Sad

Yesterday was a day i had been waiting for years to come. I thought i would happy.. But i wasn't when tis day actually arrived.

During my journey to the court, memories kept fillin me up. Many times i had to control my tears from falling down. Why do i still feel sad? Shouldn't i feel delight that i got my freedomback? I wanted to cry out but i know i can't.

All i ask is a family whether rich or poor, why couldn't he do that? Is that too much to ask for?

My life is full of sadness. Even there's happiness, they r just dreams. =) I thought of my childhood, my school life, my marriage & my father's death.

I have finally realise that i had no trust in love or anyone. I really do not want to go through all these again. I thought i had get over but little did i know, i haven't. I simply cast them aside, somewhere in my heart, thinking they will just leave me alone. They dun.. They will b hauting me every now & then then.

Once again, i hav chosen to leave him again. Like he said, i'm already 28 & hav 2 kids.. Bur i wasn't listenin at all. yah.. I'm already 28 wif 2 kids whereas he's only 23. He is young, too young to stay with an old lady like me. We are not suitable for each other, i know it very well that i can only be part of his memories.Thks Tony, thks for loving me.. I'm happy that you've been in my life for a period of time. That's enough ler, thks.

YaYa