My Last Words

Tis is my very last time writing here, wif my true feeling. I noe I wont hav any chance again coz I will not give myself a 2nd chance.

Since young, I already knew being a human is a torture. I always ask why am I being brought to this world and suffer? Mani times adults think that by providing us gd education and life of everything is being responsible. But did they realise how mani times I was being humiliated in school and how nasty they said abt me and my family? Perhaps they will never get to know as I never mentioned a word to them. There r mani tinks cant b bought by money, like care and concern. I always tink: why dun i get a complete family like my frens do? why dun i get to see my parents daily like my frens do? why dun i get family day like my frens do? No1 gave me the answer before, I dun even dare to ask the adults for fear I will get scoldings and beatings instead.

I dun like people, I dun like to talk wif them. I dun wan anyone of them to get close me and hurt me. But still I failed to protect myself..

Just now I said very hurtful comments to someone I cared and loved most. I know he must have hated me alot now. He told me he hate me, very very much and had never loved me all along. I really hoped he said that from his bottom of his heart. I'm glad he said that to me, so tat I can leave this world in peace knowing this.

I am so tired of living on, I can't find any reason for me to continue on. Everyone hates me, I am just a burden to everyone. If I were to leave tis world, it's a release for all. It will bring everyone happiness... If my death can do such great thing, death is nothing to me.

Sorry tat I bring so much sorrow, unhappiness and troubles to people ard me. I hope tat life without me will be a better life for all of you. I love you.

Love YaYa