Hate hate hate my stomach!!! Been having diarrhea since friday and everytime I eat, I get stomachache. Zzz... Don't know what's wrong with it, seems so sensitive. Thinking to visit doc or not, is so frustrating...

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Fine.. Don't know what's wrong with myself, didn't eat dinner last night. Stomach bloated and sound keeps growling out from it. Think there is too much gas in it..

Got stupid dream again and this time is stupid looking monsters fighting with each other. They look fat, short and not really ugly, can't see any colours though.

This morning diarrhea, went twice since I woke up. Haiz.. Take it clearing my stomach, maybe won't put on so much weight? Haha.. I know I think too much le..

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Sigh.. Having headache and sore throat this morning. Practically I didn't sleep well for the past few nights, been waking up to toilet breaks and also dreaming. Last night is a horror movie dream, saw a huge big snake running around the neighbourhood and scaring everyone out. Also dream of going msia, saw we got 2 houses and renting a room. Don't know what kind of rubbish dream la, no link at all..

I want to sleep, I am so sleepy and unwell. Sob sob..

Didn't go for work for the past 2 days, was tired and depressed to go as well. Broke down on Monday night. Think I was too stressed with ah b's homework, well-being and other things too. Felt so pressuring from his school and there isn't much I can do and help. Can't the teachers be more considerate? Can't they be more patient with a special needs boy? Can't they be more sympathy the mother who knows nothing and trying her best to help her son?

Guess those crying makes me feel better and decided not to bother with the teachers anymore. I want to let him do at his own pace, not what the teachers want. It's really tiring and pressure on us. We hardly have enough sleep, he got to sit all day there just to complete his work on time. All he gets from me is scolding and rushing. I don't want to do that anymore, I am tired. I don't want to stress him further. I want us to live for ourselves, not for others.

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Have not been updating my blog, was lazy to do so.  A lot of things happened in the past month and done lots of thinking as well.

Decided to put ah b into special school, had a chat with the student care centre's psychologist. She felt that he is too stressed and could feel his unhappy heart. He is having a very low confidence in himself and perhaps even brain-washed himself that he's not going to make it. Feel very depressed abt it, I can't help him at all. Mummy talked to the speech therapist in KKH and they are willing to help ah b to get enrolled into the special school. Guess he has to walk the longer route after all. I hope he could open his heart to happiness soon.

Went back to maple, not to train but just for the fun. Can't really find any games that attract me and dear got so much OTs to do. Found out a couple (both are my friends) broke up and the gf gave birth to a baby girl recently. Can't judge a person by its appearance? I always thought they are so loving and actually expect them to get married eventually but things really changed so fast. Still remember seeing them together a year ago. Heard the guy got himself another gf and I had no idea if he broke up with her because of the baby or the new gf. Whatever it is, that guy is a jerk and I really hope he will get his retribution for treating my gf this way. Got news that he propose to my gf recently, not because he still loves her but his father is forcing him. All this while during my gf's pregnancy and giving birth, he has never shown concern to her. What is that?! Pity her or marry her because of pressure?! Seriously I do not encourage her to go back to him, his heart no longer include her. Being with him will only bring her more hurt and tears. Hope she will live strong for herself and her baby.

Failed my practical test, as I expected. But to my surprise, I actually knock down pole during test. Perhaps I was too nervous and not used to the tester car as well. Still thinking how to pass next month, haiz..

Most of my colleagues got the news of my pregnancy, guess it spreads quite fast when 1 or 2 of them knew it. Didn't mention to them that I'm quitting after maternity, don't see the point of saying anyway. Baby been kicking me daily, been counting down to May, the month I am officially on maternity leave. Really wish it will come faster, I can't wait..

My room is like a storeroom now, kept with so many baby stuffs like stroller, car seat, clothings, playpen etc. No place to put them and currently waiting for the new house's key. It's almost ready now, waiting for them to touchup and doing the defects. Dear went over last saturday and took tons of photos back. Really like the house and feel it doesn't need much reno. Guess I am a simple girl, haha.. Really loves the new house and hope to see it myself asap.

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I am dying soon.. I need sleep badly.. Ah b has been making us sleep near to midnight daily due to spelling and homework. Sometimes I really wish that he could just write faster and let us sleep earlier. He himself look like panda, quoted from mummy. Hahaha..

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Thought my pok pok will have new playpen aka bed (for the moment) by this weekend until an idiot came to overbid me in the last minute. Wanted to keep track my item today but I was busy during noon time so by the time I am free to check, the auction had already over. This is so frustrating!!! The item has been put for auction for weeks and no one bothers to bid for it. You know I placed my bid before cny and there isn't anyone overbid me at all. I believe that person was hoping that the seller to lower her price and when saw someone bid for it, he/she decide to overbid me in the last minute. Haiz.. Just take it I got no fate with that item.

Now thinking of shopping around to find one which is not very expensive and of course it must be cheaper than cot bed. We had decided to buy cot bed in msia, it's cheaper there. Saw it cost 300 plus but in ringgit while here cost in sing dollars. Zzz.. Who is out of their mind to buy here then and got to carry it over? Any nice and pretty playpens that you have come across, please let me know. Thanks!

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Been so busy at dear hometown, hardly stayed at home for the past few days. But could see that dear and his parents being very happy so still ok la. Enen had been very naughty during the stay there as there are many people doting her. -.-

Most of the foods in the wedding weren't to my liking so didn't manage to eat much. I was so busy during that night anyway, don't know give how many elders teas to drink, haha.. Enen kept wanting to wear my gold and the more she saw on my hand, the angrier she get. Personally, I really wanted to forgo the dinner but I know that they wanted it very much as dear is the only son in the family. Guess I got to give and take so everyone will be happy. :)

This is the first time in my life that I had given out so many hongbaos. Didn't really count them but the hongbaos I gave during dinner are about 50 plus or 60 plus and it's the same during CNY. There are so many children there lo but I still earn from it la. At least I know how much to prepare next year le, hehe..

Too many photos (more than 300 of them), don't think I will be able to upload all but will choose a few to put them up.

Oh ya, his family has decided on baby's name le. He shall be call 林靖维, English name has not been decided yet. It will be up to us to get him the English name. We chose a few names for his family to choose from so at least still not bad, it's those that I can accept de. ^^

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Nothing much happened this past week, except I went to my grandma's birthday celebration last sunday. Haiz.. Don't talk about it le. The food they ordered there I don't eat majority of it and the funny thing is I actually don't feel hungry when I get home though I ate very little. Guess I was too tired.. No photos taken there, people there grabbed food too fast, totally no chance to take at all. Haha.. Realise jie and her hubby sold their flat without buying another 1 so now they are living apart. Jie lives at Pasir Ris while her hubby lives in AMK.. Like separation hor?

Tomorrow going ICA to change kids' passports names and surnames, been wanting to go but due to laziness I had postponed it for quite some time. Intending to buy some baby's clothings from mothercare as they are having clearance sales. Quite cheap, I went to see them at KKH.

Dear getting excited about tomorrow. Not buying clothes la, is because I am going to detail scanning. =P Hope everything turns out fine.

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Tiring.. Woke up at 6.30am to go driving centre . On my way home, I was thinking to ask my sis to go shopping with me later so asked her if she would like to or not and also telling her I'm going Taka, can help her look out for her egg roll. However she mistaken me was on my way to Orchard when I was on my way home to eat lunch. -.-ll End up we rushed for our lunch and go out (while she took her time to eat lunch!).

Waa... I never expect to see so many people there, guess it was on sales and people are rushing to buy clothings for CNY? I bought the electric breast pump with lots of goodies in a bag for $279. The original price is the same except there are no goodies so might as well get it during sales since I have to get it sooner or later. Bought some other related stuffs as Avent is having 20% disc. Hee..

After shopping at the children's dept for quite some time (my sis took quite some time to come over lo), we went to Mac to get twister fries for ourselves. Didn't bother to find a seat there as it was fully packed. My sis bought 2 sling card holders from the kitty design brand, 1 for kubao and the other for my ger as bdae present. =D

Went to OG at orchard (didn't want to go Bugis outlet instead as it was quite far from Seiyu) and end up buying a stroller cost me $689 before 15% disc. It was made in Italy and though it's as heavy as the one my sis using now but it is much easier to push and also it can carry up to 36kg. Waa.. Anyway enen was tired of walking so got the stroller so she could sit on it.

Sis went Seiyu later to buy shoes for kubao and I didn't manage to get shoes for ah b, no size for him so think he got to buy adult shoes from now on. Instead we got him a shirt, just nice to wear it during dinner since enen bought a princess dress on friday. I went to look for dear after enen seen dental and bought a few sets of baby clothing from mothercare. Was having sales there and some look really cute but many do not have the sizes I want. Spent alot last week, got to stop buying for time being. Hee...

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Kelian de enen going to dentist this friday to have 2 of her teeth extract out. She is still so happy asking us is she going to see doctor soon. I guess she will be hating the dentist after friday, haha.. I got no choice actually, she has 2 new teeth coming out and the baby teeth show no sign of dropping soon. To prevent the new teeth from growing in an weird position, the baby teeth must extract asap. I have talked to dear, telling him that I will let her buy a toy after that to at least let her feel happier. Anyway she didn't have new toy for quite some time le.

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I took leave today intending to bring my daughter for her doctor's appointment but only realise her appointment is on the 7th when I check the letter referral last night! This is insane!!! I keep remembering either the wrong date or time, what's happening to me nowadays?! Guess I got to call them to change it to my other leave days that I taking this month or delay it for the time being. I can't anymore leave this month leh, I have taken 3 days and another day of mc. Haiz... And next month I intend to get mc when I go for my driving test. We shall see how first..

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Sad... I went to see gynae yesterday. Don't worry, both of us are fine just that I feel sad.. =(
Saw the gender of the baby le, not of the same sex as me. *bleh* I was hoping it will be a baby girl. Haiz.. I guess we don't have a say of it right?

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Half dead today, was falling sick. Flu still there and sore throat is visiting me soon. The irritation I had in my throat is causing me to vomit anytime. I hate it.

Went to Vivo City yesterday with my sister and mother, of course with dear as well. We went there early, wanted to eat my lunch there. And guess what, I couldn't really find what I want to eat in Harbourfront Shopping Centre. There are many fast-food restaurants there but I didn't want to eat that. And in the end we ate at Pizza Hut..

Bought quite a number of clothings there. I got myself 3 tops and a dress, colours approved by dear. Thought I could wear the tops I had but his grandma does not allow black for CNY. It's not cheap, I spend $183 in there. *Heart pain* Bought 2 tops for my girl and 3 tops plus a btm for my boy. It's either I buy it now or never. I am too lazy to go out and get CNY clothing for them. Since there are are discounts for boys clothes, I just bought it there. Cost me $151. *Heart more pain* My girl got herself a new pair of sandals because she broke hers at the playground there! It cost me $29.90... My sister bought a dress and a bright red top costing $95 while I paid for her. You must be thinking why am I the one paying. Because we had a deal.. We decided that I paid for her clothes while their family paid for the dinner. I was taking a risk at that time, not knowing how much the dinner would cost. I was just hoping I can save a bit. =p Haha.. The dinner cost $232 so I did save $20. I guess my sister will be the happiest person yesterday since she only forked out $60 for dinner (saved $35) while Jason bought her a watch from Espirit, think he paid about $161 after 10% disc from my member card. She wanted to get the member card for herself but I told her to take mine since I have not been using it at all. Lucky she agreed.

Will upload all the photos taken by this weekend. I was too tired when I got home last night and I got to work today. Haiz..

YaYa

Merry Christmas everyone!!!

I am home from work, this year we had 1/2 day as well. Yesterday had company lunch xmas party, had turkey for the first time and didn't really as I expected. Well, the turkey I ate taste like ham and it was cold since we didn't reheat it. -.-ll

I got my wedding album back and almost all of it as well. The shop forgot to give us a photo frame with 3 photos of it so got to go back there again. Haiz.. I hate walking the new custom in JB nowadays. Anyway its nice to get a CD of all the photos we chose so I can email it my friends. But guys, don't ask me to email all of them to you. There are lots of photos u know? Anyway, I have uploaded them into facebook so feel free to view them there.

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I still couldn't wake up on time for work as usual. Guess this few months will be having not enough sleep since I have to go driving centre every weekend. Feel like giving up, it's so tiring. But lawrence has been encouraging me, asking me to tolerate for a few more months. But sometimes it very difficult, I just feel like sleeping the whole day and not going to work. I still have to persuade myself every now and then to get up for work. This is so depressing.. =(

Wedding shop called us last week, telling us that the album is ready for collection. Zzz... Told the in-charge to send us the amendment photos first and now she told us is already done.

Mother-in-law called dear on Monday. She had a dream, seeing the baby and it's a baby girl. Haha.. Wonder if the dream will come true or not.

Should I bring Everett along or should I put him at mummy's place? Realise that mummy has been talking with dear, telling him that we can put him at her place if we are moving to Msia. Guess ah b had told mummy about the new house over there so mummy is quite worried. I think I need more time to consider..

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Did quite a lot of things during the weekends but was tired to update till now.

I passed my ftt on friday, was so happy and booked traffic police test on 17/2/09. Well, attended 4 practical lessons and kind of regret to book my test date so early. Every instructor used different method to teach so I was very nervous and stalled engine every now and then. The more he corrected me on the spot, the more mistakes I will make. Oh my god..

Oh yah, I can finally announce my secret to everyone le. There will be a new member in my family in June next year. ^^ Get the meaning?

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For the past 2 weeks I had been taking the 15mins later bus to work. I couldn't wake up and I am just on time to work so may as well. Ever since the Aid drama show finished, I started to sleep around 9pm. Hee..

I felt so lucky the bus I am taking is a double-deck bus. There is a lady who took the same bus as me and abroad a bus-stop after me uses a very terrible smelling perfume. You know how awful her perfume spell? Like vomited stuffs smell.. And worse thing is she always like to sit beside me (if I sat below). OH MY GOD!!! Even she doesn't sit beside me but near me, I could still smell it. I wonder why would someone uses such horrible smell perfume? Yucks..

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I know, I know... Finally I updated my blog.. I am too tired to update nowadays.. I would just sit there awhile after work and sleep as soon as possible. I misses those old days, haiz..

Yesterday I just attended my company meeting. Was told that company is cutting cost, freezing employment and will not retrench any staffs at the moment. Hopefully I can survive here till next year. Not asking much, just a few more months will do.

Dear got the bus tickets to go back to his hometown during Chinese New Year. Bus going to departs at 5.30pm. Zzz... This is so early, I want to have my dinner taken in sg, not in some super expensive foodcourt in msia while the quality of food given is not even worth half of that price. Got to bring some food on my way there and also how to make sure I don't sleep too early and woke up too early the next day? Hmm...

Received the design preview from the wedding shop, need to make some amendments. Wonder if I am able to collect them by CNY or not.. But no choice, they have edit too much and it doesn't even like ourselves. Headache..
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I seriously in need of sleep.. I am unable to wake up for work, my eyes just couldn't open. How I wish I could just sleep as much as I want, there isn't a need to force myself to wake up and restless for the whole day. I miss weekends..

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