth but maple daily. Cant waste my life that way... And I wanted to save more money for the future, things are more and more expensive. I need to think of their education in future too.

 

Wanted to get a job but was lazy to go interviews. I just simply hate interviews, always asking me to describe myself. I hated such topic since I was in secondary school, I never chose such topic to answer anyway. And I dun really like to talk much in front of strangers, had been very quiet during the interview. Haiz... I really cant find anything to ask or talk wif them at all... Keep forcing me to ask them qns...

 

After that, been searching for job quite infrequently coz getting to be fussy. I wanted to get a job without doing OT, wanted a 5-days work and wanted a place near my house. Those that I feel far or inconvenient, I just skipped it. Wad's the point of going to interview when it dun even get to my expectation. I hope to get a job to work for a few years, at least till I finish my studies. Don't want to find another job in near future, don't have that feeling to do so.

 

Recently found a job in Orchard Rd, quite a big company and near my house too. ^^ That is a architect company, heard from the senior there that it was one of the biggest company in singapore. Started my work there since 1st nov, people there are pleasant and friendly too. At least I havent met nasty people yet and I hope I wont get the chance to meet one too.

 

I will be working alone at my desk starting on Mon as my senior is required to go up to assist the rest of the colleagues there. Haiz... Till now I still didn manage to remember most of them. Think I have a hard time finding the architect for quite some time...

 

Still mapling but not as much as in the past. Now I have stop playing my dit and concentrate on my priest, missed her so much. Tired... hope to write more frequent here.

 

YaYa

Things back to normal, at least by looking at the surface..

None of us mentioned about that incident anymore, perhaps is just too pain to say it out. Occasionally I will still throw temper and cried asking for breakup, I nid to be alone. Living alone somehow make me feel better, i duno why either.

Watched transformer yesterday, not a bad movie. Was kinda of surprise to see the place was almost full, i thought there wont b so mani people watching since it was up for quite some time. The graphics are awesome, though quite a numbers of friends including him find the last part quite confusing. They couldn figure out who is the bad & good guys, wahahaha~ I figure it out looking at the colour on them and I could recognise 1 or 2.

Was tired when get home after the show but I still managed to get myself to log into maple, had an appt wif my jr ldr. We are in charge for aug guild event, we nid to discuss the details. But he pop a qns to me which I couldn answer. He asked me to be his maple gf... He knew abt me in real life. Actually those who asked me in guild, I had honestly told them abt my background, dun feel the need to hide it. I just couldn figure it why he would asked me instead of the gers in guild. I had oni rejoin back this guild recently. Less than a wk... I had only met him few days ago. Haha... Maybe he had been rejected by all the gers in maple liao. I feel that wadever ans I gave him, it will make us feel uneasy in maple. Because he had already hint those active in guild.... What shld I do? =.=

Eyes pain, nid go rest liao. Hope I will feel better later.. T_T

YaYa

I'm been in daze for the past few days, I couldnt eat nor sleep. My tears couldnt stop flowing out from my eyes too. I didnt want to see anyone or talk to anyone, I had my hp switched off.

I have been dreaming of my baby for the past couple of days. Dreams can be so wonderful and sweet yet it really hurt one when you come back to reality.

I kip forcing myself to maple from morning till late night so that my heart wont feel anything. I always comfort my friends that time will heal everything, but will time heal me this time? I feel so guilty, I feel I'm the one who indirectly killed my own baby. I hated myself, I hated myself so much that I want to torture myself to death.

I no longer able to talk with him either. I just locked myself up, I don't want to be reminded of anything. I know I am being very unfair to him but I really unable to face anyone. I wanted a breakup, I do not want to get involved with anyone.

I hate life and being living on to suffer...

YaYa

Sad Sad Week

6th July 07 was one of my saddest day in my life. I was bleeding again that nite without a reason and tinking I had to wait for ultrascan till August, I decided to make a trip to A&E that nite. Perhaps I shouldn had gone at all, I regret going there... The doc on duty did a scan and found out that the baby did not hav any heartbeat, in another words, I hav a miscarriage. Asking me wad I wan to do is useless since the oni choice I hav is to hav an abortion. Unlike normal abortion, people oni do washing the baby out, I hav to actually give birth to it before I can do the washing as the baby is too big claimed by the doc.

I was admitted that very nite, I couldn sleep as I expected. Alot of things kip running thru my mind... I was tinking would things changed if I never made the decision to come to the hospital, would the baby still alive if I never gone there? I didnt want him to feel guilty or worried abt me, I didnt shred a tear in front of anyone.. I just pretend nth had happened but deep inside me, I really feel very terrible.

I kip telling myself perhaps it will be better if the baby never come to this world. I know very clearly that he didnt really wan this baby, I know he agreed just because I couldnt bear to abort it. I oso knew it very clearly that his family will never agree towards our relationship. But I never wanted everything, all i wan is safety for my baby. I didnt even hope to be with him in future, I even plan to give up on this relationship. Why must things ended this way? Am I asking too much? Am I too greedy? I dont know, I really hav no answer..

The baby came out ard 2 plus in the morning on 9th July 07, I dont hav the courage to take a last look at it. I even refused to take pain killer when the labour pain came earlier, perhaps I wan myself to face the fact. I kept bleeding profusely, the sanitary pad was soaked in blood every 15mins and overflood. I didn really care if I was going to die at that moment, I wished I did at some point. I came home that evening I had my operation, I didn wan to stay another nite there. I didn wan to be remind of the incident.

After coming home, I didn talk much with him abt the incident. I just pretend nth had happened. I am afraid I would cry in front of him, I didn want him to know it actually affected me badly.

I wish... I wish... I wish time would just roll back for once...

YaYa

Tired, tired, tired...

Just change my blog design, nice mah? I tink is cute... Like this song alot though is 10 years ago song, guess most of you might not even heard this song before. ;p

Has been sleeping very late for the past whole week, not because I was too engrossed in mapling but I was trying to get myself occupied to wait for him to get home. He's very busy for the whole, coming home ard midnight. Poor thing, he hasnt get enough sleep at all. T_T

Hate going out nowadays, I couldnt even go shopping for 5mins. Whenever I get to crowded places, I will start to get dizzy & feel nauseous. I nid to squat down like every min! So sian, must cope myself at home. At least now I am able to walk around the neighbourhood & take buses, is better than nth.

I wonder how much weight will I gain this mth, been eating supper almost daily & light snack in-between meals. Been trying hard to control myself, I am afraid to gain too much now in case I cant shred it off later on. Haha...

YaYa

First Post after months

It has been months since I came here... I moved back to my own hse so I can sell it more conveniently. And another reason is because he came sg to work and couldn't bear to let him stay alone in my hse.

Yes, I'm still not working... Can't work anyway, is that idiot's fault!!! Guess why? Haha...

Well, a little life will arrive to this world during xmas' eve. Tis time I insist of keeping it, I do not want to have anymore regret in future. No intention of getting married though... I don't wan to get married for the sake of getting married. Maybe in future but definitely not now.

I am so bad... I told him I let baby follow my surname.. Hahaha... I just like to see that reaction on his face.. Hmm... It might just happen that way if YOU didn't treat me well, get that? ;p

YaYa

Sad

Yesterday was a day i had been waiting for years to come. I thought i would happy.. But i wasn't when tis day actually arrived.

During my journey to the court, memories kept fillin me up. Many times i had to control my tears from falling down. Why do i still feel sad? Shouldn't i feel delight that i got my freedomback? I wanted to cry out but i know i can't.

All i ask is a family whether rich or poor, why couldn't he do that? Is that too much to ask for?

My life is full of sadness. Even there's happiness, they r just dreams. =) I thought of my childhood, my school life, my marriage & my father's death.

I have finally realise that i had no trust in love or anyone. I really do not want to go through all these again. I thought i had get over but little did i know, i haven't. I simply cast them aside, somewhere in my heart, thinking they will just leave me alone. They dun.. They will b hauting me every now & then then.

Once again, i hav chosen to leave him again. Like he said, i'm already 28 & hav 2 kids.. Bur i wasn't listenin at all. yah.. I'm already 28 wif 2 kids whereas he's only 23. He is young, too young to stay with an old lady like me. We are not suitable for each other, i know it very well that i can only be part of his memories.Thks Tony, thks for loving me.. I'm happy that you've been in my life for a period of time. That's enough ler, thks.

YaYa

Nightmare...

Today I had learnt something new, how to open a locked door without key n locksmith. >.<

Fine, I wasnt the one who created this mess, it was Joel who has itchy hands to take the keys on his own & put the keys inside b4 he actually locked the door.

It was a total nightmare... I had no experience in doing such task before & i was alone at home too. Scared me to death!!! I hopeless finding ways to open that freaking door, calling everyone whom i tink can help me.

End up i sat there crying n finally someone told me use a hammer to hit on the key portion. After trying mani times, the door finally open itself... T.T

I never allow them to touch the keys again!!!

YaYa

My 10 days~

As usual, I had been mapling for the past few days but not wif my cleric ger but my dit... His exams r coming soon so he nid to study n i didn really want him to chase after my level later on so I just put my cleric on hold.

Currently my dit is level 40 ler, slowing down liao. I duno y, i kip falling asleep mani times while mapling. I just couldn concentrate & kip on yawning wif my eyelids shutting itself. -_-ll

Got to noe a new fren, froggie, in kerning pq.. He was so kelian thru out that 5hrs pqing... The leader (call him bhr) kept begging him to lend steely & tobi but obviously he refused. But to my surprise, bhr was so patient to kip asking for 5hrs until froggie couldn stand him & he decided to totally ignore his request while I was there laughing non-stop. After partying him for a few days then i realised he oni had 2 stars, steely & tobi.. =.= Froggie, go hunt more stars lar.. U noe is very ma fan to kip on repoting de mah?

I swear i will not ever get into ludi pq again. It's a torture, not a leisure at all!! I went in twice, both times made me almost vomited blood. After leaving the pq, I realised my lifespan has been shortened for at least 10 years.

The first time I went in, a few of them kip fooling ard.. Keeping the tickets in their inventory, letting us kip asking ard who has the tickets. & one of them kip shouting for haste when we hav not even add sp to it, why couldn he use speed pots instead. I couldn bother wif him oso..

The 2nd time got a sin kip on running all over the chns, claiming he is trying to search for chn when we already had track for that particular chn. In the end, me n froggie couldn stand him n kick him out. In that pq, most of them hardly do anything... Then me n froggie had decided we r not going in after this pq. However, b4 we could finish it, an idiot left the party & made the rest of us being threw out of the pq. If u do not wan to continue, u can jolly well click logout or click that npc to get out. I guess she did it on purpose... But oh well, she save me from that horrible place anyway.

Joined a guild earlier on but quitted after 2 days... Well, the guild members r noisy but is among themselves since they r frens in the first place. I guess they added people in just for the sake of adding. They dun chat wif u, they dun ans ur qns & u r there b coz of u r there. -.- That is so lame... N the worst thing is 2 of them speak in twit language!!! OMG!!! It doesnt make them look cute but it make the sentence so hard to read...

Seriously i nid more frens in my buddy list, to kip me accompany... but some of them just dun talk even u asked them qns... Too buzy wif level or they do not noe hw to reply? Anyone can teach me hw to get more frens? T.T

As usual, quarrelling wif dear every few days... Haha~ I guess he already got used to my temper ler, m i rite abt that? Another 2 more mths & it will b our 1st year anniversary.. I didn expect time to pass away so fast & he will b coming to sg very soon too. I tink he's counting down to that date. ;p

Oh yah, i'm going to court on this 26th & I will b officially divorced on the 26th april. Yeah, finally this day has come! I waited for so long liao till my neck has grown so long.. Hee~ Anyone has reliable housing agent to recommend me? =D I do not like to find stranger esp i will b passing the keys to her. Pls lor, dun expect me to go dwn to serangoon from jurong east everytime there r interested buyers wanting to view flat...

Go watch kid central wif my ger ler since maple is under server check right now.

YaYa

Busy Week

Has been very busy for the past whole week... Hmm.. wad did i do? Let me tink...

I rmb I had been going out almost everyday from mon to fri... I didnt want to stay at home, it was so lonely n boring. No one is free to talk to me. In the end, I bought lots of stuffs which cost few hundreds bucks. I noe I shld save up the $ for moving hse etc but I duno y, I just feel so down n wanted to make myself happier. I bought clothes, bag & some other stuffs that i dun even rmb.

Oh yah, I had just finished my 1000 piece puzzle and it took me 2 days. Depending on how u count it, if deduct my sleep n going out, it will b oni 1 day. =D I was hoping that puzzle could let me spend more days to complete, at least I dun feel so bored.

Found an part-time housing agent, going to meet her this friday, i tink. It was not yet confirmed, i oni heard it from my cousin. Ohh.. the agent was intro by my cousin de. I didn wan to find strangers from newspaper & pass him/her my keys. I dun feel safe...

Haiz.. Tinking of calling my lawyer tmr, mayb tell her I found buyer ler & ask her to speed up my divorce. I was hoping to get it done by april, i wonder if she can make it or not. I dun care, die die ask her to do it. I pay for it de ok?!

Caiyong first day of school is just like another normal day. He seems to like the school, he didnt complaint at all. He just kept mentioning that the teacher took his workbooks n never return him. Haha~ Kids nowadays r so fortunate... The school helped them to keep all their workbooks & exercise books. Last time during my time, we hav to bring everything to school ourselves de. T.T

Sian, nid go eat dinner ler or else later my dear will become a super naggy uncle liao... >.<

YaYa