Lele has grown up quite abit, last time he used to cry when I clean his face/wash his hair all the way I finish bathing him but today he didn't cry at all. I make sure water is warm enough for him, he is afraid of coldness person and he is in good mode before bringing him in. Hee..

Due to frequent pooing, his buttock starts to get rashes. Poor Lele, must be painful whenever I clean him up. Now I am using diaper spray n cotton wool to clean for him, lets hope it will get better soon.

WeiWei has been very good boy, he tries to help me out though sometimes he can't do much. He would help me to get diaper, pacificer etc. when I asked him to. Even I dont,  he would take it whenever he hear Lele cry or when I said Lele poos. Can see he really loves his didi..

Wrist breaking!!! Deprived of sleep!!! LeLe has been on fussy mode for the whole of yesterday and I had been carrying him for most of the time. Everytime I put him down, he will start crying after 5 mins +/- and required to carry him. As he is small and light, I can't use my carriers (bjorn and Ergo) and most of my cooking,bathing etc have to keep pushing back till he go back to sleep. Last night he only managed to go to sleep mode around 2.30am. Gosh, that is so so so tiring.. Lucky dear helped me to take care for a couple of hours so I could get some sleep but I know he needed work as well so tried to carry him back too.

Sorry dear that I got angry with you yesterday, wasn't really your fault actually. I just find an excuse to vent my frustration and anger out on you as I had a tough day with LeLe. =(

Seriously thinking of investing on either a sling or wrap to carry him around so I can do my things and rest better. At least my wrist wont be that aching than now isn't it? 

LeLe, please be good boy and let mama and papa rest well to take care of you and korkor + jiejie the next day ok? T.T

LeLe not sleeping well today, he has been waking up and cried for countless times since early morning. His umbilical cord dropping soon, I saw it half drop off already and there r some dried blood, wonder is it we are too rough and cause the cord to drop off earlier than it suppose to be?

Have been feeling heavy and not really hard breasts since milk came in few days ago. Tried using the pump while massaging it doesn't help, still feel quite the same. Since I didn't pump the last time when I had WeiWei (even there is, it only lasted about a day or two as I don't not need excess milk and I don't remember the same situation so I guess it cleared my blocked duct just by pumping) so couldn't figure it out why I have so little milk. I remember I could get quite alot last time, at least 50ml or more as I used via cup to store. But now its like 10-15ml, can't be so little and I thought it should be the same? In the end, I follow one of the mummies I know from forum how to manually squeeze out first before pump, I manage to get about 50ml out from one side. I was shocked and surprised to get so much. Now my LeLe should have enough milk to drink without depending on formula, I m so happy. Jia you to breastfeeding journey, I know I can do it!

It took me 5 days before I can finally stop formula milk for LeLe, my milk has been so pathetic that I almost wanted to give up on trying. It has been a tiring and tough period for both me and LeLe..

We registered his birth cert in Malaysia on last Friday, decided on the name Lim Zing Le, Jarrett. Initially we planned to let his mum to decide on the last chinese character wording, she wanted to get shi fu to calculate and we agreed just to let her happy. To my horror, she got everything changed except the English and surname of course. I was quite upset because it turned out like LeLe is the odd one out in the family. Imagine the rest of them have the same sound in the middle name while he is not and the last character of the name his mum got for us sound exactly the same as WeiWei. I was like ... Not to mention she only got us 1 name, it mean we don't have a choice at all. This is not what I thought from the beginning.. I thought we are only changing the last character and there should be a few choices for us to choose like what others have when they get shi fu to match. Had a small argument with dear and he decided to stick to the original plan, use 1 of the names we chose earlier since both of us not really into it. Now I wonder how his mum going to react tonight when he tells her, sigh.

WeiWei sat his teacher car today for the first time as I am unable to send him over for the next 3 weeks. Actually I don't mind sending him over but dear don't allow, he wanted me and LeLe rest at home and not saving the money. I admit I can't bear the money as it cost 400 for just 1 mth, I can buy lots of stuffs with that amount. Haha.. I gave in to him and let him do what he want since he has been doing the same to me. Really appreciate what he has doing for me for the past week, making me feel comfortable and at ease. Thanks dear..

I felt confused.. All along I had been hoping he will be out soon but now I kind of regret for it, haha. Yes, baby arrived on 18/6/2012 3.44 pm.

Birth Story 18/6
Dear wasn't working today, he wanted to visit gynae as we didn't manage to go on Sunday as he had been working since Saturday and by the time he got home, it was almost early noon.

We reached gynae clinic around 9 and was told to come back at 10.30am for our appt. As I was lazy to go somewhere else for breakfast (I wasn't hungry, I ate 2 buns and a big cup of cereal drink before heading out) so we went hospital canteen. While sitting there, I felt slight contraction. Looked at dear watch and timed but thinking maybe its just another BH since I have been feeling that for the past few days. When we got back to the clinic after 30 mins later, I realised gynae is not around. His door was opened and total darkness inside, my guess is he went for delivery. Timing is not constant and even the intensity too. Went to the washroom at 11am and I saw pinkish discharge, dear informed the clinic nurse and we were told to go delivery suite to do ctg. Looking at the time,I told dear I want to go home first as I wanted to fetch WeiWei from school and bathe (just in case).

We got back to the hospital at around 1pm, the nurses in delivery suite were asking where we went because they had been looking for us. Haha.. I never thought they would do that as I only got a slip from the gynae so didn't expect the clinic to track me. Did ctg for maybe an hr or so and we were sent back to gynae. The slip showed I had contractions in every 10 mins but I could see the intensity is not constant, sometimes high and sometimes low. Checked dilation and gynae was surprised that I had dilated for 5-6cm so he decided to send me up again saying I will be delivering today.

Was still quite surprised myself too while waiting for dear to do admission. By 2.50pm, I was feeling more and more pain and the time taken to feel the pain is getting shorter, less than 5mins. When I reached delivery suite, I was in intense pain and wanted to get epi but wasn't given because I was 8cm dilated, midwife said I dilated too much already and worried baby is unable to cry when he's out plus she felt baby head while checking on me.

After that, it was a total nightmare for me. Gynae hasn't arrived so midwife can't allow me to deliver before that. She tried to get me relax, I used laughing gas till I had no strength to feel anything. But as time passed, the pain was so intense that I couldn't stand it and little did I know that baby is trying to get his way out. Lucky gynae made it in time. When he reached, baby head is almost head so I guess that's the reason I didn't get any cut below but I do get a slight tear. Initially gynae intend to stitch for me but I asked if I can do without it (only 1-2 stitches, didn't want to feel pain again for that) and he said can.

Baby looked blue when he came out, he cried so loud and kept wanting someone to carry him. He has a strong lungs! He weigh 2860 grams, lighter than I expected. I thought he would weigh near or more than 3.5kg, haha..

I took less than 5hrs for the whole process and the last 4-5cm I took less than an hr. All of us including the gynae were shocked that I delivered that fast. I will not go through pregnancy again, he is my last child. The pain is too scary to go through it again..

Still on waiting game, he still not coming out yet.. Many times my mind just flashed through situations where he is willing to be out.. I think I am just too bored waiting, haha.. Has been waking up a few times in the night and unable to sleep or been sleeping late, wonder why.. Hope this little beanie won't let me wait too long from now. =)