Have not been feeling well for the past few days but yet I refused to rest more, pushing myself to my limit. I noe by doing tis, I m making myself more vulnerable to illness & death. But who care?
No matter how tired I get, I just kip dragging myself on coz I noe even Iying on bed wont fall asleep. My mind doesnt allow me to rest anyway. =) Lucky I got naruto to accompany me thru those nites or else I do not noe wad to do alone. Yah, I got no frens.. Even I hav, they r oni those hi and bye frens. I hardly talked wif anyone, they will oni talked to me when they nid some answers and perhaps guess I will noe it bah.
I'm getting used of doing tinks alone again. I no longer feel I nid anyone or I m needed by anyone.. Even though I m smiling, my heart is not doing the same. I do not noe since when I had build back my wall n this time I even add a lock on it too, refusing to let myself to open up again. I guess this might a better solution to me and to everyone. :-)
Dying YaYa
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