Not feeling happy.. I dream of papa, not exactly seeing him as a real person but in photos. I saw papa in photos with us, we were in cruise and we looked very happy in them. I don't know what it means but I only know I felt sadness when I saw papa. I guess I still miss him and it was like out of the sudden. I think there's a period that I had forgotten about papa and he just appears in my dream. Not sure whether should I let mama know or not. All I remember is I woke up crying, the feeling of missing him is so much that I had to cry it out. PaPa, I miss you..

YaYa