Didn't go for work for the past 2 days, was tired and depressed to go as well. Broke down on Monday night. Think I was too stressed with ah b's homework, well-being and other things too. Felt so pressuring from his school and there isn't much I can do and help. Can't the teachers be more considerate? Can't they be more patient with a special needs boy? Can't they be more sympathy the mother who knows nothing and trying her best to help her son?
Guess those crying makes me feel better and decided not to bother with the teachers anymore. I want to let him do at his own pace, not what the teachers want. It's really tiring and pressure on us. We hardly have enough sleep, he got to sit all day there just to complete his work on time. All he gets from me is scolding and rushing. I don't want to do that anymore, I am tired. I don't want to stress him further. I want us to live for ourselves, not for others.
YaYa
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
Monday, February 23, 2009
Have not been updating my blog, was lazy to do so. A lot of things happened in the past month and done lots of thinking as well.
Decided to put ah b into special school, had a chat with the student care centre's psychologist. She felt that he is too stressed and could feel his unhappy heart. He is having a very low confidence in himself and perhaps even brain-washed himself that he's not going to make it. Feel very depressed abt it, I can't help him at all. Mummy talked to the speech therapist in KKH and they are willing to help ah b to get enrolled into the special school. Guess he has to walk the longer route after all. I hope he could open his heart to happiness soon.
Went back to maple, not to train but just for the fun. Can't really find any games that attract me and dear got so much OTs to do. Found out a couple (both are my friends) broke up and the gf gave birth to a baby girl recently. Can't judge a person by its appearance? I always thought they are so loving and actually expect them to get married eventually but things really changed so fast. Still remember seeing them together a year ago. Heard the guy got himself another gf and I had no idea if he broke up with her because of the baby or the new gf. Whatever it is, that guy is a jerk and I really hope he will get his retribution for treating my gf this way. Got news that he propose to my gf recently, not because he still loves her but his father is forcing him. All this while during my gf's pregnancy and giving birth, he has never shown concern to her. What is that?! Pity her or marry her because of pressure?! Seriously I do not encourage her to go back to him, his heart no longer include her. Being with him will only bring her more hurt and tears. Hope she will live strong for herself and her baby.
Failed my practical test, as I expected. But to my surprise, I actually knock down pole during test. Perhaps I was too nervous and not used to the tester car as well. Still thinking how to pass next month, haiz..
Most of my colleagues got the news of my pregnancy, guess it spreads quite fast when 1 or 2 of them knew it. Didn't mention to them that I'm quitting after maternity, don't see the point of saying anyway. Baby been kicking me daily, been counting down to May, the month I am officially on maternity leave. Really wish it will come faster, I can't wait..
My room is like a storeroom now, kept with so many baby stuffs like stroller, car seat, clothings, playpen etc. No place to put them and currently waiting for the new house's key. It's almost ready now, waiting for them to touchup and doing the defects. Dear went over last saturday and took tons of photos back. Really like the house and feel it doesn't need much reno. Guess I am a simple girl, haha.. Really loves the new house and hope to see it myself asap.
YaYa
Decided to put ah b into special school, had a chat with the student care centre's psychologist. She felt that he is too stressed and could feel his unhappy heart. He is having a very low confidence in himself and perhaps even brain-washed himself that he's not going to make it. Feel very depressed abt it, I can't help him at all. Mummy talked to the speech therapist in KKH and they are willing to help ah b to get enrolled into the special school. Guess he has to walk the longer route after all. I hope he could open his heart to happiness soon.
Went back to maple, not to train but just for the fun. Can't really find any games that attract me and dear got so much OTs to do. Found out a couple (both are my friends) broke up and the gf gave birth to a baby girl recently. Can't judge a person by its appearance? I always thought they are so loving and actually expect them to get married eventually but things really changed so fast. Still remember seeing them together a year ago. Heard the guy got himself another gf and I had no idea if he broke up with her because of the baby or the new gf. Whatever it is, that guy is a jerk and I really hope he will get his retribution for treating my gf this way. Got news that he propose to my gf recently, not because he still loves her but his father is forcing him. All this while during my gf's pregnancy and giving birth, he has never shown concern to her. What is that?! Pity her or marry her because of pressure?! Seriously I do not encourage her to go back to him, his heart no longer include her. Being with him will only bring her more hurt and tears. Hope she will live strong for herself and her baby.
Failed my practical test, as I expected. But to my surprise, I actually knock down pole during test. Perhaps I was too nervous and not used to the tester car as well. Still thinking how to pass next month, haiz..
Most of my colleagues got the news of my pregnancy, guess it spreads quite fast when 1 or 2 of them knew it. Didn't mention to them that I'm quitting after maternity, don't see the point of saying anyway. Baby been kicking me daily, been counting down to May, the month I am officially on maternity leave. Really wish it will come faster, I can't wait..
My room is like a storeroom now, kept with so many baby stuffs like stroller, car seat, clothings, playpen etc. No place to put them and currently waiting for the new house's key. It's almost ready now, waiting for them to touchup and doing the defects. Dear went over last saturday and took tons of photos back. Really like the house and feel it doesn't need much reno. Guess I am a simple girl, haha.. Really loves the new house and hope to see it myself asap.
YaYa
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