I was quite depressed for the past few days because amniotic fluid hasn't increased since 2 weeks plus ago and well, the way gynae said it's like we will be waiting for my baby to die. Which mum-to-be wants to do that?! At least I don't and really hope that miracle will happen on our baby. 

To keep my mind occupy, I start looking names for baby. As we are not very sure the gender, I will have to look for both baby girl and boy names. Unlike the past, this time I'm trying to find a name with meaning and wish it will be the same as baby. 

My target is at least drag to 32 weeks and I still have 9 more weeks to go. Of course, the longer I can keep baby in, the better it will be (I guess).

Time passes real fast, it has been 2 weeks since I first heard my baby's condition and tomorrow I will be going back for review. No, termination of the pregnancy will not be an option for me. There is no way I can make such cruel decision, I have no right to determine to let baby to stay alive or die. Baby will make his/her own decision, I will stay by his/her side whatever he/she think it's best for his/her own.
Finally confirmed by myself that my water bag is leaking, I found out last night when I was lying on sofa. I concentrated hard and can feel where I was leaking from and further confirm it when I'm sitting on the toilet bowl. Also this time round, I managed to smell it. Now I know what's going on, I will check with the docs what can be done now. Baby, be strong..

Went to Dr. Ng the next day after we visited NUH, he read the report and said it's not looking good but anyway he asked us to go back 2 weeks later for review. After hearing what he said, I went to Dr. Ding on Sunday partly to ask for second opinion and wanted to know how's baby after I found out stomach bubble not seen is not a good sign. I requested a scan and Dr. Ding did, he seemed to understand my worries and concern so I felt him more patient and not as rush as he used to during our normal visit. He took time to scan and find baby's organs, saw both kidneys and bladder with urine. At first he couldn't see his stomach bubble but found it after a few tries, he also scanned his heart and look normal. Baby look normal from the scanning so we are not sure why there is little amniotic fluid left. As long as baby is fighting, I'm not going to give up as well. I will fight with him till the end, we will definitely win this battle. Jia you baby!

Got my appt date fixed on the very next day I heard the news, called hubby to come home immediately. Went out in a rush and while on our way to NUH, I peeked at the referral letter since it's not sealed. For the first time, I realised how serious my condition was. It was written as 'severe oligohydramnios' which mean very low in amniotic fluid. My mind ran wild during that moment, what cause that/what happen/what i did wrongly for the past month? I have been praying to let everything to goes smoothly and let baby stay with me, I can't and not willing to give up my baby.

Waited hours at Fetal Care Centre only to realise the nurses there made a mistake, they thought I walk-in instead so my file was put at the very last place. When hubby told one of them we actually came here with an appt then they quickly moved us up. I wasn't angry or upset about that (I would make a fuss about it on a normal day), I don't mind waiting because of that mistake as long as I get to do the scan. I just want an answer, I just want to know the reason.

Finally my turn, went in and saw a 'sonographer and a professor in the room. Scanning wasn't easy because there is not much fluid in it and baby curled up, making it harder. Managed to see his kidneys and bladder (good news I guess), at 1 point was informed baby has a little lack of oxygen and slow heartbeat (I wonder could it due to my sleepless night and lack of appetite since the night before). Well to me at least baby has kidneys and bladder, the rest look quite normal but stomach bubble not seen. I will have to go back for review again on 3 February 2014, 2 long weeks is a real torture!

I had decided to jot down my pregnancy details this time because I do not wish to forget about it and I hope it will help other fellow mummies-to-be who might be in the same situation as me since I couldn't find similar case locally (Singapore) when I google.

On 19 January 2014, I went for my monthly checkup and it changed my life after this visit. Dr. Ding took longer than usual to scan, usually it will just take awhile to take measurement and he mentioned there's some amniotic fluid left, lucky is not empty. He wanted me to go NUH for a FA scan as well. At that point, I can't understand the situation and all I got was full of question marks because I remembered just last month I was informed that there is no detailed scanning done in Malaysia, if there's any problem I will be referred to Singapore. I kept thinking what's going on, what's happening because I could see my baby's heartbeat and movements.

I left the hospital confused, I told my hubby let's see Dr. Ng to get second opinion. All along I have been visiting 2 gynaes so that I could see baby more frequently so without a word we went over right away. During the scan, Dr. Ng agreed on what Dr. Ding had told us. There's only little amniotic fluid left compared to the last scan he did for me. This time hubby asked him what could the reason(s) this happened and the following answer was not what I were prepared to hear. "There are a few reasons causing this.. It might be fetal problem, placenta problem etc." i didn't manage to hear the rest because I heard termination if it's fetal problem. Dr. Ng was very kind to help us make an appt the next day as he had to make an appt for another patient. 

I went home with a heavy heart, google for information and found out if it's fetal problem like no kidneys/bladder, baby will have 0% surviving rate on outside. And at 20 weeks pregnant only, it might affect baby's lungs development as well. Read up a lot but nothing calm me down partly I won't know what's wrong until I go for FA scan. As expected, I had a sleepless night that day.

It has been such a long time since I wrote here. Have been really busy with the kids and the new addition, lele. Time passes real fast, another 2 weeks' time he will be 9 month old. It's like he's only arrive in our family yesterday.

I am so blessed to have dear with me. He always around to help and he is always there to let me vent my frustration on, hehe. I will try not to be so hot tempered and be nicer to him from now on.

Have not been active here for quite some time, been busy with baby. Time passes so fast, baby Lele is almost 6 months plus already and 2013 is here!

Registered Enen to piano lesson, she requested to go for it and I could see she is very interested in it. Well, next time she can teach Weiwei and Lele also. Hahahaha! Can save some money with 1 learning in class while the rest can learn from jiejie.

Dear is behaving like a kid nowadays, he bought comics secretly. -_- Don't know should laugh or cry, haha. But I don't mind for that since he spends all his time at home, accompanying the kids. Just take it as his new hobby. Because of this hobby, we bought a new cupboard to put his comics. 

Lele seems to start to learn how to crawl, can see him trying to put himself in the crawling position but can't move. So funny to see that, hehe.. It will be very busy for me once he master how to do that, pulling everything then! Going to tidy up the house this weekend, to prevent him from putting them into his mouth. :p

Few days ago I heard a bad news, it's from one of the mummies whom I am quite close to when I was having weiwei in forum. Her daughter is diagnosed with leukaemia and has admitted to KKH. She is like a few weeks younger than weiwei and my heart just feel so pain thinking the ordeal she will need to go through at such young age. I guess everyone will feel the heartache, especially those with kid. Other than praying for her, I do not know what else I can do for her. Jia you Shermaine!!!

Started my cloth diaper on Lele yesterday, wasn't very successful as it leak twice. I think I will need to shorten the time on changing or need to use long insert instead of the short type. I expected some hiccups along the way since it's the first experience for me and Lele so it will need some time before both of us know how to cope with it. I hope the journey for CD will be smooth from now on!

Weiwei will be taking graduation photo today, supposed to wear shoes and socks. Teacher only informed me yesterday and we tried to look 1 for him. Combing the whole Jusco, we can't even get a shoes for him. All of them do not have stocks for his feet so end up we didn't buy any. Well, at least we tried our best but luck is not on our side so what to do. Hope he still look handsome with his croc shoes, hee..

Time passes really fast, Lele is already 9 weeks old. Poor boy has been getting flu for the 3rd time since birth and until now he hasn't fully recover. I hope he will get well soon. I have stopped my favourite milk+cereal meal for him, he has been vomiting almost every after feed, fart alot with poops and my hands can always feel gas in his tummy. PD recommended me to stop diary products as it cause gassy tummy, even online articles say the same thing. I change to drink soy milk daily and I can see him getting better each day. Other than crying badly before milk make him vomit, he get most of it inside him and he don't poop as much too. Since last evening, his diapers are free of poops (really surprised me and dear) till now. Now hoping his poop habit will be adjusts and more predictable. 

Weiwei stops crying when he goes school, he even smiles and wave goodbye to me nowadays. I knew he loves school, it's just that he can't let go of me. He has grown up quite alot and turning very mischievous as well, I have to keep reminding myself he is doing all these to get my attention since I have been neglecting him quite abit since Lele is here. I felt blessed and lucky that Weiwei loves Lele very much and willing to share me with his didi.

Yesterday was a tiring for us and Lele.. It's lele full month and we took the opportunity to gift relatives/friends a cake box as a thank you. We went out early, around 8am and only back 12hrs later. As usual, food from Sweetest Moment is as good as 3 years ago and it was the first time I self collect myself. Parking there is pathetic, lucky I don't need to go back there again.

Dear and I decided not to bring Lele out for such a long time again as he was crying on and off since 3 plus till we got home so we believe he's not used to the outside. Really heartpain to see him cry like this, even carrying doesn't help too. We shall only bring him to nearby places like Jusco, supermarket. Those require hours of driving/travelling shall wait till he get older, I dont mind anyway. =)

I guess I am not a sensitive mummy, I didn't know LeLe is sick until we went to his PD this morning. Yesterday I told dear his breathing become very noisy, like something inside blocking him and he has been sneezing quite a number of times too. As WeiWei has been sick since last week, we suspect LeLe got his virus too. Dear then decided to take half-day today to bring LeLe to his PD, just in case. I know dear don't have many leaves left so told him perhaps we can wait till next week or I shall monitor another day or two before deciding. However, LeLe didn't sleep well last night. He had been waking up every hourly and cry (yes, both of us didn't sleep well with him too) so dear felt that it can't be wait for even another day.

PD confirmed that LeLe is down with flu and required a nasal spray to be used in the day to let the mucus to flow out while another type of drop in the night to let mucus to dry up so he can sleep better. When we used the spray, he screamed his lungs out. I know, I understand is really uncomfortable to use a spray to spray into the nose but really no choice.. I hope he will get better soon and he doesn't need to use the spray again.

It has been 3 weeks since LeLe come into my life. Though tiring but felt so warm, touching and happy to see his little face. Still can't imagine this little guy has been inside me for almost 10 months and now he is right beside me. He has been waking up 2 hourly for milk in the night, not sure if he is hungry or looking for comfort but I don't mind feeding him too. Anyway he won't want me next time when he grow up so must enjoy it now, haha..

Just bought a portable swing 2 days ago as he want constant carrying thus I am unable to do anything including toilet break and cooking. I just hope I can have at least 30mins each time to do my stuffs, I don't mind going hungry but I don't wish that to happen to WeiWei. Lucky LeLe seems to enjoy sleeping in it and he is able to sleep longer than usual, now I can rest more now.

Intend to buy a play gym for him and still thinking to buy another carrier as he dislike bjorn. Saw Manduca carrier and it look comfortable, the review is material thinner than Ergo so won't as warm as Ergo which is what I am looking for. Let me consider longer whether to buy that as well or not since it's not cheap. Hee..

Sigh.. Weiwei has been sick since Monday and having on and off fever with cough+flu, seeing him feel so unwell make my heart aches. I hope he will get better real soon, perhaps bringing him to the doctor if it still persist.

I thought for the whole night, deciding to give up my Lamaze Space Symphony Motion Gym. I can't bear to give it up, I love the design and theme but I couldn't do self collection myself. First, I have forgotten I was in confinement. Second, Weiwei is very sick now so I don't wish to bring him out. Third, Lele hasn't get his passport yet. Maybe Lele won't like the gym at all, I have to persuade myself to believe in that. Haiz...

Lele has grown up quite abit, last time he used to cry when I clean his face/wash his hair all the way I finish bathing him but today he didn't cry at all. I make sure water is warm enough for him, he is afraid of coldness person and he is in good mode before bringing him in. Hee..

Due to frequent pooing, his buttock starts to get rashes. Poor Lele, must be painful whenever I clean him up. Now I am using diaper spray n cotton wool to clean for him, lets hope it will get better soon.

WeiWei has been very good boy, he tries to help me out though sometimes he can't do much. He would help me to get diaper, pacificer etc. when I asked him to. Even I dont,  he would take it whenever he hear Lele cry or when I said Lele poos. Can see he really loves his didi..

Wrist breaking!!! Deprived of sleep!!! LeLe has been on fussy mode for the whole of yesterday and I had been carrying him for most of the time. Everytime I put him down, he will start crying after 5 mins +/- and required to carry him. As he is small and light, I can't use my carriers (bjorn and Ergo) and most of my cooking,bathing etc have to keep pushing back till he go back to sleep. Last night he only managed to go to sleep mode around 2.30am. Gosh, that is so so so tiring.. Lucky dear helped me to take care for a couple of hours so I could get some sleep but I know he needed work as well so tried to carry him back too.

Sorry dear that I got angry with you yesterday, wasn't really your fault actually. I just find an excuse to vent my frustration and anger out on you as I had a tough day with LeLe. =(

Seriously thinking of investing on either a sling or wrap to carry him around so I can do my things and rest better. At least my wrist wont be that aching than now isn't it? 

LeLe, please be good boy and let mama and papa rest well to take care of you and korkor + jiejie the next day ok? T.T

LeLe not sleeping well today, he has been waking up and cried for countless times since early morning. His umbilical cord dropping soon, I saw it half drop off already and there r some dried blood, wonder is it we are too rough and cause the cord to drop off earlier than it suppose to be?

Have been feeling heavy and not really hard breasts since milk came in few days ago. Tried using the pump while massaging it doesn't help, still feel quite the same. Since I didn't pump the last time when I had WeiWei (even there is, it only lasted about a day or two as I don't not need excess milk and I don't remember the same situation so I guess it cleared my blocked duct just by pumping) so couldn't figure it out why I have so little milk. I remember I could get quite alot last time, at least 50ml or more as I used via cup to store. But now its like 10-15ml, can't be so little and I thought it should be the same? In the end, I follow one of the mummies I know from forum how to manually squeeze out first before pump, I manage to get about 50ml out from one side. I was shocked and surprised to get so much. Now my LeLe should have enough milk to drink without depending on formula, I m so happy. Jia you to breastfeeding journey, I know I can do it!

It took me 5 days before I can finally stop formula milk for LeLe, my milk has been so pathetic that I almost wanted to give up on trying. It has been a tiring and tough period for both me and LeLe..

We registered his birth cert in Malaysia on last Friday, decided on the name Lim Zing Le, Jarrett. Initially we planned to let his mum to decide on the last chinese character wording, she wanted to get shi fu to calculate and we agreed just to let her happy. To my horror, she got everything changed except the English and surname of course. I was quite upset because it turned out like LeLe is the odd one out in the family. Imagine the rest of them have the same sound in the middle name while he is not and the last character of the name his mum got for us sound exactly the same as WeiWei. I was like ... Not to mention she only got us 1 name, it mean we don't have a choice at all. This is not what I thought from the beginning.. I thought we are only changing the last character and there should be a few choices for us to choose like what others have when they get shi fu to match. Had a small argument with dear and he decided to stick to the original plan, use 1 of the names we chose earlier since both of us not really into it. Now I wonder how his mum going to react tonight when he tells her, sigh.

WeiWei sat his teacher car today for the first time as I am unable to send him over for the next 3 weeks. Actually I don't mind sending him over but dear don't allow, he wanted me and LeLe rest at home and not saving the money. I admit I can't bear the money as it cost 400 for just 1 mth, I can buy lots of stuffs with that amount. Haha.. I gave in to him and let him do what he want since he has been doing the same to me. Really appreciate what he has doing for me for the past week, making me feel comfortable and at ease. Thanks dear..

I felt confused.. All along I had been hoping he will be out soon but now I kind of regret for it, haha. Yes, baby arrived on 18/6/2012 3.44 pm.

Birth Story 18/6
Dear wasn't working today, he wanted to visit gynae as we didn't manage to go on Sunday as he had been working since Saturday and by the time he got home, it was almost early noon.

We reached gynae clinic around 9 and was told to come back at 10.30am for our appt. As I was lazy to go somewhere else for breakfast (I wasn't hungry, I ate 2 buns and a big cup of cereal drink before heading out) so we went hospital canteen. While sitting there, I felt slight contraction. Looked at dear watch and timed but thinking maybe its just another BH since I have been feeling that for the past few days. When we got back to the clinic after 30 mins later, I realised gynae is not around. His door was opened and total darkness inside, my guess is he went for delivery. Timing is not constant and even the intensity too. Went to the washroom at 11am and I saw pinkish discharge, dear informed the clinic nurse and we were told to go delivery suite to do ctg. Looking at the time,I told dear I want to go home first as I wanted to fetch WeiWei from school and bathe (just in case).

We got back to the hospital at around 1pm, the nurses in delivery suite were asking where we went because they had been looking for us. Haha.. I never thought they would do that as I only got a slip from the gynae so didn't expect the clinic to track me. Did ctg for maybe an hr or so and we were sent back to gynae. The slip showed I had contractions in every 10 mins but I could see the intensity is not constant, sometimes high and sometimes low. Checked dilation and gynae was surprised that I had dilated for 5-6cm so he decided to send me up again saying I will be delivering today.

Was still quite surprised myself too while waiting for dear to do admission. By 2.50pm, I was feeling more and more pain and the time taken to feel the pain is getting shorter, less than 5mins. When I reached delivery suite, I was in intense pain and wanted to get epi but wasn't given because I was 8cm dilated, midwife said I dilated too much already and worried baby is unable to cry when he's out plus she felt baby head while checking on me.

After that, it was a total nightmare for me. Gynae hasn't arrived so midwife can't allow me to deliver before that. She tried to get me relax, I used laughing gas till I had no strength to feel anything. But as time passed, the pain was so intense that I couldn't stand it and little did I know that baby is trying to get his way out. Lucky gynae made it in time. When he reached, baby head is almost head so I guess that's the reason I didn't get any cut below but I do get a slight tear. Initially gynae intend to stitch for me but I asked if I can do without it (only 1-2 stitches, didn't want to feel pain again for that) and he said can.

Baby looked blue when he came out, he cried so loud and kept wanting someone to carry him. He has a strong lungs! He weigh 2860 grams, lighter than I expected. I thought he would weigh near or more than 3.5kg, haha..

I took less than 5hrs for the whole process and the last 4-5cm I took less than an hr. All of us including the gynae were shocked that I delivered that fast. I will not go through pregnancy again, he is my last child. The pain is too scary to go through it again..

Still on waiting game, he still not coming out yet.. Many times my mind just flashed through situations where he is willing to be out.. I think I am just too bored waiting, haha.. Has been waking up a few times in the night and unable to sleep or been sleeping late, wonder why.. Hope this little beanie won't let me wait too long from now. =)

This is so funny... The postman working at dear office de already can recognise his name and commented to the admin that the same guy again ar? Hahaha.. Little did he know that it's me who has doing all the buying. No choice, I got nowhere to post my stuffs other than his office lo. Hehe.. Can't be going self collect every now and then plus some sprees don't allow it also. There will be a last package reaching dear on friday or monday so i wonder what will the postman think again this time, haha.. I will try not to purchase stuffs for the time being, let the postman to forget about him first. =p

I am very tired, I am very sleepy, I am tired of waiting already! When is my beanie going to come out? No matter how much I sleep, I seem the same and can go back to bed again. Waiting, waiting and more waiting. Must REN, REN, REN!!!

3rd day of repairing my car porch ceiling and finally no more drilling during the day. Not that I don't like it, is the little one inside me been kicking as if he is afraid of the sound. And due to the noise pollution, I couldn't nap in the day so I was too tired in the morning. Hee.. But well, I still managed to nap awhile yesterday though I have been waking up by the noise while weiwei nap throughout for 2 days (really salute him for being able to sleep through despite of the loud sound). 

Wonder how heavy is the little one, seeing gynae on sunday and wonder when will he be coming out to meet us. To be frank, I am quite tired of waiting although I know I can't rest well when he's out. I can't wait to meet him face-to-face! =D

Now counting down, waiting game.. Wonder when will baby coming to see us.. I have been thinking what signal will i be having on that day etc.. Hehe.. Maybe i have nothing to do so i have been thinking many things recently.

Next week going to bring weiwei for 3 year old assessment, hopefully i can still accompany him to polyclinic. And today is his birthday but dear is busy with his project so tonight i will be buying him his favourite fish n prawn. Perhaps can take photos on how he feast on them, haha..

Every year when is near to my birthday or anniversary, I always tell him I wanted flowers but as always I will never get it. I know he isn't a romantic person or someone who will give flowers during the special days so I expected nothing from him since I didn't have anything from him. However this year he gave me a very pleasant surprise on my birthday. He actually went to buy me a bouquet of forget-me-not for me and brought it home secretly. I was caught by surprise that he did that, is so sweet of him to do that too. I wonder if there will be a second time from him? Haha.. I feel very contented that he actually did it for once in his lifetime (at least to me), thank you my dear. =)

First flower bouquet from my dear

Look pretty isn't it?

Weiwei at home today as his school has 4 cases of HFMD with 2 cases in his class so dear don't want to let him take the risk of getting it as well. He did something on his own while I was bathing just now. He wanted to eat bread but didn't let me know so he took the bread, nutella (his all-time favourite) and butter spread knife from the fridge and decide to do it himself. As I expected, it quite a mess. Too much nutella on the bread, he had it even on the table, his hands and handkerchief (he actually used that to wipe off the excess =.=). I didn't scold him, I know he is just trying to get it done and eat it. I need to hide the knife somewhere already, sigh.

And lastly, happy birthday to myself. :)

I wonder how is weiwei doing in school today. He was on diaper-free for the first time yesterday in school but I am not sure why he look so terrified and frightened when he saw me after school. I am not sure why he reacted that way as I spoke with the teacher today and they were surprised too with his reaction. I was told he was doing well yesterday and no one scolded him so they are not sure why he was so scared. Perhaps he is still trying to get used to this major change and not comfortable in going to a new toilet, haha..

I have almost finish washing baby's things except a cot bumper and clothings. Not that I am lazy, is just that I don't want to wash them too early so been dragging the time. Maybe I will start washing them next week provided the weather is on my side, I just hate it that it has to rain daily in the afternoon. Even it doesn't rain, it will only be like once or twice a week only so is really hard to predict and I still have our own clothings to wash as well. And I have to squeeze in a day or two to use febreeze to 'clean' baby toys and mattress, not to mention I need to put them in the sun (again). Need to do things faster to wait for the little one's arrival!

Had a busy night yesterday, went to sg and brought ah b to KKH, suspected fractured wrist as he fell earlier in the noon when he is walking downstair to wait for school bus. He claimed he didn't see where he was walking, he was looking somewhere else (plus i think day-dreaming as well) and thus caused him to fall. His wrist is swollen and unable to move, he didn't tell mum about it until mum came back in the night (buy him dinner). On cast for a week, going back to see bone specialist on thursday to check if he need a permanent cast that can last him for a mth or nothing really serious as the x-ray couldn't see much and the doctor-on-duty in A&E didn't want to take the risk so treated it as fractured wrist first. So his birthday that fall on next saturday will be a day without cake as mum said he can't eat eggs, bean types veges and anything sour. Haiz..

It has been a tiring weekend.. Saturday we went Jusco, buying some baby's stuffs and my confinement items. Thinking of buying them now since it's almost April and didn't want to push it further just in case. Was so happy to see that they are opening Delifrance in May, can't wait to eat it again. ^^ Sunday I followed dear to his office, waited for him about an hour and weiwei started crying after 35mins cause his papa never come back. Haha.. After that we went ikea as the clock in my room is spoilt, we wanted to get extra pillow cases as well (for relatives to use when they are coming over) and we bought some oven stuffs too. I am planning to bake cupcakes during the weekend if dear is not working. Anyway weiwei is so excited over the cakes and he has been choosing over what should I bake for him. =.=

This morning he seems to has a little cough, hope it won't get worse or else he is going to miss school again (that's what he has been hoping!). Shall monitor him for today and decide later if he is able to go tomorrow.

Going to see baby this sunday but not sure if we can make it or not. Dear has been working on sunday for the past 2 weeks and if he need to work this sunday, most probably I will choose not to visit gynae too as I feel it will too rush to buy groceries; visit gynae; lunch and rushing to sg. I didn't want to come back late though dear can go for work later as the kids need to go school the next day. Let's see then..

Has been a busy weekend for me, now my legs are aching due to walking. Haha..

Seen baby on Saturday, he has been growing well. 651g on week24+4days. After that we went to Taka baby fair and bought a few items, doesn't seem to buy many stuffs but it cost us $16x. Let me think what did i buy.. Nipple cream, milk shield collector, breast pads, pacifier, 3 newborn toys (actually I only chose 2 and weiwei wanted to buy the ball for himself+didi, haha), a set of car window shields and a pair of newborn socks. Things are expensive nowadays, haiz.. But I really enjoy buying them and there are some other items I will need to get them by end of next month or 2. To prevent myself forgetting what to buy, I will need to write a list down. And dear has been taking his time to think of a name for baby, he has been lazy plus busy. Hope June will be here soon! ^^

DIY a beansprout bolster for baby, hope baby likes it since my sewing is not as good as the professional, hehe. Took me quite some time to finish it as i was trying to estimate the amount of beansprout to put in. 

Weiwei is still crying in school, i really hope he can get used to it soon. Heartpain to see him cry so badly everyday and the kelian look. I am trying hard not to be soft-hearted and stop letting him go school. Haiz..

There will never be forever happiness or love, they are here and gone before you know it. Perhaps it's a blessing to know it earlier than later. I hope the heart will stop crying and bleeding, it hurts..

Hormones acting up again, feel like crying for no reason again. I need more love, care and attention than ever. Please treat me like an infant and shower me with all the love you can, i need lots of it. :(




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Suddenly i am afraid of giving birth, i feel like running away. I even want to pretend baby isnt here, i think i must be crazy now.



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I have been sleeping very little for the past 3 days. Though my eyes are closed but i know i was awake. I am not sure why but i have been feeling very depressed for the past few days, it's like unloved/unwanted. The feeling is awful and i hardly able to cope it. Yesterday i couldn't take it and cried several times, trying to relieve the unhappiness inside me. I hate the feeling, i think it must be the hormones changing. I hope my old self will be back soon. :(




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I never expected it is that difficult to get my boy to school. This morning he woke up early and i thought we are able to go out early but i was wrong. When he saw his uniform that i intend to change for him, he threw the top onto the floor and lie on the sofa refusing to get up. I tried to take off his pyjames and he was pulling it back, saying no at the same time. After coaxing him for 30mins, nothing is done and i gave up as i didn't want to force him. I know clearly if i had force him to go school, he won't like school again. I hope he will want to go tomorrow.

Dear had gone to KL today and he will only be back until next tues. I am starting to miss him already, sigh. He went to work just now, not sure what time will he be going back to the hotel. I don't think i am able to stay up too late to wait for his msn.

I am so bored at home, i hope to be able to bring weiwei to school soon so my time will pass faster. Jia you baby!

Waited more than 2 hours yesterday but when I saw the screen, all the wait is worth it. I saw her being very excited, jumping up and down and waving her tiny little hand. At 1 point of time, I think I even saw a smile like face. Though the screen is in black and white but I could clearly recognise the face. I can't wait to see her again next month, hope she will let me know her gender then as this time she had her legs all up and showing off her buttocks. =D

I was so upset and angry last night. My boy had his legs on my bed, making me unable to turn and felt so warm thus unable to sleep. Tried to wake him up to move my boy but he slept like dead log. End up I had to sleep on the floor and he still sleep so soundly, at 1 point of time he even sleep over to my side! It started to rain and I cant get back to bed so I had to sleep on the sofa. =(

My boy down with chickenpox while I barely able to eat anything, how worse can it get? Lucky my boy seems well and fine with it or else I think I will be death at a even faster rate. Sigh..

December, december.. When are you coming? I wish it will come real soon and hope I will feel better. Eating meals now seem a torture to me as I hardly can eat it and at the same time I can feel the hunger in me. Arghh....

I feel so unwell, I feel like I am dying everyday. I know all these feelings are good signs but sometimes I really hate it. I know I am indecisive. =(

Time for laugh

Just now I went to topup petrol fuel and after when I am done, I couldn't start my car. I tried like 5-6 times, still unable to start it so I have no choice but to call dear. In the end I forgot to put my gear to N/P. >.< 

I think I must be daydreaming again, don't know I didn't take note of that. Dear definitely will be laughing at me when he come home tonight.

Tomorrow evening I will be facing the answer, I am not thinking of it now. I don't want to stress myself or anyone. :)

I don't know what is truth and what is fake, I don't know to believe or to doubt. I am afraid to believe what I had seen, I am afraid that I will be disappointed. I don't know if I have the courage to face it, I don't know what kind of feeling should I get myself prepared. Everything seems so real and yet so unreal at the same time. I will only know the answer in another week time, what will the answer be and what answer am I hoping..

I thought I will be having a smooth sailing journey, I guess I got too excited. Now I am feeling unwell, nausea has been around for like half an hour and I just feel like going to the toilet to puke. Sigh.. I hope this kind of feeling will not get worse, just stay this way. :( 

It has been such a long long time since I wrote something in my blog, I think partly is because I am plain lazy to update it. I hope I will try to update it more frequent so in the future I will not forget bits and pieces of the memories that I will like to remember. 

Today is the 3rd day dear went Hongkong, he didn't call us in the afternoon so I guess he must be too busy to do so. I can only see him in another week, I wonder if he misses us like how we miss him? 

Decided to spend more time with the family instead of the laptop, my boy has been growing so fast and I hope I can see him more before he doesn't want me to be with him. Haha..

Beaba Babycook Baby Food Maker is in my next to buy list. ^^ Got to write it here in case I forgotten the name, haha..

Went for a shopping spree yesterday but the one who got the most is my boy, haha.. He got himself a farm with truck and lots of animals, a ball, a set of utensils for his self feeding, his bathing and utensil washing refills, a finger toothbrush, a learning chopsticks. I think that's it, I can't remember it. Hehe..

Actually we intend to get a darker tone curtains and a mirror in Ikea but end up buying so many things for him. Seeing him enjoys so much in his new farm, I am glad that we decide to buy it back. 

Ordered a few sets of his cloth diapers and should be receiving them tomorrow. He starts wearing them 24/7 but due to raining weather, he doesn't have enough diapers to change. Anyway he will be using them for quite some time so still worthwhile.

He has showed interest in self feeding and this afternoon he had his first try. It was fine initially and right after I took some photos, his food start to fly over all the place. Haha.. It's really fun to see him progressing daily, getting better and cleverer each day. I hope to hear him call MaMa real soon. =)

YaYa

Currently crazy about cloth diaper. Haha.. Not those we see and use in the olden days where we have to fold it and can only wear for 1 pee. I am referring to those modified ones where each cloth diaper can wear about 3hrs, the cover is in either solid and designs plus WATERPROOF material. Though is expensive when buy initially but in the long run, I can save quite a sum. And can pass down if is well-maintenance., haha.. Actually the main point is not only can save money, can save the environment too. Since I am a SATM, I believe I have the time to wash it (anyway I am not the one washing, is my washing machine doing the job =D). Looking forward to receive them perhaps by next week, give them a few washes and ready to use on my boy. Can't wait to receive my loots! ^^

YaYa

Once upon a time, there is a silly girl who thought herself as a piece of carrot so when she was holding a carrot while cutting, she put her own finger at the bottom of the knife and cut it along. Haha.. That person is me. =.= Nothing serious but that finger won't be able to use anytime soon since I can't press on it.

Dear is considering of changing job. At first he was worried I will be unhappy but I told him his fear is unfounded.  If he wishes to change a new environment, I won't stop him. I know he isn't happy with his current job so I keep encouraging him to find a new one. Hope he can get one that he truly likes and enjoys. ^^

YaYa

Time passes so fast, I have been driving for 2 weeks to and fro custom le. Well, so far so good and of course hope it will remain the same for the rest of my life. Haha..

Everyone in the family falls sick, cough and flu. Lucky my little boy is getting well soon, he is stronger than I thought. His 7th tooth is on its way out and think the 8th tooth will be here anytime, haha.. Waiting for him to get well before training him to sleep on his own. He has been sleeping with us and kicking him whole night. Lucky his head always on my side so I am able to sleep peacefully. =P

YaYa

2 years has passed, I thought my heart has heal, I thought I had move on, I thought I had put it down. 

My heart can still feel the pain as if it had just happened, everything is still so fresh in my mind. My heart still misses so much, my tears still flow down automatically, I still hope it didn't happen at all. I can't turn back time; I wish I could; I yearn I could.

There will always be a little place for you in my heart, my mind. I miss you, I really do.

YaYa

I think I will be dying of exhaustion soon. For the past few nights, weiwei has been crying for not few mins but few hours. I really don't know what he wants or do, I am so tired of petting him back to sleep while he cried and rolled all over the place. If he's teething, I hope the nightmare will end real soon. Haiz..

I think I might see ***ae in JB but trying to find good one or else I won't even think about it. Wonder if anyone can helps me ask around or not.. Pray that everything goes smoothly.

YaYa

I have a little secret, a secret that can't say it out. Wanted to tell everyone but I know I can't. Sigh..

YaYa

It has been a super long time since I last posted. Well, was struggling with itch (almost) daily and it was really a hard task to deal with everyday when woke up. Legs started to itch and even though you don't scratch it, it will automatically spread to other areas. Sometimes I can't stand it and scratch like hell. Of course, it gets worsen and leave scars on it. I had this problem for months but couldn't think of a solution. In the end, I force myself to pay a visit to the doctor. The moment doctor listened to my complaint and seen my legs, he told me it is a sign of allergy. Bleh.. At the same time, the first thing that came into my mind is dust!!! Alot of renovations going around my area and my district is still building many houses but as I still sweep the floor frequently, I am not sure if that's the cause.  Anyway I had an anti-allergy injection and given some medicines too.

The moment I got home, I took off all the bedsheets, curtains to wash. Vacuum the floor, mop it and clear everything that collect dust. Has been cleaning the house since Sunday and so far the itch never come back. Intend to wash major items every 2 weeks and too bad I can't sun my mattress, haha.. Dear must be feeling relieved to hear that as our mattress is so heavy. Let's pray the itch will never ever return to me again, I hate it!

YaYa

My little weiwei is having teeth soon, can see 2 white teeth at the bottom of his mouth. Finally I guess, he has been biting on things he can hold and lucky that he doesn't drool. Hee..

Dear's parents intend to bring the kids (of course including us) to Genting during the CNY. We planned to go back hometown for few more days but his colleagues took the days right after CNY so dear is not allowed to take it. He was unhappy, keeps comfort him telling him we can go back during June holiday. I understand that his parents miss him and weiwei so I don't mind going back for longer time, anyway it's just once or twice a year.

I am quite lazy to upload photos as all in dear's laptop. Will try to upload from his when I remember lo. ^^

YaYa

Time seems to pass very fast. Weiwei is almost 8mths old, still remember how tiny he was when he first come to the world. He is getting naughtier each day but at the same time, he is more adorable and always make others laugh. He is already able to stand on his own quite well and starts to walk a couple of steps holding onto sofa, bed frame. I think he might starts walking soon and perhaps will skip crawling phase. Cause whenever I put him on tummy, he will just turn around without trying to crawl. =.= I think can't force him to do things, shall let nature take its own course.

Enen has been coping well in school. She has homework daily (almost) and today is her first chinese spelling, wonder if she can cope with it or not. Well, I don't wish to give her any pressure, just hope that she can do well in her studies. Her birthday is in 2 weeks' time and falls on a friday. Dear has decided to take half-day leave on that day so we can buy her a cake secretly and celebrate for her when she comes home from school. Lucky she didn't reach home very late, around 7.30pm.

Ah b has been doing his homework. Mummy told me that if he does that, he will be allow to play games. Haha.. Now he study his own spelling also, getting more and more independent I guess. Hope he will be a good boy.

YaYa

I am almost dying.. Been sick for about a month and have not got well yet. Everyone except dear has fallen sick (he is so healthy LO!), spreading virus around. Haha..

Just now weiwei fell down. That enen go carry him when I went to boil water and trip over a water bottle. Weiwei knock right on the floor, forehead had a big bump and chin bleeds too. So heartpain!!! Later got to boil 1 egg to roll his head, so kelian. =(

YaYa

Have not been blogging for super long time. Partly was because I was lazy and another reason was I was busy with weiwei. The defects about my house also not done yet so fan lo..

Been cooking daily except when we need to go to sg so all my free time is being slotted into watering, cooking, bathing etc. No time to do other things at all. I miss the times when I am free to do whatever I like, unlike now I got to do all the important stuffs before I have time for myself.

Weiwei has been getting naughtier each day and really know how to make people smile. He already sit very well on his own and fell down a few times. So xin tong lo.. Hope he won't fall again, my kelian de weiwei.

Enen has been sick for weeks le and hasn't got well yet. Now me and weiwei got the virus from her liao.. So angry as she always cough without covering her mouth, letting the virus fly all over the house!! Haiz.. Hopefully all of us get well real soon. =(

YaYa

By the way, she is 7 weeks old now. The owner intends to put her to dog farm if no one wants her, kelian right? Hopefully she likes her new home and will get used as soon as possible. =)

Been so busy and tiring for the past few weeks due to moving house. Finally majority of my stuffs are unpacked except for 1 big box and 1 small box as I do not have enough shelf to put it. Will need to get another cupboard from ikea again, so far lo..

Our family got a new member last night. Is a cute little puppy. =D Haven't decide on its name yet but is a girl. Any suggestion? Hmm.. Got to end it here, its awake and crying in toilet. Had to lock her in due to her teething and for less than an hour, she has been biting almost everything in my house!!!

YaYa

So tired today.. Feel like doing nothing, just lie down for the day. Yesterday went over to new house again, to do spring cleaning. Aiyo, house so big and took us whole afternoon just washing the floor lo. We didn't manage to clean the window at all cause is already evening le. And surprisingly, all of us forgotten to eat lunch as well. 

The house not ready yet, stupid contractors to blame. Who cares, I already lock up the house, none of them are getting into it without my presence. They can only get their balance after I move in AND finish up what they supposed to do, or else dont even bother to think about getting a single cent from me. The painter still dare to threaten, saying if we don't give him the balance he will not return keys to us. Then forget about getting the $700 lo, I can use that to change lock and add additional locks. That won't even cost me $700, see who is on the losing end. If you think you can go into my house with the current keys u r holding, go ahead. And I am switching on my alarm this sunday. Try me, I am not afraid of you. Make me pissed off and trust me, you are not even allowed to come back to finish up your job.

YaYa

Counting down daily and cannot believe it that I am moving in 2 weeks' time! Most of the renovations are done except for the kitchen cabinets and oven cupboard. I am so worried that it will not done in time, definitely killing that carpenter if he is unable to do it on time. The paint colours I chose for the house really look pretty, I love it a lot. Sorry, no photos yet because I had forgotten to snap. >.< Going over again this weekend and MUST remember to shoot a couple of it. Overall, I enjoy staying there since I like the house in the first place. Though it's not as pretty as others but I am content with what it is now. Don't ask for impossible will make life happier for us, doesn't it? =)

YaYa

Flat getting messier each day as I have start packing stuffs into boxes. Previous experience told me not to pack in the last minute, NO TIME!

Alot of things are not done yet, hope our house will ready by 3rd week of the month. So rushing, like not enough time to finish on time. Arghh.. I need more time to do everything. 

Thinking of going over to take a look, has not been there for more than a month. I wonder how much has it changed and don't know if I can recognise my own house or not, haha..

YaYa

I know I had not been writing, my pokpok fell sick again. Flu and diarrhea so had to take care of him. Kelian lo, make me so heartpain..

Cannot imagine that I have less than a month before I move into new house. Wonder if I can adapt or not, haha.. My flat here already renting to his friend le so at least got savings lo. Won't be using the rental income, will be saving it up every month for rainy days. =) I will be rich taitai soon, HAHA!

YaYa

Dear wanted to paint the interior of the new house himself with another friend of his. At first I agreed as I thought is only a small part of the house require painting, then when I went over again last week I realise almost the first floor of the house need painting (including ceiling lo). Aiyo.. like this how to paint, is super super tiring de lo. Though we are already in very tight budget but I really don't want dear to do such a tough job so I told him to get someone to paint the house instead. =) Another sum of money flowing out, when are money coming in?? Sigh

YaYa

Not feeling happy.. I dream of papa, not exactly seeing him as a real person but in photos. I saw papa in photos with us, we were in cruise and we looked very happy in them. I don't know what it means but I only know I felt sadness when I saw papa. I guess I still miss him and it was like out of the sudden. I think there's a period that I had forgotten about papa and he just appears in my dream. Not sure whether should I let mama know or not. All I remember is I woke up crying, the feeling of missing him is so much that I had to cry it out. PaPa, I miss you..

YaYa

Hohoho.. I am going Genting next month. Dear's company treat their colleagues and immediate family there as there is no bonus lo. -.- Better than nothing, can bring the kids to amusement park to play.

YaYa

I cannot make up my mind to buy myself a new wallet or not.. Sigh.. My wallet's screw always come loose and I lost the part once and I searched like hell in my bag and finally found it. On the other hand, I want to save money on other don't know what I might need stuffs. Why I am not a millionaire so I do not need to keep thinking over again and again, losing tons of hairs just on a wallet? Perhaps as time passes, I will just give up on it (as usual). =(

YaYa

I think I am falling sick, having running nose since yesterday night. At first I thought is because of the dust as I had packed some of the kids' books, trying to find their pencils in the whole lot. -.-ll But this morning the running nose is still there so I guess it's coming for me since I have not fall sick for quite some time le. Sigh.. Hope my pok pok won't get it from me. *Pray*

Last night bought air tickets to Penang, confirm moving house on 1 Nov liao. Think his parents will be trilled that we took the morning flight instead of the evening flight as we wanted to let them have more time with baby. Not bringing ah b along as I know he would want to stay at mummy's place. Anyway, we will go over there on saturday to bring him home so not much difference. Hopefully my house will be ready by then. Haven't got time to go over to buy paints and lighting.

YaYa

Tiny Love Symphony-in-Motion Mobile

Tiny Love's award-winning Symphony in Motion mobiles redefine mobiles by combining a wide variety of engaging developmental stimuli. A multitude of fascinating movements and motions captivate baby's senses as she listens to selected classical music pieces that challenge and enrich her, both emotionally and intellectually. This delightful farmyard motif features Mozart, Beethoven and Bach musical pieces. Requires 3 "AA" batteries (not included). Measures 15.5" x 14" x 4.5".

Tiny Love Sweet Island Dreams Mobile

The arch of this unique mobile is designed like a tree trunk with green leafy branches extending outwards to give each friendly creature its own presence. Each of the 3 adorable characters does a special "dance" as it dangles from the tree. Babies will marvel at the choreography of the giraffe, monkey and the bird moving independently to the sound of soothing and engaging music. 3 C 1.5V Batteries Required, Not Included.

Fisher-Price Rainforest Peek-a-Boo Leaves Musical Mobile

Able to convert to a crib-side music box and night light, the Rainforest™ Peek-a-Boo Leaves Music™ from Fisher-Price® features 3 classical compositions for choose from: Bach, Mozart or Beethoven as well as 3 modes: music, lights and motion for 10 minutes, or music and lights for 18 minutes. Also offered are rainforest sounds and music that can be activated by the included remote.

Fisher-Price Smart Response Mobile

This mobile debuts a new feature in the Newborn mobile category: Baby Response. When baby cries continuously for 8 seconds or longer, the mobile automatically starts with motion and music. This features times out after 3 hours, however, just like remote controls do. There is a dial on the top of the moblie to adjust the sensitivity of the Baby Response system. There is also a small LED on the unit's base to indicate whether or not Baby Response is still activated. Mom can also choose to de-activate Baby Response and simply start the music and motion herself. The base of this mobile resembles a large frog with four colorful legs. In the base is a nightlight and three buttons: one for Beethoven, one for Mozart, and one for lullabies. Music plays for 12-15 minutes. The armature of the mobile has leaf detailing at the top. There are four hanging satin and velour plush characters: a yellow duck, a green and blue turtle, a purple and green snail, and a smaller satin bee with blue wings. As the baby grows, the armature can be removed, and the base remains as a crib-side soother.

Fisher-Price 2-In-1 Precious Planet Projection Mobile

This is a projection mobile with a canopy that brings the light show closer to baby. A delicate canopy hangs overhead of baby with four plush characters attached to it (teal whale, white polar bear, green alligator and yellow lion). Each character represents an environment from around the world. A soft light pattern is projected from the base of the mobile onto the inside of the canopy. When baby grows, the armature can be removed, and the light pattern can project onto the ceiling.



Has been searching for a cot mobile but couldn't make up my mind which one to buy. Which one do you like?

YaYa

Going broke very soon from the rate I spent on my son. Just now child guidance clinic called me and arranged ah b to go for 1 to 1 reading programme. I know I got no choice, he has difficulties on reading. Can't even read a single sentence at 9. But it cost $70 per session!!! 1 session last an hour and he supposed to go every week! OMG.. What am I going to do? Feel depressed.. =(

YaYa

Been so busy for the past week..

As usual, we went to our house last saturday, it's almost done. Not all la, is the cement works and electric works will be finished by friday. Will be pulling alarm wiring this thursday but we are not putting the alarm up yet because the house beside us has not started renovation so when they renovated, our alarm cannot be switched on so no point wasting money to do it now and cannot switched on. Went ikea, bought a staircase lights and mirrors for bathrooms. Hee..

Forgotten what I did on sunday le, haha.. Then my girl had fever since monday till now, went off yesterday noon time and came back in the night. The first day was so scary, as high as 39.3 lo. Think is due to lack of water during the weekend, haiz.. Been getting her to drink lots of water and sleep, hope she can go to school tomorrow. She misses her school and been asking me when she can go back. Get well soon, girl.

YaYa

Ok, I have upload some recent photos of pok pok. Not easy to take photo for him as he moves a lot nowadays. He always know how to make people laugh and happy.. He looks different compared with newborn photos right? Sometimes he would play with himself and talk so loud, waking us up. Then as expected, dear will wake up and play with him, saying it's too difficult to resist. Haha..

YaYa

I almost unable to wake up this morning, was too tiring.. I went to msia twice over the long weekend, haha.. Urgently need to settle stuffs for the new house as we are moving in soon. Quarrelled dear on sun, was really upset that I had to scrimp for everything. I don't like the feeling and guess he didn't know my true feeling till I vent it all out at him. I believe he is unhappy too as he didn't know how I felt all along and in the end, he gave in to me. =)

YaYa

So kelian.. My pok pok didn't sleep well last night, he has been waking up and cry. Can't bear to see him suffer, I gave him flu medicine in the night to let him sleep better. Now whenever he cries or makes noise, it will accompany with the flu sound. Feel so heartpain and these 2 days seem to be having haze, think it will somehow worsen his sickness. =(

YaYa

Aiyo, my pok pok fall sick again!!! This time is ren wei lo!!! Dear let the fan blow at full blast for 2 nights, only turn to the lowest speed near morning. Even I also feel cold and cover blanket in the middle of the night. My poor pok pok has been sneezing for the whole day and just now even has running nose. Poor boy.. I don't want to give him medicine, not good for his body. Shall monitor and decide bah.

Last night quarrelled with dear and asked him to sell the house away. Was told must choose a date to do renovation so get him to call home to get a date as I don't bother for such thing de lo. I just start and move in as and when I am free, don't care de. Then when informed that our main door must changed, I was stunned lo. Now the door is facing south and the fengshui master said must change to face west as dear is "gold" while the current door is "fire" so will make the family quarrel frequently. I was like ... Lucky our garden is on the correct side or else they say the house can sell off le. But still it look super weird to have the main door move to the garden side and the odd house with no door in front. Plus got to re-do the wiring there.. All these will cost a big sum and his parents offered to pay for it. Aiyo, it's like wasting money to do it and also will need longer than we expected time to finish all the renovation. The more I think, the more problems I can thought of come out so I just commented may as well sell the house off and get a south facing house. But I know I won't want that kind of house as it will be very warm with the sun shinning for hours in the house and I got no air-con to cool down the house! Super sian lo.. Was so happy to get a house and now feel frustrating instead.

YaYa

This is the set we bought, everything you see in the picture are included in it. Too bad I had forgotten (again) to take photo in the home fair but guess this is better than nothing. Not bad hor?

YaYa

So tiring, I hardly able to wake up this morning. Went homedec in JB yesterday with the intention of getting stove package but end up we didn't buy it. Because the brand we wanted to get did not set up a store there and majority of the brands there we are not sure if they are good to use or not. We got no one to ask for opinion so decided not to risk it.

Anyway we did get some loots home. We bought furniture instead, haha.. Bought a bedroom set and living room set. That cost us about 10k including mattress. We got the Slumberland mattress, not those unheard brand. The furniture sales gave us a 20% discount on the mattress. We did go to the mattress store to try on it, not bad and quite comfortable and same price before we got our discount. Hee..

YaYa

Got enen into a very average school in Woodlands, confirm she's in as I checked MOE website and the school I registered is not full yet. Guess I got to spend more time teaching her and perhaps get her a tutor. At least I am not stressed now, no need to worry about balloting and not getting any place in Woodlands. Perhaps she won't be too stressful in school and enjoy more since she needs to spend hours in traveling.

YaYa

I think I am too stressed le. I have been dreaming about schools for the whole night, guess I am too worried about not being able to get a school for my girl. Even I woke up to feed pok pok, I will still continue having the same dream. -.-

I am looking a quite a number of alternatives as I know very well that I will be giving up the application in Innova. No matter how I think, the chances of getting in is really slim especially I am in the last priority. Really have no wish to go through another round of waiting and guessing if I were to fail to get her in this phase. This is too stress for me to take it. Why is it so difficult to find a primary school nowadays? Must be higher expectation of parents, haha.. Who want to put their own child into a super lousy school if one has a choice? Sigh..

YaYa

Sad ar!!! Just went to Innova Primary School to register and it already about 200 liao when they only have 158 places. How la? Don't know got the luck in ballot or not and worse still, don't know if it will get to ballot or not. I am so depressed. Next week then will know result ar, I must to pray that I will be able to get a place. Please help me to pray as well, really appreciate it. =(

YaYa

Fisher-Price Rock-A-Stack

Munchkin Mozart Magic Cube

Fisher-Price Precious Planet Jumperoo

Wanted to add photos from blogger main page to show the toys I bought at amazon but somehow it doesn't allow me to add photos. To be exact, the icons are all gone, wonder who eat it up. Haha.. Hope it will come back soon.

So I used gmail to add photos in, confusing when comes to editing. Sigh

YaYa

Went Ikea yesterday, was looking around and finding suitable items for the new house. Bought a table lamp, a ceiling lamp and a box of 6 glasses. Hee..

Order a jumperoo and a couple of toys from amazon just now, finally.. Wanted to do so earlier but I always forgotten, haiz..

Just now I checked my a/c, thinking to check how much to save and realise I got $300+ extra. Couldn't figure out where the amount comes from. Could it be from
1. Idiot? Nah, he won't be so nice to transfer earlier than he promised.
2. Childcare refund? But can't be, they always use it to offset future payments and they only own me $188.
Could it be ...?? I quickly log into my internet banking to check my fund transfer history and guess what? My fears really come true. I thought I had paid for my bag, the spree seller also said she received my payment and most importantly is I had already received my bag last week! So whose payment did she receive from and why the fund was bounced back to me? I keeps checking the account number she gave me which is correct. I don't understand why. But seems that she has been very busy for the past few days and intending to return her the money. Feels bad and uneasy... I didn't mean it, I just didn't bother to check my account as she told me she received so didn't think so much. -.-ll
What should I do?

YaYa

So headache.. Last night childcare centre called me and informed me that there is a kid in K1 tio H1N1!! I'm not worried enen tio, I am more worried pok pok tio. He's still so young, think his body is not strong enough to fight it lo. Today I didn't bring enen to school, let the school clean up first. So scary lo.. The teacher just asked me why she didn't go school, think she also scared, haha...

YaYa

Pok pok had his injection on Monday, didn't cried much as he was distracted by toy rattle. Haha.. Guess that's the first time I see him so happy and alert at PD clinic. He had slight fever in the evening and was really cranky for the whole day. Constantly required carrying and even carrying, he would screamed out of sudden, guess the medicine making him uncomfortable. He seems to be able to recognise people now. Nowadays whenever dear carry him, he would cry and make a fuss till I take over. After that, he will quiet down and lie on me. Like this how to get some rest wor? sigh..

Hope he will accept others so I won't be so busy.

YaYa

Yesterday was soo tired.. Pok pok refused to sleep the previous night, only fall asleep around 1plus right after the fan broke down!!! Don't know we suay or lucky, 2 fans broke down at the same day. Lucky wasn't very warm and managed to sleep till early morning.

Dear was too tired to go for work and get him to take leave, can go malaysia to register our marriage. Need to do so in order to apply for visa later on. But didn't manage to register as we are supposed to submit my divorce papers. Sigh.. Next week has to go there again and this time going there early morning so can do both at the same time. :-)

One funny thing I noted when I am on my way to msia. Our sg custom is as per normal, nothing extra but when I went over to msia custom, I saw those temperature camera and all their officers wear masks. It was like what happened there? Think they really scare of getting it but I wonder if they do know the fact that normal masks are unable to block h1n1/flu/cough, only n95 mask can do the job. It's like waste of $ and effort of putting a mask on without preventing it, haha..

YaYa

Sigh.. pok pok blocked nose hasn't cleared, still as blocked. Though he hasn't got well, I had stopped his medicine a couple of days ago. Was told by some forumers that it is not advised to let baby to take medicine for more than 3 days, also his PD don't encourage to introduce medicines at such young age. Hope pok pok can sleep more and allow his body to fight against the virus. JIA YOU POK POK!

Didnt go msia yesterday, pok pok is the main reason. Hopefully we can go this coming weekend. Still discussing what to do for reno, trying our best to save money. Lucky I loved the original look of the house so I don't really mind if we can't do much reno due to money issue. As long as we r happy together, nothing else really matters. :)

YaYa

Kelian de pokpok.. He has fall sick le. Having blocked nose (keep sneezing) and coughing. So heartpain.. Never expected him to fall sick at such young age.

Brought him to polyclinic and power down in 5 mins when I reached there!! After that, the pcs and the auto registration machines went down, unable to restart. So suay lo.. When I went into the doctor's room, she gave me a very uneasy feeling as she called the pharmacy right in front of me and asked them what type of medicine to prescribe to my boy. Zzz.. How am I going to trust her and give my boy the medicine?

After thinking for some time, I decided to go to the PD at night and after sucking the phelgm from his nose, he does breath better. Hope he will get well soon.

YaYa

Hee.. I went to ICA to make passport for pok pok, decided to bring him over to view the house together. Quite fast for collection, next Tues but not sure if I am free to go on that day or not. Hmm..

YaYa

I think i will be dying of tiredness soon.. Been sleeping at 11pm and waking up before sun rise!! Though dear carry him when he wakes up in the morning while I continue to sleep but I actually didn't really fall asleep. This is so tiring.. I really hope this phase will pass asap.

Bought a rattle monkey, hand squeaker toy and a kid camera (real one, can take photo and upload into pc de). Hope the kids enjoy the new toys. =D Waiting for end of the month to order jumperoo and perhaps a couple of educational/fun toys from amazon. Anyone want to order as well? Hee..

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