I don't know what is truth and what is fake, I don't know to believe or to doubt. I am afraid to believe what I had seen, I am afraid that I will be disappointed. I don't know if I have the courage to face it, I don't know what kind of feeling should I get myself prepared. Everything seems so real and yet so unreal at the same time. I will only know the answer in another week time, what will the answer be and what answer am I hoping..

I thought I will be having a smooth sailing journey, I guess I got too excited. Now I am feeling unwell, nausea has been around for like half an hour and I just feel like going to the toilet to puke. Sigh.. I hope this kind of feeling will not get worse, just stay this way. :( 

It has been such a long long time since I wrote something in my blog, I think partly is because I am plain lazy to update it. I hope I will try to update it more frequent so in the future I will not forget bits and pieces of the memories that I will like to remember. 

Today is the 3rd day dear went Hongkong, he didn't call us in the afternoon so I guess he must be too busy to do so. I can only see him in another week, I wonder if he misses us like how we miss him? 

Decided to spend more time with the family instead of the laptop, my boy has been growing so fast and I hope I can see him more before he doesn't want me to be with him. Haha..

Beaba Babycook Baby Food Maker is in my next to buy list. ^^ Got to write it here in case I forgotten the name, haha..

Went for a shopping spree yesterday but the one who got the most is my boy, haha.. He got himself a farm with truck and lots of animals, a ball, a set of utensils for his self feeding, his bathing and utensil washing refills, a finger toothbrush, a learning chopsticks. I think that's it, I can't remember it. Hehe..

Actually we intend to get a darker tone curtains and a mirror in Ikea but end up buying so many things for him. Seeing him enjoys so much in his new farm, I am glad that we decide to buy it back. 

Ordered a few sets of his cloth diapers and should be receiving them tomorrow. He starts wearing them 24/7 but due to raining weather, he doesn't have enough diapers to change. Anyway he will be using them for quite some time so still worthwhile.

He has showed interest in self feeding and this afternoon he had his first try. It was fine initially and right after I took some photos, his food start to fly over all the place. Haha.. It's really fun to see him progressing daily, getting better and cleverer each day. I hope to hear him call MaMa real soon. =)

YaYa

Currently crazy about cloth diaper. Haha.. Not those we see and use in the olden days where we have to fold it and can only wear for 1 pee. I am referring to those modified ones where each cloth diaper can wear about 3hrs, the cover is in either solid and designs plus WATERPROOF material. Though is expensive when buy initially but in the long run, I can save quite a sum. And can pass down if is well-maintenance., haha.. Actually the main point is not only can save money, can save the environment too. Since I am a SATM, I believe I have the time to wash it (anyway I am not the one washing, is my washing machine doing the job =D). Looking forward to receive them perhaps by next week, give them a few washes and ready to use on my boy. Can't wait to receive my loots! ^^

YaYa

Once upon a time, there is a silly girl who thought herself as a piece of carrot so when she was holding a carrot while cutting, she put her own finger at the bottom of the knife and cut it along. Haha.. That person is me. =.= Nothing serious but that finger won't be able to use anytime soon since I can't press on it.

Dear is considering of changing job. At first he was worried I will be unhappy but I told him his fear is unfounded.  If he wishes to change a new environment, I won't stop him. I know he isn't happy with his current job so I keep encouraging him to find a new one. Hope he can get one that he truly likes and enjoys. ^^

YaYa

Time passes so fast, I have been driving for 2 weeks to and fro custom le. Well, so far so good and of course hope it will remain the same for the rest of my life. Haha..

Everyone in the family falls sick, cough and flu. Lucky my little boy is getting well soon, he is stronger than I thought. His 7th tooth is on its way out and think the 8th tooth will be here anytime, haha.. Waiting for him to get well before training him to sleep on his own. He has been sleeping with us and kicking him whole night. Lucky his head always on my side so I am able to sleep peacefully. =P

YaYa

2 years has passed, I thought my heart has heal, I thought I had move on, I thought I had put it down. 

My heart can still feel the pain as if it had just happened, everything is still so fresh in my mind. My heart still misses so much, my tears still flow down automatically, I still hope it didn't happen at all. I can't turn back time; I wish I could; I yearn I could.

There will always be a little place for you in my heart, my mind. I miss you, I really do.

YaYa

I think I will be dying of exhaustion soon. For the past few nights, weiwei has been crying for not few mins but few hours. I really don't know what he wants or do, I am so tired of petting him back to sleep while he cried and rolled all over the place. If he's teething, I hope the nightmare will end real soon. Haiz..

I think I might see ***ae in JB but trying to find good one or else I won't even think about it. Wonder if anyone can helps me ask around or not.. Pray that everything goes smoothly.

YaYa

I have a little secret, a secret that can't say it out. Wanted to tell everyone but I know I can't. Sigh..

YaYa

It has been a super long time since I last posted. Well, was struggling with itch (almost) daily and it was really a hard task to deal with everyday when woke up. Legs started to itch and even though you don't scratch it, it will automatically spread to other areas. Sometimes I can't stand it and scratch like hell. Of course, it gets worsen and leave scars on it. I had this problem for months but couldn't think of a solution. In the end, I force myself to pay a visit to the doctor. The moment doctor listened to my complaint and seen my legs, he told me it is a sign of allergy. Bleh.. At the same time, the first thing that came into my mind is dust!!! Alot of renovations going around my area and my district is still building many houses but as I still sweep the floor frequently, I am not sure if that's the cause.  Anyway I had an anti-allergy injection and given some medicines too.

The moment I got home, I took off all the bedsheets, curtains to wash. Vacuum the floor, mop it and clear everything that collect dust. Has been cleaning the house since Sunday and so far the itch never come back. Intend to wash major items every 2 weeks and too bad I can't sun my mattress, haha.. Dear must be feeling relieved to hear that as our mattress is so heavy. Let's pray the itch will never ever return to me again, I hate it!

YaYa

My little weiwei is having teeth soon, can see 2 white teeth at the bottom of his mouth. Finally I guess, he has been biting on things he can hold and lucky that he doesn't drool. Hee..

Dear's parents intend to bring the kids (of course including us) to Genting during the CNY. We planned to go back hometown for few more days but his colleagues took the days right after CNY so dear is not allowed to take it. He was unhappy, keeps comfort him telling him we can go back during June holiday. I understand that his parents miss him and weiwei so I don't mind going back for longer time, anyway it's just once or twice a year.

I am quite lazy to upload photos as all in dear's laptop. Will try to upload from his when I remember lo. ^^

YaYa

Time seems to pass very fast. Weiwei is almost 8mths old, still remember how tiny he was when he first come to the world. He is getting naughtier each day but at the same time, he is more adorable and always make others laugh. He is already able to stand on his own quite well and starts to walk a couple of steps holding onto sofa, bed frame. I think he might starts walking soon and perhaps will skip crawling phase. Cause whenever I put him on tummy, he will just turn around without trying to crawl. =.= I think can't force him to do things, shall let nature take its own course.

Enen has been coping well in school. She has homework daily (almost) and today is her first chinese spelling, wonder if she can cope with it or not. Well, I don't wish to give her any pressure, just hope that she can do well in her studies. Her birthday is in 2 weeks' time and falls on a friday. Dear has decided to take half-day leave on that day so we can buy her a cake secretly and celebrate for her when she comes home from school. Lucky she didn't reach home very late, around 7.30pm.

Ah b has been doing his homework. Mummy told me that if he does that, he will be allow to play games. Haha.. Now he study his own spelling also, getting more and more independent I guess. Hope he will be a good boy.

YaYa

I am almost dying.. Been sick for about a month and have not got well yet. Everyone except dear has fallen sick (he is so healthy LO!), spreading virus around. Haha..

Just now weiwei fell down. That enen go carry him when I went to boil water and trip over a water bottle. Weiwei knock right on the floor, forehead had a big bump and chin bleeds too. So heartpain!!! Later got to boil 1 egg to roll his head, so kelian. =(

YaYa

Have not been blogging for super long time. Partly was because I was lazy and another reason was I was busy with weiwei. The defects about my house also not done yet so fan lo..

Been cooking daily except when we need to go to sg so all my free time is being slotted into watering, cooking, bathing etc. No time to do other things at all. I miss the times when I am free to do whatever I like, unlike now I got to do all the important stuffs before I have time for myself.

Weiwei has been getting naughtier each day and really know how to make people smile. He already sit very well on his own and fell down a few times. So xin tong lo.. Hope he won't fall again, my kelian de weiwei.

Enen has been sick for weeks le and hasn't got well yet. Now me and weiwei got the virus from her liao.. So angry as she always cough without covering her mouth, letting the virus fly all over the house!! Haiz.. Hopefully all of us get well real soon. =(

YaYa

By the way, she is 7 weeks old now. The owner intends to put her to dog farm if no one wants her, kelian right? Hopefully she likes her new home and will get used as soon as possible. =)

Been so busy and tiring for the past few weeks due to moving house. Finally majority of my stuffs are unpacked except for 1 big box and 1 small box as I do not have enough shelf to put it. Will need to get another cupboard from ikea again, so far lo..

Our family got a new member last night. Is a cute little puppy. =D Haven't decide on its name yet but is a girl. Any suggestion? Hmm.. Got to end it here, its awake and crying in toilet. Had to lock her in due to her teething and for less than an hour, she has been biting almost everything in my house!!!

YaYa

So tired today.. Feel like doing nothing, just lie down for the day. Yesterday went over to new house again, to do spring cleaning. Aiyo, house so big and took us whole afternoon just washing the floor lo. We didn't manage to clean the window at all cause is already evening le. And surprisingly, all of us forgotten to eat lunch as well. 

The house not ready yet, stupid contractors to blame. Who cares, I already lock up the house, none of them are getting into it without my presence. They can only get their balance after I move in AND finish up what they supposed to do, or else dont even bother to think about getting a single cent from me. The painter still dare to threaten, saying if we don't give him the balance he will not return keys to us. Then forget about getting the $700 lo, I can use that to change lock and add additional locks. That won't even cost me $700, see who is on the losing end. If you think you can go into my house with the current keys u r holding, go ahead. And I am switching on my alarm this sunday. Try me, I am not afraid of you. Make me pissed off and trust me, you are not even allowed to come back to finish up your job.

YaYa

Counting down daily and cannot believe it that I am moving in 2 weeks' time! Most of the renovations are done except for the kitchen cabinets and oven cupboard. I am so worried that it will not done in time, definitely killing that carpenter if he is unable to do it on time. The paint colours I chose for the house really look pretty, I love it a lot. Sorry, no photos yet because I had forgotten to snap. >.< Going over again this weekend and MUST remember to shoot a couple of it. Overall, I enjoy staying there since I like the house in the first place. Though it's not as pretty as others but I am content with what it is now. Don't ask for impossible will make life happier for us, doesn't it? =)

YaYa