I'm been in daze for the past few days, I couldnt eat nor sleep. My tears couldnt stop flowing out from my eyes too. I didnt want to see anyone or talk to anyone, I had my hp switched off.

I have been dreaming of my baby for the past couple of days. Dreams can be so wonderful and sweet yet it really hurt one when you come back to reality.

I kip forcing myself to maple from morning till late night so that my heart wont feel anything. I always comfort my friends that time will heal everything, but will time heal me this time? I feel so guilty, I feel I'm the one who indirectly killed my own baby. I hated myself, I hated myself so much that I want to torture myself to death.

I no longer able to talk with him either. I just locked myself up, I don't want to be reminded of anything. I know I am being very unfair to him but I really unable to face anyone. I wanted a breakup, I do not want to get involved with anyone.

I hate life and being living on to suffer...

YaYa