Waited more than 2 hours yesterday but when I saw the screen, all the wait is worth it. I saw her being very excited, jumping up and down and waving her tiny little hand. At 1 point of time, I think I even saw a smile like face. Though the screen is in black and white but I could clearly recognise the face. I can't wait to see her again next month, hope she will let me know her gender then as this time she had her legs all up and showing off her buttocks. =D

I was so upset and angry last night. My boy had his legs on my bed, making me unable to turn and felt so warm thus unable to sleep. Tried to wake him up to move my boy but he slept like dead log. End up I had to sleep on the floor and he still sleep so soundly, at 1 point of time he even sleep over to my side! It started to rain and I cant get back to bed so I had to sleep on the sofa. =(

My boy down with chickenpox while I barely able to eat anything, how worse can it get? Lucky my boy seems well and fine with it or else I think I will be death at a even faster rate. Sigh..

December, december.. When are you coming? I wish it will come real soon and hope I will feel better. Eating meals now seem a torture to me as I hardly can eat it and at the same time I can feel the hunger in me. Arghh....

I feel so unwell, I feel like I am dying everyday. I know all these feelings are good signs but sometimes I really hate it. I know I am indecisive. =(

Time for laugh

Just now I went to topup petrol fuel and after when I am done, I couldn't start my car. I tried like 5-6 times, still unable to start it so I have no choice but to call dear. In the end I forgot to put my gear to N/P. >.< 

I think I must be daydreaming again, don't know I didn't take note of that. Dear definitely will be laughing at me when he come home tonight.

Tomorrow evening I will be facing the answer, I am not thinking of it now. I don't want to stress myself or anyone. :)

I don't know what is truth and what is fake, I don't know to believe or to doubt. I am afraid to believe what I had seen, I am afraid that I will be disappointed. I don't know if I have the courage to face it, I don't know what kind of feeling should I get myself prepared. Everything seems so real and yet so unreal at the same time. I will only know the answer in another week time, what will the answer be and what answer am I hoping..

I thought I will be having a smooth sailing journey, I guess I got too excited. Now I am feeling unwell, nausea has been around for like half an hour and I just feel like going to the toilet to puke. Sigh.. I hope this kind of feeling will not get worse, just stay this way. :( 

It has been such a long long time since I wrote something in my blog, I think partly is because I am plain lazy to update it. I hope I will try to update it more frequent so in the future I will not forget bits and pieces of the memories that I will like to remember. 

Today is the 3rd day dear went Hongkong, he didn't call us in the afternoon so I guess he must be too busy to do so. I can only see him in another week, I wonder if he misses us like how we miss him? 

Decided to spend more time with the family instead of the laptop, my boy has been growing so fast and I hope I can see him more before he doesn't want me to be with him. Haha..

Beaba Babycook Baby Food Maker is in my next to buy list. ^^ Got to write it here in case I forgotten the name, haha..

Went for a shopping spree yesterday but the one who got the most is my boy, haha.. He got himself a farm with truck and lots of animals, a ball, a set of utensils for his self feeding, his bathing and utensil washing refills, a finger toothbrush, a learning chopsticks. I think that's it, I can't remember it. Hehe..

Actually we intend to get a darker tone curtains and a mirror in Ikea but end up buying so many things for him. Seeing him enjoys so much in his new farm, I am glad that we decide to buy it back. 

Ordered a few sets of his cloth diapers and should be receiving them tomorrow. He starts wearing them 24/7 but due to raining weather, he doesn't have enough diapers to change. Anyway he will be using them for quite some time so still worthwhile.

He has showed interest in self feeding and this afternoon he had his first try. It was fine initially and right after I took some photos, his food start to fly over all the place. Haha.. It's really fun to see him progressing daily, getting better and cleverer each day. I hope to hear him call MaMa real soon. =)

YaYa

Currently crazy about cloth diaper. Haha.. Not those we see and use in the olden days where we have to fold it and can only wear for 1 pee. I am referring to those modified ones where each cloth diaper can wear about 3hrs, the cover is in either solid and designs plus WATERPROOF material. Though is expensive when buy initially but in the long run, I can save quite a sum. And can pass down if is well-maintenance., haha.. Actually the main point is not only can save money, can save the environment too. Since I am a SATM, I believe I have the time to wash it (anyway I am not the one washing, is my washing machine doing the job =D). Looking forward to receive them perhaps by next week, give them a few washes and ready to use on my boy. Can't wait to receive my loots! ^^

YaYa

Once upon a time, there is a silly girl who thought herself as a piece of carrot so when she was holding a carrot while cutting, she put her own finger at the bottom of the knife and cut it along. Haha.. That person is me. =.= Nothing serious but that finger won't be able to use anytime soon since I can't press on it.

Dear is considering of changing job. At first he was worried I will be unhappy but I told him his fear is unfounded.  If he wishes to change a new environment, I won't stop him. I know he isn't happy with his current job so I keep encouraging him to find a new one. Hope he can get one that he truly likes and enjoys. ^^

YaYa

Time passes so fast, I have been driving for 2 weeks to and fro custom le. Well, so far so good and of course hope it will remain the same for the rest of my life. Haha..

Everyone in the family falls sick, cough and flu. Lucky my little boy is getting well soon, he is stronger than I thought. His 7th tooth is on its way out and think the 8th tooth will be here anytime, haha.. Waiting for him to get well before training him to sleep on his own. He has been sleeping with us and kicking him whole night. Lucky his head always on my side so I am able to sleep peacefully. =P

YaYa

2 years has passed, I thought my heart has heal, I thought I had move on, I thought I had put it down. 

My heart can still feel the pain as if it had just happened, everything is still so fresh in my mind. My heart still misses so much, my tears still flow down automatically, I still hope it didn't happen at all. I can't turn back time; I wish I could; I yearn I could.

There will always be a little place for you in my heart, my mind. I miss you, I really do.

YaYa

I think I will be dying of exhaustion soon. For the past few nights, weiwei has been crying for not few mins but few hours. I really don't know what he wants or do, I am so tired of petting him back to sleep while he cried and rolled all over the place. If he's teething, I hope the nightmare will end real soon. Haiz..

I think I might see ***ae in JB but trying to find good one or else I won't even think about it. Wonder if anyone can helps me ask around or not.. Pray that everything goes smoothly.

YaYa

I have a little secret, a secret that can't say it out. Wanted to tell everyone but I know I can't. Sigh..

YaYa

It has been a super long time since I last posted. Well, was struggling with itch (almost) daily and it was really a hard task to deal with everyday when woke up. Legs started to itch and even though you don't scratch it, it will automatically spread to other areas. Sometimes I can't stand it and scratch like hell. Of course, it gets worsen and leave scars on it. I had this problem for months but couldn't think of a solution. In the end, I force myself to pay a visit to the doctor. The moment doctor listened to my complaint and seen my legs, he told me it is a sign of allergy. Bleh.. At the same time, the first thing that came into my mind is dust!!! Alot of renovations going around my area and my district is still building many houses but as I still sweep the floor frequently, I am not sure if that's the cause.  Anyway I had an anti-allergy injection and given some medicines too.

The moment I got home, I took off all the bedsheets, curtains to wash. Vacuum the floor, mop it and clear everything that collect dust. Has been cleaning the house since Sunday and so far the itch never come back. Intend to wash major items every 2 weeks and too bad I can't sun my mattress, haha.. Dear must be feeling relieved to hear that as our mattress is so heavy. Let's pray the itch will never ever return to me again, I hate it!

YaYa

My little weiwei is having teeth soon, can see 2 white teeth at the bottom of his mouth. Finally I guess, he has been biting on things he can hold and lucky that he doesn't drool. Hee..

Dear's parents intend to bring the kids (of course including us) to Genting during the CNY. We planned to go back hometown for few more days but his colleagues took the days right after CNY so dear is not allowed to take it. He was unhappy, keeps comfort him telling him we can go back during June holiday. I understand that his parents miss him and weiwei so I don't mind going back for longer time, anyway it's just once or twice a year.

I am quite lazy to upload photos as all in dear's laptop. Will try to upload from his when I remember lo. ^^

YaYa

Time seems to pass very fast. Weiwei is almost 8mths old, still remember how tiny he was when he first come to the world. He is getting naughtier each day but at the same time, he is more adorable and always make others laugh. He is already able to stand on his own quite well and starts to walk a couple of steps holding onto sofa, bed frame. I think he might starts walking soon and perhaps will skip crawling phase. Cause whenever I put him on tummy, he will just turn around without trying to crawl. =.= I think can't force him to do things, shall let nature take its own course.

Enen has been coping well in school. She has homework daily (almost) and today is her first chinese spelling, wonder if she can cope with it or not. Well, I don't wish to give her any pressure, just hope that she can do well in her studies. Her birthday is in 2 weeks' time and falls on a friday. Dear has decided to take half-day leave on that day so we can buy her a cake secretly and celebrate for her when she comes home from school. Lucky she didn't reach home very late, around 7.30pm.

Ah b has been doing his homework. Mummy told me that if he does that, he will be allow to play games. Haha.. Now he study his own spelling also, getting more and more independent I guess. Hope he will be a good boy.

YaYa