I don't know what is truth and what is fake, I don't know to believe or to doubt. I am afraid to believe what I had seen, I am afraid that I will be disappointed. I don't know if I have the courage to face it, I don't know what kind of feeling should I get myself prepared. Everything seems so real and yet so unreal at the same time. I will only know the answer in another week time, what will the answer be and what answer am I hoping..

I thought I will be having a smooth sailing journey, I guess I got too excited. Now I am feeling unwell, nausea has been around for like half an hour and I just feel like going to the toilet to puke. Sigh.. I hope this kind of feeling will not get worse, just stay this way. :( 

It has been such a long long time since I wrote something in my blog, I think partly is because I am plain lazy to update it. I hope I will try to update it more frequent so in the future I will not forget bits and pieces of the memories that I will like to remember. 

Today is the 3rd day dear went Hongkong, he didn't call us in the afternoon so I guess he must be too busy to do so. I can only see him in another week, I wonder if he misses us like how we miss him? 

Decided to spend more time with the family instead of the laptop, my boy has been growing so fast and I hope I can see him more before he doesn't want me to be with him. Haha..