Unable to visit dear's parents this weekend, didn't manage to buy bus tickets there. Haha.. No choice de lo..

Backache getting better but still got to be careful the position I sit every time, really scare of getting the pain now. But still ok la, dear will massage my back for me. Hee...

Nowadays wedding bands so expensive.. Went JB on Sunday to pay downpayment and lawyer's fee, of coz ate there as usual and went to look at jewellery shop. A pair of wedding bands cost more than 2k ringgits. -.-ll Is this the normal price now? Is more than 1k in sg and hardly see anything on the ring lo, zzz... I want to a ring which allow me to wear daily and it won't scatch my kids' skin also. Ya, I do not need a big diamond ring. =)

Still has yet to upload the photos, haha.. Not I lazy la, is I keep forgetting about it. I always only remember it when I am at work lo. :/ Maybe too free at workplace so I have lots of time to recall. =D This weekend should be free to do so bah, not going any places. Oh yah, I am thinking if I want to go to the movie on Sunday or not since I am not going msia le. But I am not sure if I am allowed to bring my kids there or not since I only have 2 tickets. Hmm.. Let me consider bah, hopefully I remember to sms the DJs tomorrow morning (FRIDAY le, must sms!!!)

YaYa

Yesterday dear tried to book a time slot in ROM but by the time he managed to get into the website, all the time available is already fully booked. That was so fast lo, it's only 7am in the morning. -.-ll

So suddenly we are lost, had no idea what to do next. He wanted that particular date so we got to find alternatives. We search around and decide to try signing outside ROM and found celestial bliss. Well, they have a special package on that day which cost us $308 nett including the service of a marriage solemniser so at least we do not need to find one ourselves. Make an appt with the in-charge on the 22th May to pay and confirm the booking.

Next task; finding a wedding band. Yeah, I had totally forgotten about that till my friend and dear remind me. Haha... I kinda of blur liao lo, maybe I feel still quite long so not anxious yet. =P

Today I didn't want to go to work, back has been giving me problems. But keep telling myself to save up my annual leaves for emergency usages. Anyway, I went to see company doctor and was told that I might have stain my muscle. But hor, IT NEVER GIVE ME MC!!! Aiyo, that doctor is either very new or relief there coz her name tag at the reception is written on paper and put it up, unlike the rest of the doctors have their own name tag made of metal lo.

Fine, so I got to think of a way to make myself take time off. I planned to go to ufm1003 event which start at 1pm but normally people will reach there early to get a place. In case you are wondering, that's a event sponsored by Mr Bean regarding about the story I had been listening for the past 6 weeks. They will be giving out 300 soyabeans, 300 booklets and 50 pairs of movie tickets to the show also. Wenhong had booked a small cinema and intend to broadcast the movie version of it and it's not for sales de. T.T

Oh yah, I went to kinokuniya and managed to get that book I been trying to find. FINALLY!!! I am so happy about it. At least it didn't wasted my effort of skipping my lunch. =D Actually I didn't skip it on purpose, it was already 2pm when I get back to office lo. Didn't expect it to take me 3hrs. Haha.. At least I didn't come back late, is hard to explain to them lo.

I got some photos taken at the event but now I am too tired to upload them, will do so tomorrow. Hmm.. there are quite a numbers of photos queuing up, I am so lazy. Tomorrow bah, if I remember..

YaYa

Been lazy to update my blog for the past few days, haha..

My back has been giving me problems since sat. *Sigh* Sit and walk also pain, feel like lying there without moving.

3rd May 2008
Sad day.. Went zakum and I got dc at b3 with 70% hp left. I blur lo, I didn't know zakum is flickering and therefore I didn't press ctr-alt-del throughout the killing. I felt so depressed and disappointed. What to do? It my fault for not pressing what I suppose to do. Actually I didn't know when to press and keep worrying that I will die lo. Haiz.. Consider it as a lesson and experience learnt bah.

4th May 2008
Dear is officially a slave of bank le. Haha.. I can image my beautiful house, so happy now. Never knew that he got to sign so many documents. Total of 15 sets with about 4x pages each set. -.-ll By the time he finished, it was already afternoon and Ah B was complaining of hunger le. So we got no choice but to eat at JB since coming out need some time also, don't think the kids can tolerate it. We ate at a Hongkong restaurant, yummy. Too hungry then, didn't remember to take photos of it. =P When we reach home, it around 5pm liao. Haha... Took a long time to clear custom, many people there.

5th May 2008
Dad  called me this morning, was kinda of surprise. Well, didn't expect him to call me. He is in sg and asked me out for dinner. What past is past, I want to put them behind. Dad old le, I just do my job as a daughter. Mei, don't be angry with him le. Just let go bah.. Dad look very old, his hair almost all white. I brought dear along too and intro him to dad. We had dinner at Tiong Bahru hawker centre. Told dad that we footing the bill but he insist to pay. Haiz.. He asked if we wanted to go Sentosa this coming sat or not and mei, he asked u along too. I havent give him an answer yet, last night my hp on silent mode and missed his call. I forgot to change it back to normal mode ma. Haha..

6th May 2008
Busy busy busy.. I been busy browsing through mags and books, trying to look at kitchen designs and furnitures for our new houses. Ladies and gentlemen, feel free to give me comments and advices.   I appreciate it. =D

Something cropped up yesterday so didn't manage to go to the workshop. Decide to go on the 19th, right after I come back from Malaysia. Think will be dead tired then, might ask dear to get an earlier bus home bah.

After years of last ate BK's breakfast, we went over yesterday. Well, I didn't manage to finish my share. I gave it to enen and ah b. End up enen ate the most, haha.. We went to City Hall, trying to buy a present for kubao. Yeah, we bought 1 and enen is jealous coz we didn't buy for her. She kept saying she got no toy. Haiz.. She wanted a doll very much but we don't want to spoilt her by buying her present whenever she wants. We promised her to get it for her during her birthday but dear, should be xmas la. Haha... Xmas come first leh..

Popular no longer sells chinese books ar? Suntec outlet didn't sell lo, so disappointed. After walking for hours, we headed home. Maybe not used to go out le, feel tired easily and on our way home, we saw many people coming to town. =O

Cleared rubbish in my laptop, hopefully it can survive in zakum on Saturday. Dear almost fainted when he looked at my recycle bin, 1.4gb of rubbish. Hahahahaha... I am lazy to empty ma and scare later I delete wrongly so put it there just in case. :/

Very warm last night, no mood to go online at all. I just sat there watch tv with family and ate at Ajisen. Hehe...

Mummy thought I avoiding her and kept calling me. Aiya, I forgot my hp in silent mode and didn't realise till this morning. -.-ll Later got to give her a call, if I remember.

YaYa

Been listening to the story for quite some time and very touching so decided to share with friends. The story has been broadcast until episode 23 leh but I kinda of lazy so just link 5 of them here. Is short episode, only around 5 - 10 mins. If anyone wants the rest of the episodes, then I link them lo.

珍惜生命，感受爱！
"东京铁塔之老妈和我"
唤起你对母亲无私付出的感动。。。

Enjoy it!
Episode 1
Episode 2
Episode 3
Episode 4
Episode 5

YaYa

Was considering to registry marriage in sg or msia, not sure if I need to return my rented flat. Called HDB yesterday and got a confirmation that I can go ahead with the marriage in sg. Hohoho... I do not need to return the flat even I get married because he is a msian, he didn't has a long period pass in sg unlike PR and S'porean so they are unable to include his income.

MOM will be sending another approval letter next week so I guess everything settled. But hor, I still haven't make up my mind yet. Hahahaha...

Visiting his parents 2 weeks from now. Task that I don't like, haiz... Somehow I still feel his parents don't like us (my kids & me la) and some more they have yet to know that we intend to get married. He wanted to inform them when we visit them but I tell him not to. Is hard to react and perhaps might get into argument. I guess I am the one who can't take their disagreement and unhappiness. Imagine if your son bring his gf home for the first time and tell you they are getting marry. I guess most of you will be stunned and speechless, it's a unexpected situation bah?

Lalala... Don't want think so much, take a step at each time. =P

YaYa

Don't know why I been feeling unhappy, I just don't feel like smiling. Even I do smile, they are fake too. Maybe I haven't adjust my feeling that Janet is no longer here. It seems that someone planned to have her leave. Almost everyone in the company didn't know her leaving, everyone was just as surprised as us. Really don't understand why there is such people who used underlying hand to get things done. What's goes round come round, I firmly believe that.

Suddenly feel this company so cold and unfeeling. I will definitely not going to spend my life here. If they are leaving me here, I going to leave next year after bonus.

YaYa

Last night mummy called me. She talked to ah b ytd morning and ah b told her that we are moving but he didn't know where he is moving to.

Well, she told me don't move to JB. JB is unsafe, land expensive, unable to re-sell in future etc. Though she keep saying that she is not forcing me, only giving me advice and want me to consider carefully but I know she meant well. Mummy, I know you won't do us harm.

Both dear and me felt that JB and KL is of the same. Definitely sg is more safer than msia, i admit that too. If we were to move to KL, then we will not be seeing mummy much le and perhaps only once a year (Chinese New Year lo). KL not safe, penang not safe, JB not safe... Everywhere is not safe..

Actually we had been thinking to sign the papers or not. Did I mention that we only pay a deposit and have yet to sign the document? I wanted to have a home of my own, my dream house like the one we seen last week, to avoid that idiot but on the other hand, I am worried also. I don't know if I will ruin the kids' future or not. But I know education here proved to be too much for ah b to handle. And looking at the current situation, I can't just quit my job and stay at home to coach him. Standard of living here is very high, not much people can do that.

Let dear find out if there is any international school around the neighbourhood before we decide bah. Didn't sleep well last night, sigh..

YaYa

Sometimes thing just don't go your way.
I thought I found a close friend at work but no. I thought finally I found someone I can chat with when I am bored at work but no.
Janet was dismissed today, with immediate effect. It's really depressing and surprise. Both of us had no idea what happened and suddenly she was informed to leave. The reason they gave her was she is unable to click well with the rest of admins "aunties". What has it got to with her performance? I don't understand what are they thinking and guess neither do they understand us. Is this what we called generation gap? Frankly speaking, I don't really get along well with them as well. Only Janet and me are of the near age group, the rest are old enough to be my mummy le and not to mention most of them are 老姑婆.

She gave me many of her stuffs, said they are of no use now. Maybe she doesn't want to be remind of the sad incident so she gave them to me. She cried earlier when she told me today was her last day, I do not how to comfort her. She bought many things, there are a mini radio, choco bars, potato chips, a small pillow, a bear, a pencil case and a lunch box (to put biscuit i think). From her, I saw my old self. I used to bring many personal stuffs to work too but slowly I stopped. I feel is easier to pack my things one day I leave the company and perhaps not so much feelings being invested in it too. I kept everything in my drawer, locked it before I go home. Most probably I won't be using them in the office too, bringing them home when I am not lazy.

I got a feeling that my turn will be coming very soon. First, my probation period ends this mth and I have yet to receive confirmation letter. Second,  I had took a lot of leaves and mc during my work period. (Janet only took a day of mc and around 2 days annual leave?) I guess the reason that I have not asked to leave is because recently the contract dept has been very busy and couldn't cope without someone helps. Well, my job scope is to give a hand to them so I don't think they would want to retrain a new girl at this busy time. Time to look at newspaper recruitment ads and internet jobs agency. Haiz... I don't pin much hope in working long in this company but I would really hope that it can last me till next year after bonus. =(

Anyone want to cheer me up? :'(

YaYa

Ate spaghetti just now at lunch, yummy. Thanks dear, they are delicious. Janet been eating with me for almost 3 weeks or more (can't remember) and as usual, we went for a walk after lunch. Went to borders, wanted to find my book but found out they don't sell chinese novels. Zzz... After a round, we walked over to Shaw House and were thinking where to go and suddenly remember I need to buy a bdae present for kubao. Haiz... Only left 15mins to shop so we rushed up to kids' dept.

Clothes - Kubao in childcare now so hardly has the chance to wear nowadays.
Toy - Her mummy will end up keeping it in the store room without letting her play. Lazy mummy.
Rest - No idea what to buy.

Walk to hello kitty section and found a few pretty stuffs. Bought a hairband and a comb.

Nice mah? Photo for comb is not clear coz the wrapping got no opening for me to take out unless I tear up. Thinking of giving one of them to kubao but haven't decide yet. Might not be suitable for her.

Aiyo, is really hard to decide what to get for her ar. Give some hint leh.. Or else I might come empty-handed, haha..

YaYa

Yesterday I told one of my colleagues (of coz friendly and able to talk wif de) that I bought a landed house in JB. Wanted some advices regarding my buying as many of friends said we bought so fast. He said it was a good investment, he mentioned land price will only go up and it will never go down. Haha.. I clever right? =D

Last night went supermarket to buy groceries, was too tired on Sunday. Aiyo, NTUC didn't stock up the vegetables at all. Hardly any vegetables left and most of them is already rotting. Sian, bought very limited vegetables. STOCK UP DAILY! What am I going to eat la?! Zzzz...

I realise nowadays I am not as interested in games as in the past. Last time I would maple/cabal daily but now after surfing 5 mins, I would off my laptop and watch tv. I guess I am getting bored and tired of it le, haha.. I don't mind, at least I get to spend more time with my family.

I was wondering if dear really love the house design like me or did he buy it because I love it. I know he will buy it as long as I like regardless he like it or not. We started to discuss how to put stuffs in the house last night and I feel so happy about it. (I know is like too early but who cares. =P) I felt like a small kid on Sunday during house viewing. I kept looking around and said "Waaa... the house so big!!" Dear must be laughing at me in his heart lo. -.-ll

Came to work early today, reached work place at 7.45am. Dear got OT this morning, need to reach client's place by 7.30am so I got to bring enen to childcare. Was worried that I will spend some time in childcare so I left the flat early, haiz..

YaYa

After 2 days, I am more settle down and no longer so upset.

18th April
Was so angry with him. No presents, no sms or calls for xmas, valentine day or my birthday. He even forget my birthday last year and I was the one who reminded him on that day itself. I scolded him, venting all my anger out. Keep saying how much he love me etc but I don't see that in his action. Fine, no time to buy present ( I can accept that) but not even a single sms?! Crap la. I got him out of my sight, I don't want to see him on my birthday.

19th April
Woke up early that day, around 7am. Still feel upset and angry. Felt being taken for granted. Searching the net but was listening to my music folder most of the time. Shut my door since I switching the music at a high volume. Due to the fact that the music had cover up all the surrounding noise, I didn't know he came back later in the noon time. He went to buy me a cake which I mentioned to him that I like it. The cake looks very pretty, I saw it in a brochure that Singtel sent me 2 weeks ago. He keep asking for forgiveness and stayed outside of my room. He promised me that he will put in more effort in future but I didn't take it seriously.
Your promises are meant to be broken.
Sorry if you feel hurt but I can't bring myself to believe you now. Let time show me that you really keep all your promises. If you can' keep it, I rather you don't promise in the first place. It really hurt me every time u break it, do you realise that?

Cake nice ma? Is a ice-cream cake.

See they enjoy the cake so much.

20th April
Woke up early in the morning, intending to go JB to view houses. We were there too early and had no choice but walking around at the shopping centre there. By 11am, I was tired and frustrated. He kept bringing us walking and most of the time, he brought us to the wrong place. I threw temper and he left us in the shopping centre. In the end I lost my way there and don't know walk to where. I DIDN'T HAVE A SINGLE CENT ON MY WALLET AND COULDN" EVEN BUY A DRINK!!! End up he also walked a long way to find me, haha.. Serve you right for dumping us at shopping centre.
After sitting down for sometime, we went over to house viewing. I didn't want to come back again, I have phobia liao.
Looked at 6 models at the office and both of us were interested in one of them. The rest are either too expensive, sold out or design look weird (1 of the rooms is big enough to put 2 single beds while the other room is like maid room lo). We requested to look at showflat, drawings and models are always prettier. I work in architecture firm so I know that very well. The showflat is at the site ( the one we are interested) and it was raining so the ground is very muddy. Lucky the representatives there drive us there, right to the doorstep.
IT WAS A BIG BIG HOUSE! You got to see it yourself. I could never imagine the size of the house by looking at the floorplan. I loved that alot. There is nothing to complain.
Looking at the site plan, we realise majority of the house are sold and only left a few lots. So we decided to get a lot instead of coming back next week. I don't want to get disappointed only to find out the house I like is sold out.
Dear chose a middle lot with extra land. So my house will have a nice garden beside my house. Haha... Come visit next year when the house is completed next year April. (sound like my birthday present hor? =D)
No photos to look at, forgot to take. We are too excited at house viewing. Look at the drawing first, will take photos next year. =)
90 degree 1

YaYa

Didnt eat anything since ytd evening.. No appetite, no desire on eating anything. Don't think I am eating today as well. =)
I take it as a chance to slim myself down. Who care? I dun care if I am going to eat or not, just let it be. Anyway, I can save $ by not eating. On second thought, wad's the point of saving so much? Don't know and don't bother.

My special birthday present

I broke up wif dear last night. =)

Don't wish to talk about it.

Happy birthday to myself...

Pretty ma? This is my first birthday present I received this year and last year. -.-ll

I am so happy and surprised as I didn't expect to receive it. It was done (yes, is done not bought) by a very close colleague of mine, Janet Koh. =D

She is very bad.. Threw it in a super big envelope with choco sweets and biscuit. I didn't open it earlier as we were talking during lunch time that she complain of having too much food at her desk and unable to finish it. I said give part of it to me jokingly and she really did that. I think it must part of her excuse bah. Haha... But nevertheless, I really appreciate it. Thank you Janet!

Dear, where is my present ar? Though I am happy now but I still need presents on special occasions you know? I am depressed now, dear never buy presents for me on my birthday and valentines' day. Sad la.. I am considering to change bf soon. =P

YaYa

Nothing much to do today ,as usual. Supervisor is super busy, think might las another week. Hee..

Yesterday me and dear went to a website to view the house in JB. Actually there are 2 locations near sg but the location nearer to sg is not ready yet, the estimate completion date is nov 09. Aiyo, so long and we have to put in delay as well so we gave up. The other area is 20mins away from sg and most of them are in completed units. Click the link below and check out the houses there. Do leave me any recommendation on which type is nicer. I cannot make up my mind, hee.. Might be going over this sunday to view the neighbourhood. His colleague staying at that area so he will be driving us around. I am looking forward on house viewing. =D

Available Properties

YaYa

Spent hours reading someone's blog and end up getting myself into sorrow mood. Many memories came back to me, something that I had tried so hard to forget. Yes, till now I still unable to forgive that idiot. I guess I wont b able to do so in my lifetime.

Suddenly a thought came to me.. Will dear change into another person in future? Will the dreams he give me become a nightmare?

Perhaps I think too much, perhaps I still feel very insecure. I know he is trying his best to show me. He stays at home after work, he don't go out during off days and he accompany me whenever I am at home. I dont know why I still feel insecure, issit b coz the bad past I had or issit b coz people around me have been getting divorced and breakup? It seems to be a trend that partners are having affairs and some of them were like such close couple in the beginning. Something that you would never expect when they are so loving.

SNAP IT OUT!

There are many couples out there being happy together till now. Not everyone will end up into breakup.
"Life was like a box of chocolates. You never know what you're gonna get." Quote from Forest Gump
YaYa

Yesterday I was at home watching tv, didn't go maple. Maybe i am tired of mapling after more than 14 hours of mapling on saturday. -.-ll

Later in the evening, I download Cabal. Been wanting to try the game but was kinda of lazy to install it. Being tired of maple, i decided to try cabal. Hmm... Though is the same killing monster like maple, but is still confusing. The way the chars walk, the way u look at the screen and the main keys it was set are totally different from maple. I was so confused and don't know what I am doing there (I still don't know).

Lawrence, I keep dying in cabal lor. T.T Do they deduct my exp de ma? I didn't take note actually, haha..

The other thing is hor, cabal and maple don't use the same prepaid card. LAME! Both are of the same company, why must separate it? So ma fan.. Never mind lo, just that I don't buy cabal prepaid card. Hee.. I save $ le lor.

Today my supervisor went site again and won't be back till tomorrow. Haha... I am free again!

Kopi and mei ar, must teach me how to look pretty ar. =D
I want to look pretty at the end of the year. Can go shopping with me ma? =P Not so soon lar, few more months lar.

Really looking forward to this saturday. MY BIRTHDAY!!! Though there isn't any celebration but I got to spend the day with dear. He promised to treat me to KFC, hee. I know is not a big deal but is the thought that counts. I wanted to eat KFC for quite some time le but was waiting till saturday. Yummy...

YaYa

Been discussing with my dear for the past few days and decided to move to JB instead of KL. Mei, next time you still can put kubao at my house while you go for holiday liao.

Well, we did some detail thinking and discussion. First, he is applying PR for us so there might be a chance that I will not allowed to work (like sg) during that period so he is the only one working. And also, we can't really find anyone to take care of the kids if I were to work. Malaysia is different from Singapore, it is just not as safe there. So leaving them alone at home is totally out of the question. If we were to stay at JB, he could find a job in sg and travel out daily like his colleague to work. So the salary he is taking home will be double of what he is earning. This way, even I am not allowed to work before getting PR, we can still coping comfortably. And also, the houses in JB is so much cheaper than those in KL. Condo in KL cost more than 200k while in JB it only cost less than 100k. Cheap hor?! Even terrace house only cost around 170k.. Where to find such good price in sg wor? But our main priority is to have a safe environment. Frankly speaking, JB is not as safe as KL so must choose carefully. We are intending to look around soon and hopefully to move there next year.

Dear don't seems very happy in his work area now so he can find another job after we move there. His company kiasu, need to give 3 months' notice to resign, siao de. Any recommendation on which area in JB is good? =D

Big happening in maple since the patch occurred yesterday. Zakum get extra channel and is getting very messy now. *No eye to see* My zakum was brought forward to 3rd May but seems to be crush with others, don't know what's going on now. Kinda of confuse, haiz.. Pet looting bug has been solved, at least seems to be. My bandit has no problem in getting the leftover even when she pot right before the pet picks up. Some maps have changed, really sad about that. The place I used to hunt honey had changed and now I really hate it. Last time though nependeath is not much there but at least they don't spit at you. Now the map changed into purely nependeath and dark nependeath. And the worse thing is EVERY SINGLE NEPENDEATH SPIT AT YOU. Is really pot consuming and I can't even get near to it without getting damage by it. Sad lar, I'm leaving that place. Goodbye my honey. I can no longer hunt you, is just too pain to kill them. :/ Lucky my beginner left with 4% and she can leech in jr yeti ler, haha... Mei, you can come jr yeti to train liao. =D

Got to go to work, can't write more. P.S.: my supervisor not at office today, so I can surf the net for the whole day. So happy..

YaYa

HAPPY HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Actually was feeling down for the past few days. Not because of quarrelling with anyone or what, is because of my cough. The cough seems to get worse and I went to see company doctor yesterday afternoon and realise I got URTI. Sad lor, got so many problems in such short period. At the same time, I am feeling skin allergy also. Itch everyday till I cannot take it. The upgrading at my area make me allergy (the dust lo), I have to change my bedsheet and clean my floor frequently to prevent itch. This is so sad... In case you do not know what is URTI, go google it. Internet is there for a purpose. Hahaha..

I took annual leave today, really need time to study for my exams tomorrow. I couldn't concentrate because of tiredness and coughing. Just now went play maple awhile since I just woke up, mind still sleeping. Guess what happened? I FOUND NEPENDEATH HONEY IN LESS THAN 30 MINUTES!!!!!!!!!!!! Wahahaha... I can't stop laughing, is like win first prize in 4D. Everyone know that honey is super rare in maple, the price for one is as high as 12mil and it let me find it. I think I will be laughing in my dreams tonight. Let you see my honey, pretty ma? =D


10.30am ler, time to study. Wish me good luck ar.
*Borrow kopi's fairy godmother and ask her to give me luck to pass with flying colours tomorrow.*

YaYa