Sad

Yesterday was a day i had been waiting for years to come. I thought i would happy.. But i wasn't when tis day actually arrived.

During my journey to the court, memories kept fillin me up. Many times i had to control my tears from falling down. Why do i still feel sad? Shouldn't i feel delight that i got my freedomback? I wanted to cry out but i know i can't.

All i ask is a family whether rich or poor, why couldn't he do that? Is that too much to ask for?

My life is full of sadness. Even there's happiness, they r just dreams. =) I thought of my childhood, my school life, my marriage & my father's death.

I have finally realise that i had no trust in love or anyone. I really do not want to go through all these again. I thought i had get over but little did i know, i haven't. I simply cast them aside, somewhere in my heart, thinking they will just leave me alone. They dun.. They will b hauting me every now & then then.

Once again, i hav chosen to leave him again. Like he said, i'm already 28 & hav 2 kids.. Bur i wasn't listenin at all. yah.. I'm already 28 wif 2 kids whereas he's only 23. He is young, too young to stay with an old lady like me. We are not suitable for each other, i know it very well that i can only be part of his memories.Thks Tony, thks for loving me.. I'm happy that you've been in my life for a period of time. That's enough ler, thks.

YaYa

Nightmare...

Today I had learnt something new, how to open a locked door without key n locksmith. >.<

Fine, I wasnt the one who created this mess, it was Joel who has itchy hands to take the keys on his own & put the keys inside b4 he actually locked the door.

It was a total nightmare... I had no experience in doing such task before & i was alone at home too. Scared me to death!!! I hopeless finding ways to open that freaking door, calling everyone whom i tink can help me.

End up i sat there crying n finally someone told me use a hammer to hit on the key portion. After trying mani times, the door finally open itself... T.T

I never allow them to touch the keys again!!!

YaYa

My 10 days~

As usual, I had been mapling for the past few days but not wif my cleric ger but my dit... His exams r coming soon so he nid to study n i didn really want him to chase after my level later on so I just put my cleric on hold.

Currently my dit is level 40 ler, slowing down liao. I duno y, i kip falling asleep mani times while mapling. I just couldn concentrate & kip on yawning wif my eyelids shutting itself. -_-ll

Got to noe a new fren, froggie, in kerning pq.. He was so kelian thru out that 5hrs pqing... The leader (call him bhr) kept begging him to lend steely & tobi but obviously he refused. But to my surprise, bhr was so patient to kip asking for 5hrs until froggie couldn stand him & he decided to totally ignore his request while I was there laughing non-stop. After partying him for a few days then i realised he oni had 2 stars, steely & tobi.. =.= Froggie, go hunt more stars lar.. U noe is very ma fan to kip on repoting de mah?

I swear i will not ever get into ludi pq again. It's a torture, not a leisure at all!! I went in twice, both times made me almost vomited blood. After leaving the pq, I realised my lifespan has been shortened for at least 10 years.

The first time I went in, a few of them kip fooling ard.. Keeping the tickets in their inventory, letting us kip asking ard who has the tickets. & one of them kip shouting for haste when we hav not even add sp to it, why couldn he use speed pots instead. I couldn bother wif him oso..

The 2nd time got a sin kip on running all over the chns, claiming he is trying to search for chn when we already had track for that particular chn. In the end, me n froggie couldn stand him n kick him out. In that pq, most of them hardly do anything... Then me n froggie had decided we r not going in after this pq. However, b4 we could finish it, an idiot left the party & made the rest of us being threw out of the pq. If u do not wan to continue, u can jolly well click logout or click that npc to get out. I guess she did it on purpose... But oh well, she save me from that horrible place anyway.

Joined a guild earlier on but quitted after 2 days... Well, the guild members r noisy but is among themselves since they r frens in the first place. I guess they added people in just for the sake of adding. They dun chat wif u, they dun ans ur qns & u r there b coz of u r there. -.- That is so lame... N the worst thing is 2 of them speak in twit language!!! OMG!!! It doesnt make them look cute but it make the sentence so hard to read...

Seriously i nid more frens in my buddy list, to kip me accompany... but some of them just dun talk even u asked them qns... Too buzy wif level or they do not noe hw to reply? Anyone can teach me hw to get more frens? T.T

As usual, quarrelling wif dear every few days... Haha~ I guess he already got used to my temper ler, m i rite abt that? Another 2 more mths & it will b our 1st year anniversary.. I didn expect time to pass away so fast & he will b coming to sg very soon too. I tink he's counting down to that date. ;p

Oh yah, i'm going to court on this 26th & I will b officially divorced on the 26th april. Yeah, finally this day has come! I waited for so long liao till my neck has grown so long.. Hee~ Anyone has reliable housing agent to recommend me? =D I do not like to find stranger esp i will b passing the keys to her. Pls lor, dun expect me to go dwn to serangoon from jurong east everytime there r interested buyers wanting to view flat...

Go watch kid central wif my ger ler since maple is under server check right now.

YaYa

Busy Week

Has been very busy for the past whole week... Hmm.. wad did i do? Let me tink...

I rmb I had been going out almost everyday from mon to fri... I didnt want to stay at home, it was so lonely n boring. No one is free to talk to me. In the end, I bought lots of stuffs which cost few hundreds bucks. I noe I shld save up the $ for moving hse etc but I duno y, I just feel so down n wanted to make myself happier. I bought clothes, bag & some other stuffs that i dun even rmb.

Oh yah, I had just finished my 1000 piece puzzle and it took me 2 days. Depending on how u count it, if deduct my sleep n going out, it will b oni 1 day. =D I was hoping that puzzle could let me spend more days to complete, at least I dun feel so bored.

Found an part-time housing agent, going to meet her this friday, i tink. It was not yet confirmed, i oni heard it from my cousin. Ohh.. the agent was intro by my cousin de. I didn wan to find strangers from newspaper & pass him/her my keys. I dun feel safe...

Haiz.. Tinking of calling my lawyer tmr, mayb tell her I found buyer ler & ask her to speed up my divorce. I was hoping to get it done by april, i wonder if she can make it or not. I dun care, die die ask her to do it. I pay for it de ok?!

Caiyong first day of school is just like another normal day. He seems to like the school, he didnt complaint at all. He just kept mentioning that the teacher took his workbooks n never return him. Haha~ Kids nowadays r so fortunate... The school helped them to keep all their workbooks & exercise books. Last time during my time, we hav to bring everything to school ourselves de. T.T

Sian, nid go eat dinner ler or else later my dear will become a super naggy uncle liao... >.<

YaYa