Waited more than 2 hours yesterday but when I saw the screen, all the wait is worth it. I saw her being very excited, jumping up and down and waving her tiny little hand. At 1 point of time, I think I even saw a smile like face. Though the screen is in black and white but I could clearly recognise the face. I can't wait to see her again next month, hope she will let me know her gender then as this time she had her legs all up and showing off her buttocks. =D

I was so upset and angry last night. My boy had his legs on my bed, making me unable to turn and felt so warm thus unable to sleep. Tried to wake him up to move my boy but he slept like dead log. End up I had to sleep on the floor and he still sleep so soundly, at 1 point of time he even sleep over to my side! It started to rain and I cant get back to bed so I had to sleep on the sofa. =(

My boy down with chickenpox while I barely able to eat anything, how worse can it get? Lucky my boy seems well and fine with it or else I think I will be death at a even faster rate. Sigh..

December, december.. When are you coming? I wish it will come real soon and hope I will feel better. Eating meals now seem a torture to me as I hardly can eat it and at the same time I can feel the hunger in me. Arghh....

I feel so unwell, I feel like I am dying everyday. I know all these feelings are good signs but sometimes I really hate it. I know I am indecisive. =(

Time for laugh

Just now I went to topup petrol fuel and after when I am done, I couldn't start my car. I tried like 5-6 times, still unable to start it so I have no choice but to call dear. In the end I forgot to put my gear to N/P. >.< 

I think I must be daydreaming again, don't know I didn't take note of that. Dear definitely will be laughing at me when he come home tonight.

Tomorrow evening I will be facing the answer, I am not thinking of it now. I don't want to stress myself or anyone. :)

I don't know what is truth and what is fake, I don't know to believe or to doubt. I am afraid to believe what I had seen, I am afraid that I will be disappointed. I don't know if I have the courage to face it, I don't know what kind of feeling should I get myself prepared. Everything seems so real and yet so unreal at the same time. I will only know the answer in another week time, what will the answer be and what answer am I hoping..

I thought I will be having a smooth sailing journey, I guess I got too excited. Now I am feeling unwell, nausea has been around for like half an hour and I just feel like going to the toilet to puke. Sigh.. I hope this kind of feeling will not get worse, just stay this way. :( 

It has been such a long long time since I wrote something in my blog, I think partly is because I am plain lazy to update it. I hope I will try to update it more frequent so in the future I will not forget bits and pieces of the memories that I will like to remember. 

Today is the 3rd day dear went Hongkong, he didn't call us in the afternoon so I guess he must be too busy to do so. I can only see him in another week, I wonder if he misses us like how we miss him? 

Decided to spend more time with the family instead of the laptop, my boy has been growing so fast and I hope I can see him more before he doesn't want me to be with him. Haha..